A very deep and profound story of a woman's very deep and very real search, with the help of a Baul Master, Sri Anirvan. This is a supremely beautiful book! Lizelle Reymond's words are sincere and unpretentious, and they offer both inspiration and direction to anyone willing to wrestle with the question "Who am I?"
Samkhya and Gurdjieff I wrote this in the seventies: To Live Within has value to those who study Yoga philosophy as well as those who study Gurdjieff. I am sure now that it has also much to say to others as well. I did not know of Lizelle Reymond, but Mrs. Rosemary Nott in the UK knew her and suggested to me that I should go to meet her (as I practiced yoga at the time). Eventually I managed: stayed in Hotel de la Paix in Geneve over a weekend and had contact most of the time with Lizelle Reymond. While in Geneve, Miss Reymond gave me her unpublished book to read, which I managed to do also during this weekend.
I cannot even remember what the book was called, but I wrote a poem inspired by it. The poem is called The Three Pilgrimages - I believe it reflects somehow the name or the content of the book:
The Three Pilgrimages
The Climb to the Mountain
I follow a little stream Looking for its source Up the mountain Choosing my way In the shade On the dark side With the moon and stars As my guides
The way is long I hurry towads the top Slipping in the snow Getting stuck I reach the peak And look around in wonder At the beauty of the scene When I suddenly see My own reflection in the spring
Was it meant this way That I should work and suffer This long way Just to find out That what I had managed In all these years Was to carry my self-portrait An image of nothing To the top
The picture of myself Had always been In front of my vision Everything I thought I was Had nothing to do with me I see now That I am in everything And everything is in me Adift Towards the Sea
I start my descent Along the stream Now growing to a river In which I drift Towards the sea Clinging to the reflection Of my own nothingness I see others climbing up Shouting: Look There’s one who has given up
The cool water Washes away The dirt I gathered On my way up There is no pain There is no pleasure There is nothing I can measure One with the Ocean
My picture buried in the sea There is nothing left of me There is something I can still see It has nothing to do with me I am alive now The ego is gone In the void Left by the ego
I am
To Live Within is a story of the writer's long time relationship with her teacher Sri Anirvan and her efforts to follow his teachings. Sri Anirvan's own studies include the Vedas and his teaching has elements of these ancient texts going back three thousand years. The concept of 'Sahaja' is defined as Yoga in life. Sri Anirvan: 'To accept Prakriti in its totality is pure Sahaja'... And what has Gurdjieff created for you in the West? Surely a field of prakriti corresponding to your own possibilities.'
I have since discovered the writings of Sri Anirvan and now reading his book on The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. Recommended.