Soooooo good. read the whole thing today because I could not bring myself to put it down and unsurprisingly this has deeply affected me. I demand 500 more dean Winchester beat sheets!
I didn't know I had it in me to enjoy such wild plots without it backlashing. I admit, being closeted and repressed, not due to tangible abuse and trauma or society's "direct" hatred and threat to LGBT community(as I myself experience in my country), but due to internalised homophobia(which is again caused by society's subdued messages, but is much more challenging to point out and fight against) is something I hadn't given much thought to before reading this. We see the level of misery repression could bestow on an individual and how much subtlety is needed to coax someone to trust you enough to show you their true self. The turn of the plot to something utterly crazy was something that had the potential to hurt the integrity of the whole book, but somehow the author did it swiftly. Although the story shifted from the point where I saw it going, but it didn't render it ridiculous, which is something. It was a highly enjoyable read with endearing characters and unhinged storylines that somehow stayed put together throughout all of the madness.
This Dean and this Cas forever—omg. This story is everything I needed and more, a fucking literary masterpiece of yearning, repression and human mistakes and it encapsulates everything I could ever want from an AU.