Oh wow, what a read! Where do I start with this extremely unique and intense work?
I'll start with Curtis--he is a super interesting character. The way this is written allows me to see every thought in his mind, and it's so... disjointed, yet there, at the same time. His reactions are extremely logical, and lack the typical emotion that I'm used to with protagonists. This is a look into a different kind of mind than from what I'm used to, and I love it. His approach to matters is so interesting--he says everything exactly how he thinks it, doesn't hide his thoughts on something, and explains things in depth. Even the wandering-off in his thought process was a joy to read here, that's something I could wholeheartedly empathize with.
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I ADORE his lack of reaction to Yana, who by the way was another super interesting character. I couldn't tell at first if she was malicious... or sinister. But as I got through the story, I realized that she feels, to me, like someone that does have a good heart. She's there for the adventure, the story, and does value Curtis more than I believe he can see. Her sarcasm and jabs were a joy to read, and I found myself chuckling at her antics. Though she's a god, she's so... down to earth, if that makes sense. Sassy, hilarious, and just... present and in the moment. I absolutely love how a powerful deity can be depicted this way. She felt human, and despite her powers, never went overboard or felt 'all powerful and too good for you'. Sure, she had an ego, that much was clear. But again, it was realistic.
Then, Gray, and that entire storyline--let me just say, that was emotional and struck a cord so many times. My heart bled for her, and honestly? This work created a villain that, really, I couldn't find myself hating so much. Alice wanted to be something. I almost felt like, despite how selfish she was, she wanted to cling to making a difference. For better or for worse. I could feel her pain through the writing. I actually felt sad at the endpoint of this arc. Then, Gray, in contrast, and her shy but present demeanor worked well against her. She was such a strong character, and it makes me happy to see a lady protagonist written with such a strong resolve despite going through so much.
Finally, Curtis's story in the end. I wanted to make mention of how anxiety/depression was depicted here. It felt so real, I actually almost began to cry. What a cord it struck with me. The feeling of going nowhere, being no one, forgotten, left behind, with possibly no future. I myself haven't ever had no one, but I've felt that empty, hopeless feeling myself. The thought that there is no strong future or anywhere to go. Unlike Alice, I felt it was SOMETHING. I could not blame Curtis for being that way. I really do appreciate how this work depicts that you don't have to go through some tragic backstory to feel this way. That it can happen regardless--and that, no matter what, the feelings are still real, and still valid.
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All in all, I give this five stars. This work was captivating, and it was different. I highly recommend and feel that it should be given a strong chance. There are some REALLY rich and important lessons in this work that will resonate with people. It teaches about vengeance, loneliness, and selflessness.
Oh, and I can't end this without mentioning the world building. We were given tidbits as we went, and it was blended so naturally with the real world. I love the 'no big deal' feeling for everything that was shown (though, with Curtis speaking, that of course makes sense). The fantasy/paranormal elements kept expanding as it went, which was good fun.
Some might think the work is slow at first, which is fair, but honestly the buildup is worth it and important for the excellent edge-of-seat moments that come toward the middle and end.