Not influential and not inspiring. I rarely leave reviews on things, but this one reached a level where I felt physically and mentally sick reading it. I tried to push through to get to the "awakening" bits and did not manage to get there linearly. I had to jump through sections, simply to check the box that I read this book.
This book could have used a lot of editing. More than half of its content could be slashed at no cost to the plot, if it can be called that way. The author goes on endlessly with minute details of day to day life about his victimhood, negative mindsets, bad lucks, and toxic relationships, which only creates an unnecessary and overwhelming heaviness that drags the reader into its depths. Reading this affected me in the most weird and negative ways, as if it ungrounded me and lowered me to his levels. There is nothing inspiring to this egregore at all.
The author offers no redeeming story arc to this darkness. That "awakening" just happens. Deux Ex Machina. No self work, no slow but steady realization on the fact that he is the architect of his own demise, no heroic struggles to finally overcome adversity while learning something about himself. Nothing like that.
This is not helpful to anyone as a story. It feeds this questionable message to the reader that maybe, this magical thing will happen to you as well -- without having to work on yourself.