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A Semi-Definitive List of Worst Nightmares

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Ever since Esther Solar's grandfather was cursed by Death, everyone in her family has been doomed to suffer one great fear in their lifetime. Esther's father is agoraphobic and hasn't left the basement in six years, her twin brother can t be in the dark without a light on, and her mother is terrified of bad luck.

The Solars are consumed by their fears and, according to the
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Published September 2017 by Penguin Australia
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Dec 01, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
In the beginning, this story reads like a modern fairy tale.

Then it gets darker, while still keeping a fairly light atmosphere. Although this book deals with mental illness and anxiety, it never is overwhelming or overdramatic. In fact, for the most part, I was enchanted and delighted.

I am somewhat surprised by how much I enjoyed the story, characters and writing. But the best part of this book is the narration, which makes the reader feel as though (s)he is lucky to be privy to Esther’s story a
Oct 06, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: i-fell-in-love
Just one of those books again that rock my world, give it meaning and make me feel whole. Understood.

I don't know where to begin to review this book properly. So many emotions poured out of me whilst reading it and so many thoughts. It might take a while for me to comprehend my feelings and put it in writing.

I think this has to be one of the best YA books that deals with mental illness. Sutherland did her research and she did it well. Trigger warnings for anxiety, self-harm and suicide.

I don't
Chelsea (chelseadolling reads)
DNF @ 25%. This book had an interesting premise, but it definitely felt like the author was exploiting phobias and mental illness to further the plot. It just.. did not work for me.
Aj the Ravenous Reader
“Look, fearless people are stupid, ‘cause they don’t even understand what fear is. You gotta be scared right down to your bones for bravery to mean anything.”

“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.”

The Solar family is one of the most extraordinary families you’ll ever meet. A curse seems to run in their veins and each and every member was supposed to be afflicted with one great fear that will deliver the Reaper at their doorstep to ultimately claim their lives at a certain time and
I loved this. Like an obsessive I-can't-wait-to-read-it-again sort of love.

I love love loved Esther and Jonah and Eugene. I liked BFF Hephzibah, but she was a little elusive on the page, which was effective when it paired up with how Esther described her. The four of them are loyal and supportive and delightfully strange and I desperately want to hang out with them.

Plot wise, it had ups and downs. There was sweetness and laughter and heartbreak and swoons and pretty much every emotion I had av
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Trigger warning: Death, mention of murder's, physical violence, mention of war, mention of kidnapping, suicide attempt, mention of critically injured animal, and abusive parent.

The Solar family has been cursed by death. During their grandfather's war days, he met death. Not just once but many times. Death cursed the Solar family to die from a fear. Hence why Esther Solar made a list of fears. Then she meets Jonah, a childhood friend. Mu
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Mar 02, 2018 marked it as read-later
Shelves: borrowed
I am having trouble getting into the book because I am not in the mood to read a romance.
I do plan on picking this up again.
Ryan Buckby
Oct 02, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Anxiety felt like a grapnel anchor had been pickaxed into your back, one prong in each lung, one through the heart, one through the spine, the weight curving your posture forward, dragging you down to the murky depths of the sea floor.

this book was enjoyable for the most part even though it did take me a little bit to get into the story and the characters, i did find myself putting the book down way to easily and stepping away which annoyed me because i want a book to capture me all the way thr
Krista Regester
Jan 10, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
...she wondered if people really fell in love with others or if they fell in love with the best parts of themselves.
Michelle (Pink Polka Dot Books)
Meh. It was different for sure, but it tried REALLY hard to be different.

This is going to be a tough one to talk about. I really liked it, but I also didn't 100% "get" it either.

A Definitive List of What I Liked:

1. The voice. This book starts out with a strong/humorous voice that drew me in right away. I was intrigued and I felt invested in the characters right from the start. I kind of felt like I started reading in the middle of the book where I already "knew" the characters and felt comforta
Jodi Meadows
Jul 24, 2018 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
I read this book because a friend kept pushing it in my direction. I liked it at first -- the humor and the magic -- and sold two copies to other friends by page 50. It got a lot deeper and darker as I read, but it still worked.

