I have so many issues with this book, I don’t even know where to start. This read like a rough draft. A really rough draft. So many errors with dates and time left me confused and having to reread. For example, when Ivan was 16 he told his foster mom he’d been looking for Jay for 7 years. It had only been 4 at that point. They mention growing up together but were only together for 6 months? There was also a questionable description of male anatomy that I don’t think the author quite understood. The writing was also SO REPETITIVE. Honestly, this book could have been cut in half if it was just edited properly.
”You're not broken. You're hurt. There's a difference."
I really wanted to love this since based to the blurb, the book should have been right up my alley (foster brothers, broken boys, hurt & comfort, years apart and then finding each other again), but overall it didn't live up to my expectations.
I liked many things about this. We get a good amount of content from the time they were in foster home when they were young. The book also gave a brief overview of what happened between the time they were separated and when they found each other again. I also liked both MMCs and the author writes about them in such a way that I am able to form a connection to them. I liked the change in their relationship dynamics, how Jay supported them when they were young and how Ivan was able to give him the same support when they were older.
What affected my reading experience was that this was a little tedious at times. It felt like they were having the same conversation over and over again and same things were repeated. It's wonderful that they communicate about things, but in this case, there was sometimes too much talking which often didn't bring up anything new.
Also, not that these boys didn't suffer enough already, but there could have been more drama or conflict there, perhaps something more related to Jay's problems.
Another thing was that spice didn't work for me. Both were around 20 years old, virgins, never done anything with anyone. However, as soon as they started having sex, they jumped right into dirty talking and both did it in the same way. The dialogue didn’t feel natural in their situation and kind of threw me off in those scenes.
For a debut, this isn't too bad, and I would read other books from the author in the future.
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I dream about a kid with a garbage bag, standing in a doorway, looking at me with those terrified eyes like I'm the only thing left in the world that might not hurt him. In the dream, I don't let him down. In the dream, I keep him safe. I wish it were more than just a dream.
”I will not let you fall any further. I will not let you drown. I will pull you out of this darkness even if I have to drag you kicking and screaming.”
I'll have to feel everything. Everything I've been drowning for years will come flooding back. But Ivan is here. And I would rather face every nightmare in the world, than see that look of fear in his eyes again.
”I never could have given up. You're part of me. You always have been. I couldn't stop looking for you any more than I could stop breathing."
"You don't even know, do you? You don't know how much you saved me. Not just from Henderson, from everything. You gave me a template for what kindness looks like. What safety feels like. What love looks like. I've been chasing that same feeling my whole life. That feeling of being held by you in the dark."
This book was truly an amazing read. This appears to be the authors first book and what a place to start. The story of Jay and Ivan is heartbreaking and raw, but its filled with love and hope and fighting for each other. I cannot reccomend this book enough. It will stick with me for a long time.
I cannot even put in words how much a loved this book, Jay was so hurt and so kind and he really wanted to be the best, and the way he protected Ivan, i cried most of the book, the support and love that they had for eachother is everything, at the end i had to stop so many times because i was sobbing, amazing
What makes this book work is the connection between Ivan and Jay. Their bond isn’t just romantic—it’s foundational. The kind of love that comes from two people who were each other’s only safe place, and never stopped being that, even when the world ripped them apart. Their relationship feels raw, protective, and genuinely heartwarming without losing the weight of what they’ve lived through.
The healing arc is handled with care, and the emotional payoff comes from watching love become something steady instead of something fragile. This is the kind of story where the tenderness hits harder because it’s earned.
There were a few minor continuity issues, but they didn’t take away from the heart of the story or the emotional impact.
3.5 ⭐️ So I enjoyed the story on this one but it definitely had its challenges. Hearing about how they found each other then were torn apart, only to be back together was very heart-breaking and beautiful. However, I do feel like, in real life, the adults would have done more. I have experience with social work and foster care and this story didn’t align with what I know. But, that being said, my experience is not everyone’s. But the Hendersons not getting arrested is so unlikely. And they would have completed examinations on both of the children when removing them from the home. Some challenges for me in this book had to do with the length, for one. It was in desperate need of editing. Someone to go through and cut out some parts. I felt like the author was trying to reach a specific word count or something. It was just soooo long. Mannnyyyyyy repeated thoughts and dialogue. It got so tedious. Also the dialogue itself wasn’t always realistic. I thought to myself multiple times, who would actually say this? And the dirty talk was so extra lol. Like using descriptors during dirty talk that were more author-describing words rather than something someone would say. It’s hard to word what I mean lol. There were also some consistency errors. Like the first weekend together was 3 days long? Lol Saturday happened twice. And just other inconsistencies that pulled me out of the story.
Also ugh! I feel like it was such a wasted opportunity for Ivan to not show Jay the note he kept from him for years and got laminated. Why didn’t that get mentioned?!
The honeymoon was cute. The wedding was okayyy. I dunno. This one just didn’t hit.
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If I read "Big" or "Fat" cock one more time in this book, I'm gonna jump off a BIG FAT building.
2 stars for the emotional damage I got in the first half, but I really couldn't finish it. I wanted to love it, I wanted to feel the pain these two have suffered from, but they run in circles, then they fuck with dirty talk that makes no sense for two VIRGINS or barely not virgins anymore (in my head it doesnt...it's just so over the top, like in porn...)
