re Surrender, My Heart - LA shares a story of of a widowed young h, who was married to a much older man, finding herself falling in love with her dead husband's son. The very same son who has berated and bullied her with accusations of tarthood and golddigging, ever since she married his father six years earlier. Before you scream EWWWW and go running off for some less sordid and (it is admittedly a kinda weird scenario,) a believable romance, hang in there and give this one a try.
To clarify one further matter, the h did sleep with the H's father - they had a normal marriage. In fact, that whole scenario is rather tactfully discussed between the H and h, but I get ahead of myself here.
The story starts with a very sad and lonely orphan 26 year old widowed h. She had a pillar to post kinda childhood with a loving but free-spirited mother and this rootless upbringing had left the h with a remarkable lack of self-confidence and a high degree of naivete.
She had no father growing up, as her mum explained that she had an affair with a married man and when she found out she was baking a bun, she left him. Her mum could see the havoc just the affair was causing the man, she had no desire to increase the man's torment between choosing her or his wife and so she took herself off for new horizons and raised the h alone.
The h speculates that her mum may have regretted her choices later in life, and apparently she had written to the man as a long lost friend years later, but the man had died and so he never knew about the h. Then the mum was killed in a car crash and the h had to struggle on alone.
It was at this time that the H's father came into her life, she worked in his company's typing pool and one day the father saw her having breakfast alone and after a really gentle courtship, they married three months later.
The h meets the H for the first time at the wedding reception. The H had just arrived from a long hiatus in America, and the H makes no bones about expressing his contempt for the h. The father told the h that he and the H had a fractious relationship. The H was the product of a very bad and bitter marriage and the H's mum used him as a pawn against the father - who was busy building his business empire and so wasn't a very present parent.
Still, the h loved her first hubby and they were very happy together. As time passed, the father appointed the h to the board of directors of his resort business and the h has a considerable artistic talent, the first hubby encouraged her to paint and also used her ideas to decorate his resorts. Then the father dies and the h withdraws to a life of solitude.
The H blackmails the h into supporting his business decisions by telling her that as long as she does, he won't contest the will which left the h an income for life, some company shares and the marital flat. The H got everything else, which was considerable and yet he still berates and insults the h every chance he gets.
(At this point I was pulling out the skillet for the H, the really big skillet - it irritated me that he got a ton of money that he did not earn and yet he was having a cow because the father left his wife- who made his last years really happy- enough for a decent lifestyle. I almost threw the book against the wall there, but I persevered and tried not to cringe about a spoiled bully H.)
The big showdown comes when the h is the deciding vote on a new resort in the Whitsunday Islands the H wants to build. This is to be an exclusive, ultra rich-only conclave and half the board is against it.
The H again bullies the h into voting with him and the h, showing a bit of backbone, tells the H off - but she does vote in his favor because it was also her late husband's dream to have a resort there and for all the difficulties between them, she knew that the late hubby loved his son and would want him to have the opportunity to carry out his vision.
Then it is suggested that the h go along with the H to think of design idears for the resort. Well that is just taking the support too far for the h, if the H were the last man on earth she would learn how to fly to flee to another continent before going anywhere with such a nasty person. She tells everyone off and leaves the board meeting. Later on the h is home and mourning over the chair where her hubby used to sit to think, she is crying a bit and then the H shows up.
He wants a truce and he wants her to go with him to see the potential new resort. The h has an uneasy feeling but can't pinpoint the cause. After some serious debate, she goes with the H to see the Whitsunday's.
To her surprise, when the H isn't being an insulting bounder, he is a good companion and the h is starting to feel a physical attraction for him. This is pretty shocking to the h, she did not like to think of herself as a sexual kind of person and she has always been very self-conscious of her beauty and the fact that a lot of men seem to look at her with lust.
What made it worse for her is that when she married a man 30 yrs older, she was judged pretty harshly and there were a lot of insinuations and comments made about how another man could "cut the mustard" better than her husband.
Very few people around her seemed to understand that she really did love the man, his money and status were not why she married him. She married him because he was kind, loving, stable and made her feel safe and gave her a sense of roots and home. Their marriage wasn't a passionate lust-fest, but they had a lot of common interests and they were both really happy together.
While at the resort, they run into some friends of the H's and the h has to deal with the guilt of going out and acting like the 26 year old she is and not in a widowed matronly manner. The H tells her there is nothing wrong with living life and the h is gradually learning that she did not fall into the grave with her hubby, though she had been committing a kind of emotional suttee since his death. The attraction between the H and h is growing and they finally wind up in bed.
That is a huge revelation for the h, she blacks out at the epitome of passion and the H is a bit concerned - apparently it isn't a goal of his to make his partner pass out from bliss. They talk about it and the h tactfully indicates that particular blissful moment had never happened to her before. The H is all things reassuring and doesn't even flinch when she wakes up the next morning and sleepily calls him by his father's name. In fact he tells her to forget about it, it was a natural mistake and teases her about something else, glossing over the moment.
