The title "本心" meaning "true feelings" is a story set in a near-future Japan. The year is 2040 and everywhere you go there's AI and VR. There's even a new law where if people feel the need to die they can whenever if they get doctors' approval. We follow a guy who's mother just died in an accident. But before that, his mom tells him that she decided to die on her will, because she's "had enough." He wants to find out what made her want to choose death when things were going well. He goes to a place where AI is created and he asks them to create his AI mom. Will he ever find out what really made his mom want to end her life when she still had more years to live? My heart would break and I'd panic if my mom says "I'm thinking about ending my life because I lived plenty. I even got a doctor's approval" WHAT?
This book was so thick but was worth reading. It touched on many subjects. Life and death. Inequality. Happiness. AI vs Humans. AI can only work in a pattern, but humans, we can change. You're a different person today than you were yesterday and I feel that is something I should feel appreciative and fortunate about.
The main character’s mother is from the same generation as me. Like her, I’m a single mother, and my work is unstable. That’s why this story feels so heavy for me. In the end, the reason she wanted to die “freely” wasn’t due to pressure from society, but for me, it could become a reality in the future. The struggles of the main character and others to protect themselves from discrimination and the gap between rich and poor are things I can relate to deeply. I also try to stay calm and not lose myself, even though I often feel anger toward the unfairness of society and its systems.
At the end of the story, I felt a little bit of hope, though it was faint. Still, I want to make sure I don’t lose that small hope.
I'm always impressed the way Mr. Hirano reflect real social issues in his novel. The protagonist seems too naive to sympathise (but it's understandable as he's early 30 whose mother suddenly died away by an accident), but the story made me think how to adopt the death of someone very close, and also multiple personas that we all have.