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If Only in My Dreams

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To be home for Christmas, they must bridge the distance between them.

Charlie Yates is desperate. It’s almost Christmas and his flight home from college has been delayed. For days. Charlie promised his little sister Ava he’d be home for her first holiday season since going into remission from leukemia. Now he’s stuck on the opposite coast and someone else grabbed the last r
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Published November 19th 2015 by KA Books
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☆ Todd
Nov 13, 2015 rated it it was amazing
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** MY # 1 CHRISTMAS READ OF 2015 **

--> And it beat out all of the 2016 competition, too, so read it! : )


The only way that I could've liked this book any more is if there had been puppies. And maybe chocolate. But definitely puppies. : )

I hadn't read a book that made me feel so deeply in a while now, so the effortless ease with which Keira pulled at my heart strings was a joy.

I straight-up loved 18 y.o. Charlie, whose concern for his 8 y.o. sister's leukemia was so touching t
~✡~Dαni(ela) ♥ ♂♂ love & semi-colons~✡~


Ah, now that I got THAT out of the way, let's talk about this glorious holiday story by Ms. Andrews.

Going in, I did not expect the MCs to be 18 and just finishing their first semester of college. I had a moment of sheer panic when I realized I was reading YA/NA.

Because. EIGHTEEN.

But this story worked for me on so many levels. I loved the dual first-person POV. I would have been a sad bunny had I missed out on either Charlie or Gavin's perspective.

Charlie is desperate to
Nov 26, 2015 rated it really liked it
4 Stars!!


“If Only in My Dreams” is a friends to lovers/second chance/ romance holiday story that made me smile and sigh and smile again. I love Christmas stories and if the story is sweet with some sexy scenes here and there I’m a happy reader. This story is about forgiveness, second chances and family and features two cute 18 years old boys, Charlie and Gavin who just finished their first semester of college.

Charlie Yates’s Christmas is ruined when he finds out a snowstorm had come and his fli

Oh! I just love this. I’ve always been a sucker for stories of second-chances. But it’s quite a different reading experience when the premise is an unacknowledged first love.

There’s an added layer of angst and vulnerability to the characters – with all the what-ifs and if-onlys. But there’s also that pronounced excitement for the coveted oxymoronic rekindling – familiar and new – which you don’t get to feel from established couples.

Factor in innocent, juvenile longings and that holiday feel, and

Nov 08, 2015 rated it it was amazing
*** 4.5 Stars ***

I went into this one with only reading a few reviews and didn't know the 2 Male characters were just 18 and almost came to a screeching halt....Y/A is not my thing at all.
But right from the start I LOVED these boys.

This is a really sweet,sexy boy on boy Romance.I'm not going to lie,I like my men who do men books to be downright rough and dirty but this totally worked for me and the fact Charlie had a bit of a dirty mouth on him didn't hurt....

Charlie is trying to get home for Ch
Nov 08, 2019 rated it liked it
Shelves: m-m, 2015
3.5 Stars

Charlie couldn’t find a rental car to go home for Christmas, he had promised his little sister to be home for opening the presents and he hated to fail her (especially with her conditions). The faith put Charlie in a car with Gavin, the only person he’d let get to him a few years ago in high school. But with the resentment between them is it possible they bridge the distance between them?

Told in dual POV, 1st person, it’s a standalone novella. It was a quick easy read, low on angst, cut
Cross-posted at Outlaw Reviews and at Shelf Inflicted

Charlie Yates is going to have the worst Christmas ever if he doesn’t get to Connecticut in time to see his little sister, Ava, who is now in remission from leukemia. It turns out Mother Nature is going to make Charlie’s life difficult by wreaking havoc on both coasts, forcing massive flight cancellations during one of the busiest travel times of the year. Charlie’s only alternative is to rent a car and drive cross-country. Unfortunately, Gavi
Nick Pageant
Another great BR with Alona and special guest Giulio.

