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For I Have Sinned
Bastian and Rob 1
Father Robinson Arthur hasn’t believed anything in years. He’s going through the mindless pray-work-teach routine, faithful to his vows, when 18-year-old Bastian McCarthy swaggers onto his swim team. God help him, Father Rob develops a crippling crush for the bisexual brat, who torments him during Confession, makes the nuns cry, and sleeps with half the girls. But Bastian finally proclaims that not only does he have a daddy kink, he wants a daddy — and that daddy’s Rob. Rob doesn’t know Bastian’s smartass exterior hides a life-destroying secret, a secret that’s eating Bastian from the inside out. Both Bastian and Father Rob desperately need healing. If they’re lucky, the star swimmer and the runaway priest just might find it in each other.
Full of twists, turns, and tons of steam, For I Have Sinned brings the daddy kink with a side of hurt/comfort and plenty of angst. It contains the novella Bless Me, Father.
Father Robinson Arthur hasn’t believed anything in years. He’s going through the mindless pray-work-teach routine, faithful to his vows, when 18-year-old Bastian McCarthy swaggers onto his swim team. God help him, Father Rob develops a crippling crush for the bisexual brat, who torments him during Confession, makes the nuns cry, and sleeps with half the girls. But Bastian finally proclaims that not only does he have a daddy kink, he wants a daddy — and that daddy’s Rob. Rob doesn’t know Bastian’s smartass exterior hides a life-destroying secret, a secret that’s eating Bastian from the inside out. Both Bastian and Father Rob desperately need healing. If they’re lucky, the star swimmer and the runaway priest just might find it in each other.
Full of twists, turns, and tons of steam, For I Have Sinned brings the daddy kink with a side of hurt/comfort and plenty of angst. It contains the novella Bless Me, Father.
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138 pages, Kindle Edition
Published January 10, 2020
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January 10, 2020
I absolutely loved this book. With some of Julia’s other books, Bastian was mentioned or stories were told about him. And here, in this book, we get Bastian’s side of the story.
Bastian was a lonely boy and Rob was a lost soul, he just didn’t realize it yet. And when these two come together, literally and figuratively, it’s a beautiful thing. Bastian pushed Rob every chance he got because he saw something in him that, hopefully, would make him less lonely. Bastian realized that he needed a Daddy and could Rob be that for him?
I love Julia’s writing. She just sucks you right into the story. You go thru the emotions along with her characters.
I can’t wait for more.
Bastian was a lonely boy and Rob was a lost soul, he just didn’t realize it yet. And when these two come together, literally and figuratively, it’s a beautiful thing. Bastian pushed Rob every chance he got because he saw something in him that, hopefully, would make him less lonely. Bastian realized that he needed a Daddy and could Rob be that for him?
I love Julia’s writing. She just sucks you right into the story. You go thru the emotions along with her characters.
I can’t wait for more.
January 17, 2020
so.. technically you dont "have" to read the others before this one but honestly in my opinion you should for sure... i fell head over heels for bastian.. i felt like he was bratty for a reason and boy was i right.. he broke me in so many ways.. i was so sad for him and with him.. however rob was everything.. and he made me smile and happy and he completed bastian.. it was wonderful
April 23, 2020
I was given this book as an ARC, every opinion is my own.
To get a full view of others opinion about Bastian, I think the other books set in the same universe should be read first, where he is mentioned several times but this is the first time we actually meet him.
And when I met him I fell for Bastian, the sweet, sassy, bratty and broken boy that is so lonely and too scared to ask to be held. He broke my heart and Rob's determination to be everything Bastian needed, made me love him completely.
The story held so much warmth and love along with the hurtful reality behind a well placed smirk and playboy attitude. It grabbed hold of me and wouldn't let go.
To get a full view of others opinion about Bastian, I think the other books set in the same universe should be read first, where he is mentioned several times but this is the first time we actually meet him.
And when I met him I fell for Bastian, the sweet, sassy, bratty and broken boy that is so lonely and too scared to ask to be held. He broke my heart and Rob's determination to be everything Bastian needed, made me love him completely.
The story held so much warmth and love along with the hurtful reality behind a well placed smirk and playboy attitude. It grabbed hold of me and wouldn't let go.
January 10, 2020
Holy Daddy kink goodness. Julia McBryant is an author I discovered last year and y'all she is amazing. Her words are beautiful, her prose is some of the best I've ever seen, and her boys are so beautifully broken I just want to wrap them all up and love them forever.