The h is still fretting a bit, but she is enjoying the H and the new sensations too much to stop now. Things take a turn for the worse when she runs into an older couple that knew the h and hubby when he was still alive. The wife of the couple is very supportive of the h moving on - she tells the h she knew it was a love match but the husband is not as compassionate and it just reminds the h of how much of other people's judgement and innuendos she has already been subjected to.
The h is starting to get the feeling that being with the H is making the situation much worse, cause she can just guess what people are going to say about her now. Still she is forging ahead with the H. Until one of the other directors of the board shows up and with his snide insinuations, makes the h feel so uncomfortable that she leaves the islands with only a brief note for the H.
The H tracks her down back at home and he does his best to calm her fears and reassure her that their relationship is different from her marriage and that she isn't a tart and she has nothing to be ashamed of. Then he takes her to his house and promises she can dig in his garden anytime to put down roots and then he proposes. The h loves him dearly by this time and so she accepts, disregarding the nagging feeling that something isn't right.
Then the bombshell hits, the h is told by another board member that the company is in danger of a takeover and once again the h has the deciding vote. According to the bitter board member, the H is marrying the h to hold on to her shares and thus manipulate her once again.
The h calls the man on his malice, but he tells her to check with the other member of the board that is the H's friend and always votes with him. The h finds out that the takeover offer is true, recalls the H's very abrupt about-face and decides to free herself from this mess once and for all.
She arranges for the friendly board member to buy her shares and promise to only sell them to the H or vote them himself and she takes off. The next we see of the h, she is delirious with labor pains and we find out she delivers a baby boy with red hair just like the H. She never realized she was up the duff when she left the H and sold her marital flat.
This causes the h some considerable angst. She KNOWS the pain and missing parts of herself from not knowing her father or having that connection, and she resents it to a certain extent. So how can she not tell the H about his child and give them a chance to form a relationship?
On the other hand, she loves the H and he was using her and probably despises her - is she capable of tolerating that for another 15 to 20 years while her son grows up? She really doesn't know what is best and she winds up returning to find the H.
Except when she calls the H's company she finds out it has been sold and the H resigned. She looks up the secretary that used to work for her late husband and she decides to stay with her for while, she could use the help with the new baby.
The former secretary takes on the honorary grandma role and then she calls the H when it seems the h might change her mind about telling him. The H shows up and tells the h that they owe it to their son to give marriage a try - the kid deserves to at least have a shot at a family life.
When the h asks why he sold his father's company, the H tells her what else could he do after everything that happened to prove he wasn't trying to use her. The h takes this to mean that he hates her now for forcing him to such extremes and she agrees to marriage.
Nine months on the baby is one year old and the H spends a lot of time away building up his new company with his former board member friend. They have separate rooms and to a certain extent separate lives, tho the h is torn apart by jealousy when she thinks that the H is having lots of opportunities for OW affairs. She can't get past her guilt for not trusting him though and so she spends a lot of time avoiding the H as well.
He decides they need to have a night out and at the restaurant, they run into the H's friend that they first met on the Whitsunday's. The friend is explaining the step mother situation to his date and the h runs off when she realizes she just doesn't have the nerve to correct him about her and the H's marriage. The H chases after her and asks her if adding sex back into the marriage will help. She doesn't know, cause it means something to her, but she assumes he still despises her and yet having another child would probably be a good idear for their son.
The H then confesses that he has wanted the h since the first time he saw her, and he hated that she married his dad and he was jealous - which was why he was so mean. When his dad died he resented that he did not have a good relationship with him and yet he was moved by how much the h grieved for him. Tho he also admits that he was happy he was finally getting to have his chance with the h. He then tells her he has loved her for a long time now and really wants a real marriage, but he understands if the h still feels guilty.
The h responds that she loves him madly back and that she actually has matured and is able to see that different relationships have their own expressions of love and that she did love the dad but that relationship was not her's and the H's relationship and there is no reason for guilt in either instance. She can never know what might have happened if the father hadn't died and she can't guess, but she does the love the H and wants a real marriage too.
The big HEA is planning another trip to the Whitsunday's, where the H kept the lease on the island he wanted to build a resort on and built a little honeymoon house instead. They will take the honorary grandma and the next door neighbor baby sitter and all be happy together.
I enjoyed this one a lot, it was very well written - even though I wanted massive skillet lashings of the H for most of the book. Him selling the company to be able to keep his relationship with the h went a long way for me, plus it dispelled the initial impression of a spoiled indulged H that got his money handed to him - his own company was a big success without the backing of his father's work and that helped to convince me he was really sincere in his feelings for the h.
This one was a highly believable HEA from the most unusual circumstances. I especially liked how compassionately the whole prior marriage was handled and the H and h's inevitable conflicts regarding it were realistically discussed.
The whole topic was treated very delicately and sensitively with a good resolution for a regular romance, and exceptionally for HPlandia. I really recommend this one for anyone who likes great writing with convincing character growth that leads to the conclusion that these two people really have an HEA that will last, and the depth of the emotional quality makes this one a true HPlandia keeper.