Namaste & Agape Love: Understanding God's Sovereign Love

by Julian Olalde, Thomas Mark Zuniga (Foreword)

God, where the hell are you? Make it stop! I just want to be normal like everyone else.Raised in the 90s Evangelical movement of Christianity, Julian had the quintessential Christian home filled with many opportunities to love and serve God. The very same God who presided over Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. The same God who declared he was an abomination.As long as no one knows the truth about me, I’m good with God. Behind the mask of knowledge and good Christian action, Julian privately battled same-sex attraction, giving way to anxiety, depression, and suicide.God, who am I? Where is my identity? Am I even a child of God any longer?In 2008, Julian came of age and came out of the closet, understanding that his choices brought shame and dishonor to God, his family, and his career in ministry. He struggled for many years to discern the love and grace God had for him. The idea that God could love him beyond his struggles and doubts. More importantly, he wondered if and how God would ever use him in ministry. In this breakthrough memoir, we will learn how God indeed loves each and every one of us and has a plan for our lives. We’ll also see just how God used Julian in his obedience to love and serve him amid the struggle of same-sex attraction.Called to love. Called to serve. Called to make a difference.

170 pages, Paperback

Published December 21, 2018