The story itself was intriguing for me to WANT to read it so badly, but the smut just threw me off so hard I cannot...for now...finish this book. I really hope this book finds a re-edit... I wan't to know whats gonna happen, but I just cannot oversee all the timing issues, the weird sextalk issues, the characters who flipflop with personality issues.
I love myself a good starcrossed lovers with hurt/comfort....and lots of angst, and swordfighting... I'm so...gutted I didn't love this.
The start of this book had so much going for it. Jay and Ivan lived through so much at such a young age and their bond was infinite. Unfortunately after the two boys were separated it just got worse. Continuity was a big problem for me. One thing said in one chapter, then completely changed or contradicted later on. Time periods not matching up. It just bothered me too much. I also felt the spicy scenes didn't quite work. The dirty talk did not feel natural or right for the type of characters these men had. All that being said, this book is a debut for the author, and I would their next book a chance. As with life, we are all on a learning curve, and dont get everything right all of the time.
An outstanding double hurt/comfort story. Jay and Ivan first met as two foster children in an abusive house. Jay does his best to protect the younger Ivan, and the two form a strong bond. They memorise each other's personal details in case they are separated, but once that happens, they are unable to reconnect until seven years later. During that time, Ivan had been quite fortunate in finding a family, but Jay struggled even more. Their story of slow healing and support and finding each other in a carefully growing adult romantic relationship was truly moving. I have never cried over any wedding vows until this book. I will not be forgetting this story. Thanks for the advance copy via Booksprout, I am honoured to leave a voluntary review.
I just finished reading Remember My Name by Wren Wilds and I loves it. Ivan & Jay are foster kids. Ivan meets Jay when he's placed in hia home. They both suffer greatly & Jay gives Ivan much needed support to survive. Things happen where Ivan & Jay are separated & don't see each other again for 7 years. Jay has picked up some bad habits & is just barely surviving at age 21. He's gotten into s bar fight & that's how Ivan was able to find him on a news page. I don't want to spoil it, but from there, the rest is both heartwarming as well as heart breaking. I would definitely recommend this book.
I felt like the story started too slow with so much background story on Jay and Ivan… then suddenly they meet and it went too fast.
The pace and believability was a little off for me. Like seriously… as soon as you meet up again - can’t you like give us a little turmoil and emotional tension for a couple more chapters so that there’s some gritty angst in there.
Then I have a gripe about their ages - really in this day and age? The ending/epilogue is hardly believable; what are they? 20 years old. Really?
But. Apart from my sceptic beliefs. The author has a lovely writing style and I would read more from them
I will remember this book for the rest of my life. The 2 MMC are tragic and beautiful. I cried for Jay so much. If you want to cry so hard that your eyes are swollen for days, if you want smile so much that your face hurts, if you want a love story that will not disappoint and if you have room in your head and heart for a story that you will think about at least once a day for the rest of your life, then read this book! This is the 1st book I’ve read from this author and I can’t wait to read more!
I really loved this book. I loved how Ivan & Jay cared for each other. You can feel the deep connection between them. I cried at different occasions. Them memorizing each other's personal details and repeating it every night for 7 years is so heartwarming and heartbreaking at the same time. And their wedding vows were just perfect and tear-jerking. Yes, the book had some errors (time and dates) but it's not enough to deter me from loving the story.
Ivan and Jay story will break your heart and slowly put it back together. I loved this book and will say it discussed topics that can be triggering for some do please be sure to read the TW at the beginning. It's heavy on the hurt/comfort and makes the HEA so much better. There's really not a lot ai can say that doesn't give away the story, but I would definitely recommend for others.
I have qualms. But I skimmed a lot, and the only one I can remember is the ending.
I understand they moved. Jay no longer lives in Macon. But how come no one from his life there was at the wedding or even mentioned? Did they invite any of them? It would’ve been a long drive, but they could’ve sent card or something. I think they deserved a mention, at least.
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This book sucked me in and gave me all the emotions. I don't cry but their wedding vows gave me watery eyes. This boom took me on an emotional roller coaster with the best ending.
Jay and Ivan’s story is full of despair and longing. It hurts so much but is so worth it. These boys go through hell but come out with so much love. The continuity isn’t perfect in spots but Jay and Ivan make up for it.
Be prepared to cry. If you like hurt/comfort books about two men dealing with trauma and learning to love themselves and each - then this is the book for you. Beautiful book.
This is one of the better books I’ve read lately. I was invested in the characters from the start and you can feel the love and hope throughout. It pulls at the heart strings and has just the right amount of spicy. Definitely would read again!
What a great book!! So glad it ended with an HEA. Don’t think I would have survived if it didn’t. Everything those boys went through. They deserved a happy ending!!!
Absolutely destroyed me. I cried so many times reading this. These characters fought so hard for this HEA. This will be a reread for sure. So excited to see more from this author!
Absolutely top tier sex talk, unfortunately it came out of 19 and 21 year old mouths who both admitted to the other they never really thought much about sex or attraction before they hooked up.
So close to being great - loved the characters and set up but frequently repetitious down to entire paragraphs repeated when the POV changes brought me out of the story too often.