I received a copy of this book through BookTasters, and I am voluntarily providing a review.
Trigger Warning: This book frequently mentions depression and animal abuse. There is a callous remark about Muslims and buildings while a plane is delayed, and uses a derogatory term for people with intellectual disabilities as an insult. There are situations involving sexual harassment, and inappropriate sexual behavior (verbally and visually) by male family members.
The story was broken up into three parts, each of which opened with a different quote from Homer’s story The Odyssey that corresponded with Christine’s journey of self-discovery.
I liked the fact that the book initially combined use of a third person narration as well as diary entries from Christine’s point of view, although part 2 contained no journal entries, and part 3 only contained a single journal entry, which I found disappointing. I enjoyed reading her journal entries, and felt like it gave me a little more insight into Christine’s thought process, which I often had difficulty figuring out from reading the narration alone.
There were several aspects of the book that I struggled with. First, I was much more sympathetic to Christine’s plight when she was 17 and feeling sorry for herself, then when she was 32, and still at the same maturity level. While she showed a little personal growth throughout the book, I didn’t really see her change all that much. She still expected things to be handed to her, and wondered why her life hadn’t improved. I didn’t really find her to be a very likable character as the book went on. Depression is a serious mental health concern, and this book had the power to address it as such, but it just treated it like the elephant in the room. It gave the message that depression can go away if it is just ignored, and Christine kept vacillating between hiding in her room and pushing everyone away, and throwing herself into new pursuits.
“Perhaps her attempts at starting again, of triumphing over the depression that had tried to devour her – perhaps all of this was in vain.”
I got the sense that Christine had never bothered to actually try getting any treatment, although maybe she had and the author just didn’t bother mentioning it; kind of like a mystery condition that only popped up towards the very end of the book, along with the treatment that she had been getting for a while.
She wants to be treated like an adult, while avoiding anything that would define her as an adult. She doesn’t hold a job long-term, doesn’t live independently, and isn’t capable of making simple plans. She brews resentment and frustration silently until she is ready to run away from everything. When she decides to leave Australia to go to Greece and learn about her heritage, she plans to teach English. Rather than setting up a job and making plans to find housing, she lets her mother set up living arrangements with family members she’s never met.
In the beginning, I did like Christine as a character. But as I got further into the book, I sympathized with her less. It’s easy to remember being 17, frustrated with everything, and feeling like life was never going to get better. But as adults, people start gaining more of a sense of control over our emotions and our lives, and having more responsibilities. I just felt as though Christine stayed stuck in that 17 year-old mindset, and I found it harder to relate to her. I think this book had the potential to be really good, but fell short.