*Edit 2021: Recently gave this book away and realized I was so mad at the time I only posted a review in Chinese. It is as follows:
"To love reading one must find the good in reading; for instance to know the breadth of sky and land, to know the hardships of humanity, to be aware of one's own behaviour and biases, to premonite what's to come, to not be distraught by suffering, to not be inflated by praise". Such noble words, but you cannot see his "to not be distraught by suffering, to not be inflated by praise" in his work. Quite the opposite, I found him to be egotistical and self-centred. In his essay "Waiting" he boasts about small victories where he outsmarts, and repeatedly outlines the downsides of going into politics or getting rich, as if comforting himself more than anything. I initially thought this book "Walk Alone Freely" would have some unique insights into loneliness, being alone, and being solitary, but the essay " Walking Alone Towards the Future" left a bad taste in my mouth. From the first sentence he is pointing fingers and critiquing the lonesomeness of others. Why is their loneliness inferior to yours? The entire book is like this, him on a high horse criticizing every decision made by others, but not justifying WHY his opinions are such. Why do you consider everyone who dresses different from you and dye their hair to be "withdrawn from society" in a very negatively connotated way? The way they dress is a signal to bring the accepting social group closer, and to avoid interacting with judgmental passersby. Is this not the EXACT point you were trying to make in your essay "Knocking"?
And the way he writes about women! He is not aware of himself and his own biases. Any woman that passes under his pen must initially receive his critique as to what you look and dress like. "women who are like this are usually average looking at best. Women who are like this are *insert lazy flower comparison here*". He never once thinks about a woman's talent, thoughts, or opinions. All the main characters he is conversing with, sitting with, friends with, are all male. Even when he meets a talented woman, he writes "how can such a woman produce such a great work" as if beauty is conflicting with thought or talent. It seems like he has trouble seeing women as people, and the whole time made me extremely uncomfortable.
The best parts of this book were when he described his own life. When he is deep in the mires of daily ennui, he sheds that irritating judgmental tone. The few essays where he describes his father, mother, and living in a large courtyard were written vibrantly and with great flair.
I cannot finish this book, and I have so many thoughts. I want to grab this man by the collar and point out his inconsistencies one by one, but alas, I can only sit here and take him apart in a review he'll never read. Such is life.
When it comes to prose, Jia has to be one of the masters. He writes just exactly what he likes and believes. He never lets the outside world invade him though there are a bunch of stuff being just so temptating and intrusive and invasive. It could be tricky sometimes when you need to stay peaceful.