For I Have Sinned is the first book in a series that features Daddy Rob and his bratty boy, Bastian. However, it is set in the same world as her other books, so if the name Bastian McCarthy sounds familiar, that's because it is. You don't have to read any of the other books to read this one though. We see Bastian on page briefly in Neon Saturday Night, but we don't really know him. This novel takes place before that novella, and I have it on good authority that it was written before the other books in this world were.
Bastian and Rob aren't only Daddy and boy, but student/teacher as well. They begin their relationship before Bastian is out of high school and that is not a spoiler as the author will tell you that herself. He is over eighteen though so don't worry there. Student/teacher trope is one of my favorites and pairing it with Daddy kink was brilliant on the author's part as that is what Bastian desperately needs. These two are so perfect for each other that when Rob finally gives in to the temptation it's like finally.
Rob is a priest who no longer believes in what he's preaching. He won't admit it, but he's lonely, trying to be something he's not has worn him down over the years. Though he's worked hard on not being one of those gay priests, all of his hard work goes out the window when he meets Bastian. Bastian who is bratty, submissive, needy, and so in need of someone to love him that it almost breaks Rob. When he gives in and tries to be the Daddy that Bastian needs, it's everything. I've read a lot of Daddy kink and Daddy Rob is the best ever.
Bastian. If you've read any of Julia McBryant's other books then you know the name Bastian McCarthy. And like the other characters you think you know who he is. But with the exception of Audie Currell and Isabel Sims, no one really does. He's the guy who got kicked out of St. Albert's for getting caught sleeping with his teacher, he's the guy who worked his way through most of his peers, including some of our favorites. He likes to fuck, play games, and get into as much trouble as possible. Or does he? This book shows that Bastian McCarthy is not who he pretends to be. Underneath it all, Bastian is a lonely boy who just wants someone to see through all his walls and love him.
When Bastian lets Rob see the real him it's both a beautiful and devastating thing. There's a part in the book, shortly before they get together when they're still flirting the edge, and they're discussing what having a Daddy means to the both of them. Bastian says, "They didn't really care, because hey, it's Bastian McCarthy, he does what he wants...They didn't care. It was like this huge joke, like, 'Oh, Bastian.' Just another game." That broke my heart. Because he talks about wanting someone who cares and then goes on to say that no one cared when he fucked around because it was expected of him. And I just wanted to wrap him up and make sure that he knew he was loved. We don't know him well at this point in the book, he's barely starting to open up and be vulnerable, but the glimpses we get are utterly heartbreaking.
By the time all of Bastian's secrets came out I was completely in love with him and I sobbed for him. Nothing has been easy for him and the deep loneliness broke something in me. I spent a good portion of the book in tears because all I wanted to do was wrap him up and take care of him, luckily he had Rob. Even when he tried to push him away, even when he was scared of showing Rob how much he hurt, Rob was there. They both might be new to the type of relationship they were entering--Rob never having been a Daddy and Bastian never having a real Daddy--but they found their way.
For I Have Sinned is a beautifully written book about loneliness. It's characters come to life with the magical prose that only Julia McBryant can write. I need more Bastian in my life because though he came a long way in this book, there's still so much left to unpack with him, my heart is going to hurt, but I need to see this boy as happy and as loved as he can possibly be. Rob has already proven that he's the best person for that job, so I cannot wait to see where their relationship goes.
For I Have Sinned is the first book in a series that features Daddy Rob and his bratty boy, Bastian. However, it is set in the same world as her other books, so if the name Bastian McCarthy sounds familiar, that's because it is. You don't have to read any of the other books to read this one though. We see Bastian on page briefly in Neon Saturday Night, but we don't really know him. This novel takes place before that novella, and I have it on good authority that it was written before the other books in this world were.
Bastian and Rob aren't only Daddy and boy, but student/teacher as well. They begin their relationship before Bastian is out of high school and that is not a spoiler as the author will tell you that herself. He is over eighteen though so don't worry there. Student/teacher trope is one of my favorites and pairing it with Daddy kink was brilliant on the author's part as that is what Bastian desperately needs. These two are so perfect for each other that when Rob finally gives in to the temptation it's like finally.
Rob is a priest who no longer believes in what he's preaching. He won't admit it, but he's lonely, trying to be something he's not has worn him down over the years. Though he's worked hard on not being one of those gay priests, all of his hard work goes out the window when he meets Bastian. Bastian who is bratty, submissive, needy, and so in need of someone to love him that it almost breaks Rob. When he gives in and tries to be the Daddy that Bastian needs, it's everything. I've read a lot of Daddy kink and Daddy Rob is the best ever.