I really loved this little Christmas novella. The MCs were both adorable, the writing was top-notch, and the sex was HOT! Keira Andrews never misses!
Keira Andrews
This is my new Christmas romance, a new adult story about two former besties turned enemies who must drive across the country together. I wanted to write a holiday story that has angst and emotion and isn't solely fluff. My goal was also to make it sexy and hot, but to include those warm and cuddly holiday feels as well. I hope I've succeeded! :) ...more
Nov 07, 2015 rated it really liked it

Charlie Yates and Gavin Bloomberg were childhood best friends and even more than that. Sadly, they had a falling out at the beginning of their junior year because of a certain incident. After four years of not speaking to one another, they meet again by a complete coincidence.

Charlie promised his little sister Ava, who's in remission from leukiemia, he'd be home for Christmas. He has to get there at all costs, so he won't break his promise, but it's not easy. His flight has been delayed due to a
I was going to cry again, so I kissed him instead and let go of the past, taking hold of joy with both hands.

This was the perfect feel good story about redemption and love and sexy times under the (metaphorical) mistletoe. Take hold of joy with both hands, my friends. :)
Nov 07, 2015 rated it it was amazing
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If Only In My Dreams by Keira Andrews is a lovely friends to lovers second chance romance. Charlie and Gavin's friendship suddenly ended after sharing their first kiss during their freshman year of high school.

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What I loved:

*Charlie & Gavin. They were wonderful characters full of heart and loyalty. I fell in love with them and was rooting for them the whole way.
*It's told from a dual POV.
*The supporting characters.
*The story flow was very smooth.
*Steam. It was surprisingly hot- and that Charlie
*3rd read November 2020

Just as damn adorable and lovely as the first time I read it, and exactly what I needed to read. Loved so much!! 🥰

*Reread December 2019

I had to up my rating a star. This was even more magical than it was to me the first time, and I sat up til 3am, unable to stop reading. I think I might make this story a Christmas tradition. I love it. <3

*First read December 2016

So, so sweet. All about forgiveness, acceptance and more than one kind of second chance. I loved it so much!
* A Reader Obsessed *
Basically my 3rd Keira Andrews in as many days and I could definitely continue to read another ten or twenty.

Gavin and Charlie have years of hurt, regret, and anger between them, and it just may be fortuitous that a freak storm brings them together in a race to get home in time for the holidays. As they get to know each other again, revelations surprise and spur each other into action.

For me, where Andrews shines best is in the delicious UST, often revolving around a secret, painful longing that
Nov 07, 2015 rated it really liked it

**4.5 stars**

"There was no way— no effing way!— Gavin Bloomberg and I could drive to Connecticut together. It was impossible. It was unthinkable. It was the worst idea ever.
But fuck me. It was my shot."

A road trip through Snowmageddon, two boys that used to be friends, a second chance at love and many sexy times.

This was one of the best holiday stories ever and it incorporates so many favorite themes. Enemies to lovers, second chance love, comfort-healing and a cross country road tri
3.5 stars

What I liked about it:

+ The Reindeer Run, which made me want to see a movie with it
+ The emotion feels real
+ The sibling relationship; can't help it, I loved that kind of dedication and loyalty between siblings.
+ The ending with Gavin's parents. I loved that. It wasn't easy but it was still good.

What I didn't really care about:

+ The teenagers' emo; I guess I passed that phase long time ago. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Which is why I still cannot claim young a
Nov 07, 2015 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: holiday-reads, arc, lgbtq
Definitely one of my favorite holiday reads! Ooey gooey sweetness for everyone!

Charlie is stuck in San Francisco trying to get home for Christmas. He promised his little sister Ava (who is in remission from leukemia) that he would be there to open stockings and presents on Christmas morning.

Thanks to fogmaggedon and snowmageddon, all flights are delayed. As a last ditch effort, he decides to rent a car and drive cross country to Connecticut so he can be there for Christmas. As fate would have
”I was going to cry again, so I kissed him instead and let go of the past, taking hold of it with both hands.”

I loved reading this book. And rereading it. And rereading it again.
*J* Too Many Books Too Little Time
Nov 07, 2015 rated it really liked it
Shelves: male-action
4.5 Stars!

