so this was... interesting. didn't expect it to be so dark, especially from the beginning. the prologue starts exactly 15 years after the events of the main story where an ex-journalist named wakata confesses what he witnessed during that month of feb. he's trapped by these thoughts that haunt him and he hopes this confession will free him from his "illness". but does it? well....
rewind to the past, and we have two high school seniors named senka and soushi. soushi has a crush on his best friend and unintentionally confesses to senka. senka still thinks of soushi as a very important person in his life, but he doesn't return the feelings. that night, due to bad luck really, soushi's house is broken into by (chinese) foreigners. his parents are killed, and he is kidnapped. the next day, senka is worried that soushi didn't show up to school and not answering his text messages, and so he goes over to soushi's house to see what's up... and sees the corpse of soushi's parents. he runs to soushi's room to see it empty, and calls his number again and the person who picks up isn't soushi, but his kidnapper.
basically, soushi is threatened that if he wants senka back alive, he has to ply out 100 volts from the high voltage steel tower and give it to these men. these men are after something, and the size of the volts located in the tower is not available in their country. one night, wakata sees senka climbing up this tall tower as he was driving from a distance, and out of curiosity, drives over and stops to watch senka. and that's how they meet. wakata urges senka to tell the police, but senka knows that if he does that, the kidnappers will kill souji immediately.
over all, tons of monologues here. if you're all about the dialogues, you're not going to like this book much. soushi and senka reminds me of people i know in real life (minus the murder and kidnapping) so i enjoyed these two characters a lot more than i normally would. i was hoping the SS in the holly mix anthology would give me a little more closure but just like the epilogue, it takes place before that time. darn it.
so after wakata confesses, did he find his cure from his "february illness"? answer: poor guy.
this story was modeled after a real life murder/kidnapping case, but the specificity of the case and people presented in this story is fictional. if you like long monologues with descriptive imagery, and a story riddled with a dark atmosphere, then this book might be for you. it can seem slightly repetitive and slow at times, but i decided to read this because a) it's february (her debut month, and this is her debut book) and b) ogami, so overall there's nothing much to complain about. i don't know if i would ever re-read this, BUT i did like the suspense i felt while reading this.