Bastian. If you've read any of Julia McBryant's other books then you know the name Bastian McCarthy. And like the other characters you think you know who he is. But with the exception of Audie Currell and Isabel Sims, no one really does. He's the guy who got kicked out of St. Albert's for getting caught sleeping with his teacher, he's the guy who worked his way through most of his peers, including some of our favorites. He likes to fuck, play games, and get into as much trouble as possible. Or does he? This book shows that Bastian McCarthy is not who he pretends to be. Underneath it all, Bastian is a lonely boy who just wants someone to see through all his walls and love him.
When Bastian lets Rob see the real him it's both a beautiful and devastating thing. There's a part in the book, shortly before they get together when they're still flirting the edge, and they're discussing what having a Daddy means to the both of them. Bastian says, "They didn't really care, because hey, it's Bastian McCarthy, he does what he wants...They didn't care. It was like this huge joke, like, 'Oh, Bastian.' Just another game." That broke my heart. Because he talks about wanting someone who cares and then goes on to say that no one cared when he fucked around because it was expected of him. And I just wanted to wrap him up and make sure that he knew he was loved. We don't know him well at this point in the book, he's barely starting to open up and be vulnerable, but the glimpses we get are utterly heartbreaking.
By the time all of Bastian's secrets came out I was completely in love with him and I sobbed for him. Nothing has been easy for him and the deep loneliness broke something in me. I spent a good portion of the book in tears because all I wanted to do was wrap him up and take care of him, luckily he had Rob. Even when he tried to push him away, even when he was scared of showing Rob how much he hurt, Rob was there. They both might be new to the type of relationship they were entering--Rob never having been a Daddy and Bastian never having a real Daddy--but they found their way.
For I Have Sinned is a beautifully written book about loneliness. It's characters come to life with the magical prose that only Julia McBryant can write. I need more Bastian in my life because though he came a long way in this book, there's still so much left to unpack with him, my heart is going to hurt, but I need to see this boy as happy and as loved as he can possibly be. Rob has already proven that he's the best person for that job, so I cannot wait to see where their relationship goes.
October 7, 2020
I rated this book 4 stars, and that was NOT BECAUSE OF THE STORYLINE for clarification. This book had an -amazing- plot line. There are NOT enough DD books in the world. I have struggled to find books where the DD/lb lifestyle is accurately portrayed. It is hard enough to find novels where the DD/lg lifestyle is accurately portrayed, add in the Gay part and it's even harder. Seems like some of these tabooish topics have more writings than others.
The plot in this book was ... amazeballs ya'll. Seriously, if you are into Daddy kink you should read this book. Let this be your warning, however, that I did find that the writing itself did not flow as well as I had originally thought it would. I cannot tell if thats because this is a book based on high schoolers, if it is just the writers style, or what, that is why I gave it four stars, the plot/storyline/character developement/sexual content is 100% worth 5 stars, but the way the writing flows for me was a little bit off-putting. I almost didn't continue reading past the first chapter.
However, I am VERY VERY glad I did, and I am sure a big part of it has to do with what I am used to reading. I don't usually read high school level novels. I have found lately when I am reading books about high schoolers I am running into this problem more often. I am thinking it has to do with the books I am used to reading and it is just contextual? Anyway, I cannot be certain and it was a bit off putting for me so I rated 4 instead of 5.
If Daddy kink is your thing? Give this book a go! The priest line is one that is NOT cliche or oversold. At least not in this subgenre. I know it has been somewhat in another taboo section, but in the m/m world this is a little drop of golden sunshine.
Great job Julia!! I haven't read anything by this author before now, but I downloaded another by her today <3 <3 <3 <3
The plot in this book was ... amazeballs ya'll. Seriously, if you are into Daddy kink you should read this book. Let this be your warning, however, that I did find that the writing itself did not flow as well as I had originally thought it would. I cannot tell if thats because this is a book based on high schoolers, if it is just the writers style, or what, that is why I gave it four stars, the plot/storyline/character developement/sexual content is 100% worth 5 stars, but the way the writing flows for me was a little bit off-putting. I almost didn't continue reading past the first chapter.
However, I am VERY VERY glad I did, and I am sure a big part of it has to do with what I am used to reading. I don't usually read high school level novels. I have found lately when I am reading books about high schoolers I am running into this problem more often. I am thinking it has to do with the books I am used to reading and it is just contextual? Anyway, I cannot be certain and it was a bit off putting for me so I rated 4 instead of 5.
If Daddy kink is your thing? Give this book a go! The priest line is one that is NOT cliche or oversold. At least not in this subgenre. I know it has been somewhat in another taboo section, but in the m/m world this is a little drop of golden sunshine.
Great job Julia!! I haven't read anything by this author before now, but I downloaded another by her today <3 <3 <3 <3
January 27, 2020
A Joyfully Jay review.