Super cute and sweet holiday story with a touch of spice!
Nov 13, 2015 rated it really liked it
A short, sweet and super sexy read perfect for snuggling up to this holiday season!

When FOGmaggedon in San Francisco meets Snowmaggedon on the East coast, planes get grounded leaving Charlie Yates desperate to find a way home in order to keep his promise to his little sister, Ava. When there's no buses or trains running either it looks like renting a car and driving across country from San Fran to Connecticut is his only option if Charlie wants to get to Ava by Christmas morning. Unfortunately,
Wendys Wycked Words
I absolutely loved this " friends to lovers/ second chance " lovestory ! It was short, sweet and surprisingly steamy ;)

Charlie and Gavin were good friends, even living in the same street, when they were 14 years old. But a shared kiss changed everything.

Now 4 years later, Charlie is stranded at the airport, because of a storm. He's desperate to get home and spend Christmas with is 8 year old he promised her. She has been sick for years and he has this feeling, that something terrib
Nov 14, 2015 rated it really liked it
Shelves: mm-read
It's a winter road trip...

There are a ton of awesome reviews for this book here on GR so I'm keeping this one short and suggesting if you want more they're here just check scoot to the books page and check them out if you're not already there, if you are just keep looking or you could just dive in and read the book because it was awesome.

I think I've become a fan of books that involve road trips as this one did and I know I'm a fan of second chances something we all need and deserve. Throw in a
Dec 16, 2019 marked it as dnf
dnf @ 61%

I think I'm giving up on this author. I enjoyed the first half of the book, didn't enjoy the intimate scenes. They ruined the story for me. Again. I don't even feel like explaining why.

(4th X-mas read 2015 with Paul)


Lovely friends-to-lovers story. Road-trip. And Christmas themed....

Not much more to wish for!!

I’m a big fan of Keira Andrews. The main reason for that ?? She has a knack for making me enjoy stories I usually stay away from.

NA/YA ? Not my taste. Story with road trips ? Not my taste. But…like I said, it’s Keira Andrews and I really enjoyed this sweet and hot short-story with Charlie and Gavin, both 18 years old (**gasp**).

Charlie wants to go back home for Christmas to spend this time with her sister who is finally in remission of her cancer. But all the flights are cancelled for bad weathe
Aahh....this made my Grinch heart happy. I think this will be my favorite Christmas story of the year (& that's saying a lot because I've been reviewing Christmas stories since Aug). The story starts with college student Charlie stuck in the airport trying to get to his parent's home in time for Christmas morning. There are extenuating circumstances that make this a very important trip and he HAS to be there on time. Desperation leads to Charlie headed on a cross country road trip with his forme ...more
Yay! This ended really well!!! Hooray!!!

First half was hard to read. I didn't like Charlie. Gavin was okay, but I wasn't sold right away. And then the plot, their back story, it's not that fun. For the lack of a better term. I didn't liked that it's YA. Do you guys over there really let teenagers drive cross country? And then -maggedon after -maggedon after -maggedon. Oh my gedon.

And then I reached the second half. Which is just lovable as hell. It just make me want to hug anything. And also hum
Dec 06, 2016 rated it really liked it
Nothing like the 'enemies to friends to lovers' trope! :)
This works really well here. It creates tension between Charlie and Gavin right from the beginning and kept me glued to the pages. We only find out gradually what went down between the two of them four years earlier.
Neither man is completely free from fault. And neither really ever found out the reason behind the other's actions. A journey across the US provides plenty of time to amend that. And it does. VEEEERY slowly. Of course it helps
Kade Boehme
Nov 25, 2015 rated it it was amazing
*swoons* oh I'd love love to read more Charlie and Gavin. This was lovely. ...more
Perfect! Perfect Christmas story! Snow, a touch of feels, friendship and some SUPER hot sex! Seriously if your going to read a Christmas story this year, make it this one.

And because I'm all about spreading Christmas cheer, here's a little something to put you in the Christmas spirit.

“I’m going to fuck your mouth while you’re rammed full with the dildo, and you’re going to come so hard.”

;-) Enjoy
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