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I Would Never...But If I Did

4.39  ·  Rating details ·  31 ratings  ·  25 reviews
Taryn Sams doesn’t believe in love. Period. Every time she’s gotten close, her happiness has been ripped from her, proving once again the only thing worth believing in is the inevitability of her own – and others – screw ups.

For Austin Wright, Taryn is the one who got away. But really, if he’s honest with himself, he pushed her away, with one hard shove. He did the one thi
Published April 10th 2020
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Kristen Granata
Apr 13, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
The thing I love about the characters Maria creates is that they aren’t perfect, likable people. I didn’t like Taryn at first, but her story made me sit back and think about why I didn’t like her. She had a messed up past & that shaped her into who she is. We’ve all been in the kind of situation where you’re pulled between your head & your heart & have to make tough decisions, and Taryn was definitely in the middle. This story was weaved very, very well. It was super interesting throughout & kep ...more
Apr 06, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Holy wow. This book was a crazy ride. It was real, raw, and all-engrossing. Taryn is one messed up woman. Love has done her wrong, to put it mildly. There are hurts in her past that are just … wow. Dancing between keeping one man who is clearly head over heels for her just far enough away while keeping a toe in the “friend” pond with her ex who is about to be not so “ex” anymore (and did I mention he’s the first guy’s best friend?), I’m not sure if we’re supposed to love Taryn or hate her. Her c ...more
Apr 06, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  (Review from the author)  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: my-books
Okay - OF COURSE I'm biased - but this is one of my all time favorite books that I've ever written. It's not for everyone; there's a lot of dysfunction and emotional stuff, but also deep love and growth. But, if you're into that this book may be for you! ...more

Jesus Christ, where do I even start!? Just WOW. That is the only thing coming out of my mouth.

I am in LOVE with 'I Would Never...But If I Did'! This read has put me through a roller-coaster of emotions, and may I say I hate admitting that I cried because EMOTIONS SUCK, I have a mixture of happy, sad and angry tears running down my face right now. I have never connected with a character the way I did while reading this EVER. Taryn is such a strong character
Mc Chanster
Yes. Yes, Maria Ann Green. Yes to this book. Yes to Taryn. Yes to Theo, and Maicy and yes to all the characters that gave me all the feels. When I got this from Voracious Readers Only, I was, honestly, a little hesitant. Love triangles are rarely written well and more often than not, I end up hating everybody and wishing they would all just go their separate ways. But then Taryn.

I shouldn’t like her. I should think she’s selfish, and childish, and rather self-indulgent considering she keeps two
May 13, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
What do you do when you are in love with one guy, but another one offers you the security you are craving? Well for Taryn you date them both making for an incredibly confusing love triangle with your ex, his current girlfriend and his best friend.

Taryn never wanted to trust anyone with her heart, her past scaring her into not believing in true love so when she fell and got her heart broken she vowed for it never to happen again. She's a broken character, brash and unapologetic. I couldn't relat
Apr 11, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: romance, arc-won
I was very generously provided this book to review by the author prior to its release.
"I Would Never... But If I Did" by Maria Ann Green was much better then I expected it to be when I first started this book. Then I powered through the first few pages and I couldn't put it down. What initially triggered me about this book is that right off the bat, just a few pages in we are met with a guy willing to cheat on his girlfriend for a girl who asks him to. I really passionately dislike when I read
Joyce Black
May 14, 2020 rated it it was amazing
Realistic Dialogue. Thought Provoking. - 4.5 Stars

This is a very well written story that is original and unique in nature. This story is filled with: drama, angst, despair, frustration and coming out on top is love. The characterizations were very well done; detailed, unique, with some characters who are not that easy to understand nor like but this element just brought out the characters`individuality even more. There was a lot of being inside a character`s head and privy to their inner dialogu
Jacqueline Gunn
May 20, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book is as much an emotional journey as it is a story about love. Written almost as a stream-of-consciousness narrative, we get an intimate and thorough look into Taryn's tormented inner life. We are privy to how she makes her decisions, often to her own detriment, and creates drama for herself and those closest to her - especially the two men she is involved with, who (by the way) are best friends. Messy, to say the least.

I found Taryn sympathetic. I understood her emotional reactions and
May 04, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This “love” story is indeed a love story. But Green presents such a twisted, imperfect, and broken tale of smashed hearts, lingering regrets, tortured souls, and helpless mistakes that she almost flips the genre on its head. A gripping, gritty, and angsty romance Thea builds along a very real and frustratingly winding path to find oneself as much as finding someone else. Relax: there is a HEA and it’s so satisfying after that whirlwind, all written in beautiful prose.