3 stars
I fear I may be in the minority when it comes to Julia McBryant’s latest story, For I Have Sinned. While I happily admit that the heat factor and kinky scenes between Bastian and Rob are often off the charts, the story in between those moments is a bit sketchy and felt unfinished. We get snippets of Bastian’s past—enough to let us in on why he is so tortured over his twin’s death and basically left to raise himself due to his mother working in another state and being rarely home. However, we get little beyond those basic facts and the myriad of issues Bastian has that I felt qualified him for some serious therapy go untouched.
Read Sammy’s review in its entirety here.
3 stars
I fear I may be in the minority when it comes to Julia McBryant’s latest story, For I Have Sinned. While I happily admit that the heat factor and kinky scenes between Bastian and Rob are often off the charts, the story in between those moments is a bit sketchy and felt unfinished. We get snippets of Bastian’s past—enough to let us in on why he is so tortured over his twin’s death and basically left to raise himself due to his mother working in another state and being rarely home. However, we get little beyond those basic facts and the myriad of issues Bastian has that I felt qualified him for some serious therapy go untouched.
Read Sammy’s review in its entirety here.
January 10, 2020
Julia McBryant did it again! ”For I Have Sinned” took me through the meanders of a complicated relationship, depicting with great accuracy all the hesitations, questions and self-doubts of the two MC”s. As usually, the fragments of lyric prose and the moments of introspection were perfectly combined, creating an unique blend that touched my soul in the best of ways.
Is Bastian the hopeless, ”unmitigated” brat, the troublemaker everyone say he is? Will Father Robinson Arthur see past that image, and if he does, what will he do about that? These are just two of the numerous questions I asked myself while reading ”For I Have Sinned”, and the answers were brilliantly delivered. Warmly recommended!
Is Bastian the hopeless, ”unmitigated” brat, the troublemaker everyone say he is? Will Father Robinson Arthur see past that image, and if he does, what will he do about that? These are just two of the numerous questions I asked myself while reading ”For I Have Sinned”, and the answers were brilliantly delivered. Warmly recommended!
January 10, 2020
This book is will take you to a wonderful journey, making you experience all the possible emotions. My heart wrenched in pain, but also jumped with joy, I cried, laughed, and even mentally cursed the author for putting the two MC”s through all that heartbreak and sorrow.
However, I ended up praising her aloud for how masterfully she handled the conflict and the plot. The development of the characters is amazing, each page removing one more layer of appearances, until the core of the characters” soul is exposed in all its magnificence. Bastian is more than a brat, Father Rob is more than a stern man in a robe.
A book full of twists and turns, revelations and scorching hot sex I warmly recommend.
However, I ended up praising her aloud for how masterfully she handled the conflict and the plot. The development of the characters is amazing, each page removing one more layer of appearances, until the core of the characters” soul is exposed in all its magnificence. Bastian is more than a brat, Father Rob is more than a stern man in a robe.
A book full of twists and turns, revelations and scorching hot sex I warmly recommend.
August 1, 2020
This was recommended to me in an m/m group. I was excited to read because of the twisty story with the unconventional characters. How exciting to get a book that is Student/Teacher (also Priest) and they are Daddy/Boy? Someone teased about confession scenes & i grabbed the book right away.. However, this book is too much of the same in the repeated sex scenes and poorly done daddy & boy scenes. I have read other daddy/boy books that share the true experience of that duo vs this poorly put together one. The whole book felt forced & not planned out well. Felt lore first draft with rough idea of storyline & typos than polished & edited published book.
January 10, 2020
I received an ARC copy of this book. Here's my honest review.
I loved this book. When I first encountered Bastian I didn't really like him,my views built up by reputation. After reading this book,my view of him changed and I wanted to cuddle him and look after him myself.
I don't like to give spoilers for books.That being said. This gives us a heartbreaking insight in to why Bastian is as he is. He needs to be loved, cared for,he needs a Daddy. Can Rob be his Daddy?
I highly recommend this book.
I loved this book. When I first encountered Bastian I didn't really like him,my views built up by reputation. After reading this book,my view of him changed and I wanted to cuddle him and look after him myself.
I don't like to give spoilers for books.That being said. This gives us a heartbreaking insight in to why Bastian is as he is. He needs to be loved, cared for,he needs a Daddy. Can Rob be his Daddy?
I highly recommend this book.
January 14, 2020
I enjoyed this Daddy/boy story with a teacher/student dynamic... Bastian is a broken young man and Rob is a disenchanted priest. It's an improbable pairing on the face of it, but it works --each meets a need the other has suffered with having unmet. Although they both struggle at moments in their roles, their relationship ultimately promotes the beginning of healing. This volume represents the early stages of their story; I have a feeling we will be hearing more about them. Heat level is off the charts. Recommended!