This book is not always an easy read. It deals with topics like anxiety, depression, suicide, unsolved horrible murders of children, and many other forms of mental illness. But if you're looking for mirrors or windows into those subjects, I recommend this one.
rachel ☾
This book left a sour taste in my mouth.
alice (arctic books)
I really, really liked this one. Full review to come!

Trigger warnings for: suicide attempt, mentions of death & suicide, domestic abuse, physical abuse
Jul 20, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Very funny and deeply sad, deftly combining a broken family history that evolves into a curse of supernatural origin with the satisfying trope of teens working their way through a bucket list: facing heroine Esther's potential mortal fears, ranging from the relatively benign (lobsters, moths) to the genuinely dangerous (cliff diving, lightning). She believes that by cataloguing every potentially scary thing and avoiding it forever, she might be able to dodge the grip of the Big Bad Fear that wou ...more
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This started out as a quirky young adult, friends to possibly more tale and built into a pretty deep and messy story about family and mental health issues. I have to say I normally avoid books about this topic simply because I read to relax and they don't do that. But here those issues were mixed well with an array of quirky characters, a bit of romance and the realisation that all families have issues and parents are people too with flaws. That can be a big revelation for some teenagers so I fe ...more
Feb 22, 2018 rated it liked it  ·  review of another edition
another typical mental breakdown book. similar to all the bright places. bit boring and predictable.

i can related to anxiety. but i can not related to esther. somehow her anxiety is just too strange for me to understand.

jonah is a darling though.
Shannon (It Starts At Midnight)
You can find the full review and all the fancy and/or randomness that accompanies it at It Starts at Midnight

This is a really cute book, and I quite enjoyed it! There was so much fun stuff happening in this book, and it was incredibly unique. Of course, it deals with some really serious issues, too. There is a big focus on mental health, and Esther and her family suffer from it in droves, but in very different ways. Esther's best friend is selectively mute, and Esther's new-old friend (read abo
Tamsien West (Babbling Books)
A touching, hilarious and relatable book for older teens, about depression, anxiety, facing your fears, and learning to accept help when you need it most.
17 year old Esther’s life is dominated by her semi-definitive list of 50 worst nightmares and the curse on her family to be killed by their greatest fear. Accompanied by her twin brother who is deathly afraid of the dark, her best friend who is a mute not-quite-ghost, and the boy who broke her heart when she was 8, Esther attempts to undo the
3.5 stars

A Semi-Definite List of Worst Nightmares was definitely not what I expected. I was expecting a regular contemporary novel about mental health, and instead I got a story about a family reminiscent of The Addams Family. I actually really liked this. It was surprising and unconventional and different, while still remaining true to the heart of mental illness stories.

I always love reading books with bucket lists and to-do lists, so reading about Esther tackling her fears one by one was a re
Sep 04, 2019 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
This book is quirky, fun and incredibly emotional.

I really respected the approach the author took to reflect on different sides of mental illness from addiction to depression.

Also another thing I appreciated was how the relationship between Esther and Jonah -who is btw one of my favourite book characters- came to be. I mean there was a connection not a meet cute, but the most important aspect was that Jonah wasn't portrayed as a knight in shining armour or that once he laid eyes on her, she sud
Tomes And Textiles
I finished this weeks ago and I'm not sure why I haven't reviewed it other than to say it's been a busy month with a hurricane in the middle of it. Review to come soon because this was definitely one of the most enjoyable reads of 2017 for me.
Eleanor (bookishcourtier)
Book two of my Contemporary Spree, and I loved it! It was so so dark and covered a LOAD of dark topics so please be aware that this book could be triggering for some people. It deals with anxiety and depression and just mental health in general, and while I loved the representation, I can see that some people may be more sensitive to these things. But I personally thought this was book was fantabulous so I thoroughly suggest you go read it if you think it sounds interesting. This is the second ...more
Danielle (Life of a Literary Nerd)
4.5 Stars
“She’s passed the fear barrier, and she’d lived, and she’d discovered not certain death, s she’d imagined, nut impossible splendor. What other beautiful things had fear been hiding from her? What else has the curse long kept her from discovering? For the first time in a long time. She wanted to find out.”