(Note: it’s mostly clean bu
Jul 07, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
This story by Maria Ann Green really grabbed me by the heart and didn't let go. In I Would Never...But If I Did, Taryn and Austin float in and out of each other's lives, a toxic pairing that feels both inevitable and impossible. Meanwhile, Taryn also finds comfort in Theo, Austin's best friend and Taryn's companion from foster care. Green truly paints with her words, taking her reader on a roller coaster of emotions that resonates even after the final page. I highly recommend this book for anyon ...more
Patricia Harris
Jun 01, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
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Sep 23, 2020 rated it really liked it
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*I received a complimentary copy of the book from the author via Voracious Readers Only*

I loved Taryn, and then hated her, and then loved her again.

This whole book was great. It was messy, chaotic, confusing, real. With an absolute disaster of a girl making bad choices, worse choices, and just finding herself.
Fraida Weiskop
Jun 22, 2020 rated it it was amazing
I really enjoyed reading this free review copy of this novel. The angst of the title character was portrayed very strongly. Steamy sex scenes with the 2 men in her life. The Theo character seemed to be a much better choice. Austin was quite unlovable. I couldn't put it down until I was able to finish it. ...more
Shelly Lindsley
Jun 08, 2020 rated it it was ok
Thank you to Voracious Readers Only and author Maria Ann Green for my free copy. I’m sorry I really didn’t enjoy the book. While I do feel it was extremely real and very well written it just wasn’t my thing. I didn’t like any of the characters. I saw them and shellfish and stupidly self destructive.
May 12, 2020 rated it liked it
I really couldn’t get into this book. The characters didn’t stand out and I had a hard time just trying to finish it.
Luz Acevedo
Jul 01, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book is messy and absolutely crazy and I totally enjoyed it. The story is raw, realistic emotional and funny... it’s one hell of a ride...
Nikki Deeley
Jun 10, 2020 rated it it was amazing
This book was very real, it had real deep emotion in and dealt with difficult topics realistically. Very emotional.
Kerry | The Wineing Reader
Do you ever have trouble finding the right words to write a proper review? Not because you didn't like the book, but because you loved it so much that you feel like no words you could ever conjure up could do the book justice? That's how I feel about I Would Never...But If I Did by Maria Ann Green, releasing TODAY!

Taryn Sams believes love doesn't exist. Nope, it's not for her. She tried it, and got her heart shattered by Austin, after he promised her he wouldn't. So she shut herself down, and bu
Wow. I am new to Maria Ann Green and I want to slap myself for waiting months to read this. This book was like a train ride with no brakes and at some points you were riding the rails, I LOVED IT. I devoured this in hours, I couldn’t put it down.

Let’s talk Taryn, I went back and forth between wanting to slap her and hug her 🥺 she’s not your typical heroine, you don’t love her immediately, in fact, I didn’t even like her ... which made me love her even more at the end. She’s messy, she’s real &
May 17, 2020 rated it liked it
This book took a long time for me to get into... I was about half way through before I found myself enjoying the story but I was glad that I stuck it through.

The characters are flawed but realistic and I thought the book had a strong conclusion. It had touching moments and parts which left me shaking my head and thinking "What are they doing???" but I could understand the character's reasoning based on their background which led to my enjoyment.

This is not a book for everyone but I would recomme
G.G. Gleason
Jun 24, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book was mess-y. And I don't mean the writing; that was great. Taryn just really loves a mess. This story was intricate, complicated, and very emotional. I found myself rooting for one of the guys, then quickly switching teams. But throughout, I was hoping and crossing my fingers that Taryn realized her own worth, and that she deserved to be happy.

The ending surprised me, but I really liked it. Anticlimactic, but in a very reassuring, hopeful way.
Andrea Nourse
Apr 28, 2020 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
You know those deeply tortured, complicated, flawed characters that are so endearing you can’t help but love them?

That’s Taryn Sams. At times, I wanted to grab her by the shoulders and shake some sense into her … like, girl, listen to your friend and family!

As always, Maria Ann Green’s writing is flawless, even if her characters aren’t. She knows how to tug your heart and suck you into a story.
Jun 12, 2020 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Enjoyed this book, I changed my opinion of Taryn several times because of the way she treated people but I'm glad in the end I liked her, she made the right choice ...more
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Maria, an internationally bestselling indie author, lives in Minnesota despite the frozen winters. Actually, she prefers snow drifts and icicles over summer and all that sweat running everywhere. She lives with her husband and little family, which includes a couple lazy cats who make great lap warmers. You can usually find her whishing that she lived in a secret cabin in the woods where she could ...more

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