January 10, 2020
Hot hot hot!
I had been so looking forward to Bastian's story and it did not disappoint! Rob is such a good daddy to Bastian and proved how much he loved him. They are really hot together. I was so glad when Bastian came back to swimming. That is such a part of him. Can't wait for the next book. Great read especially if you have read the other "southern" and "low country" books by Julia McBryant.
I had been so looking forward to Bastian's story and it did not disappoint! Rob is such a good daddy to Bastian and proved how much he loved him. They are really hot together. I was so glad when Bastian came back to swimming. That is such a part of him. Can't wait for the next book. Great read especially if you have read the other "southern" and "low country" books by Julia McBryant.
January 13, 2020
When I first started reading this book, I wasn’t sure what to think. But after I read the first few chapters I just couldn’t stop reading! Bastian and Rob are really beautiful together. The fact that Rob is a priest may not be for everyone. I thought it added to the story. Their journey to be together isn’t easy, but they really need each other. I do hope there will be more books about these two! Loved it and highly recommend!!
June 14, 2020
I don’t know if the plot was interesting enough or how the characters truly were (I gave up way too early for that) but I can’t stand how the book is formatted/written.
There are sudden jumps in either time or scenes without ANYTHING separating them. I was reading of a conversation between the main two characters when suddenly I am not; I am in a completely new environment with new characters. What the hell?
This seriously needs an editor ASAP.
There are sudden jumps in either time or scenes without ANYTHING separating them. I was reading of a conversation between the main two characters when suddenly I am not; I am in a completely new environment with new characters. What the hell?
This seriously needs an editor ASAP.
January 31, 2020
I gave this 4.75 stars. The story was incredible moving and deep.
The only thing I took a .25 star away was for a strange way of wording physical intimacy. IE need cuddled, as opposed to need to be cuddled.
This was consistent throughout the book so it was done purposefully if I thought it was an editing issue I would have given a 4 star review.
The only thing I took a .25 star away was for a strange way of wording physical intimacy. IE need cuddled, as opposed to need to be cuddled.
This was consistent throughout the book so it was done purposefully if I thought it was an editing issue I would have given a 4 star review.
January 17, 2020
Let tell you about a priest and a boy
And the author did tell that story A man undecided about being a priest and a boy comes along and he has a decision He is going to pick a slutty boy with a foul mouth and he is going to be a good daddy
And the author did tell that story A man undecided about being a priest and a boy comes along and he has a decision He is going to pick a slutty boy with a foul mouth and he is going to be a good daddy
April 5, 2020
Another treat from Julia McBryant. Slightly taboo with broken characters who fit together so well. Her worlds are peopled with dysfunctional characters who have steamy relationships. Bastian and Rob are no exception. So. Damn. Hot.
January 15, 2020
It’s not a badly written story but I guess it isn’t for me. I stopped reading a few pages after Part II.
March 15, 2020
This was HOT!
Did not finish
May 28, 2020DNF @ 17%
Just wasn’t for me. Didn’t care for or believe the dynamics of the MCs.
Just wasn’t for me. Didn’t care for or believe the dynamics of the MCs.
February 13, 2020
There is Hope.
While parts of this story could be a bit squeamish because of the relationship between the main characters but they are adults. Both of them are having their life crisis and trying to figure out how they want to pursue the rest of their lives. But somehow they just fit together and really meet the needs of the other. You are left hoping things don't blow up in their faces. I realized this is a part one and most likely part of the longer I Have Sinned. I will be seeking out the full book to find out what happens next.
I purchased the more complete novel: For I Have Sinned.
They Have Found Their Place
They had a rough and possibly questionable start but they are finding their way together and building a life together.
While parts of this story could be a bit squeamish because of the relationship between the main characters but they are adults. Both of them are having their life crisis and trying to figure out how they want to pursue the rest of their lives. But somehow they just fit together and really meet the needs of the other. You are left hoping things don't blow up in their faces. I realized this is a part one and most likely part of the longer I Have Sinned. I will be seeking out the full book to find out what happens next.
I purchased the more complete novel: For I Have Sinned.
They Have Found Their Place
They had a rough and possibly questionable start but they are finding their way together and building a life together.
April 13, 2020
Another winner from Julia McBryant, such a good book really enjoyed it! When Bastian transfered schools in the middle of the year you kind of wondered why but as the swimming coach it wasn't really Father Rob's worry. As this two get to know each other better they realise each has his own set of worries and problems but there is just something that draws them both together no matter how hard they try to denie it.
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