A Semi-Definitive List of Worst Nightmares is a hilarious and inspiring take on fear, growth, and battling your inner demons. Esther Solar is cursed. Her family has been cursed by
Ellie (faerieontheshelf)
4 stars

This book is cute, undeniably sweet and incredibly touching! I wasn't expecting to enjoy it as much as I did. Krystal Sutherland creates a charming YA contemporary novel filled with flawed yet loveable characters and a fun plot. Despite the fun-sounding blurb and title, Sutherland doesn't skimp on emotional depth and allows this novel to become well-rounded, urging the reader to think further than the scenes written on the pages and presenting something meaningful.

I did love the charac
Hope (HopelessBookAddict)
This book was amazing. It was so deep and moving. It quickly became one of my favorite books! I highly recommend it! I don't want to say more due to spoilers...this is a FANTASTIC book! <3
Miranda (MrsLeif's Two Fangs About It)
4.5 / 5 Fangs

WOW! I was blown away with how much I adored this novel. From the first page, I was sucked into this novel and completely mesmerized. I have truly never read a book quite like this one and I don't think I will ever forget this book. This book had so much heart, humor, adventure, and romance in it. However, there were also moments of despair and dread. The author artfully weaved all of those elements into one enchanting story.

The idea of having a list of nightmares and trying to over
Well, that was a heck of a lot darker than I thought it would be.

I knew going into this that it would deal with topics such as fear and anxiety, but I never guessed it would be as deep as it was.

The story follows the life of Esther Solar, a girl whose family has been cursed by Death itself to die from each of their deepest fear.

Her mother is afraid of bad luck, so she buys lucky rabbits and spends all their money on slot machines. Her father has severe agoraphobia so he locks himself in the base
Aug 30, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.

I loved this one. Really loved it.

A Semi Definitive List of Worst Nightmares centres on the Solar family, who are believed to be cursed by Death himself to die from their ultimate fear or phobia. Esther's grandfather is terrified of water, Eugene her twin brother is scared of the night. Her father is agrophobic and her mother is scared of bad luck. Esther, not knowing her fear, makes a list of everything that she's scared of, in t
Trigger warnings: mental health, suicide, domestic violence, gambling addiction, death of a family member, murder. And moths. (That part is more for people like me who are terrified of moths than it is an actual trigger warning...)

I wasn't sure what to expect when I went into this book. The blurb sounded super intriguing, but I was a little hesitant that it would end up just being quirky and cutesy.

Thankfully, it wasn't. It's the story of a teenage girl who believes that her family is cursed af
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Hello. It's me.

I am Krystal Sutherland, writer of books. Or, more specifically, I am the writer of one lonely book, OUR CHEMICAL HEARTS, which is being published in September 2016 by Penguin in the US and ANZ, and Hot Key in the UK.

I was born and raised in Townsville, in the far north of Australia. Since escaping to Sydney in 2011, I've also lived in Amsterdam, which was awesome but cold, and Hon
“Everyone we let into our lives has the power to hurt us. Sometimes they will, and sometimes they won't, but that's not a reflection of us, or our strength. Loving someone who hurts you doesn't make you weak.” 28 likes
“Anxiety felt like a grapnel anchor had been pickaxed into your back, one prong in each lung, one through the heart, one through the spine, the weight curving your posture forward, dragging you down to the murky depths of the sea floor. The good news was that you kind of got used to it after a while. Got used to the gasping, brink-of-heart-attack feeling that followed you everywhere. All you had to do was grab one of the prongs that stuck out from the bottom of your sternum, give it a little shake, and say, “Listen, asshole. We’re not dying. We have shit to do.” 23 likes
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