I'm so out of the loop I didn't even know this existed until I saw someone post a manga haul pic on twitter. There's even a movie out! So I bought it immediately.
I was scared we're gonna see Kijima cheat on Kuzumi based on the summary, but actually it's just Kijima's usual contrariness making things hard for himself and everyone else.
I read this in English while I waited for my copy to ship and I have thoughts.
1, I read fast in English, but this just means I miss nuances in favour of knowing what happens next. Because I'm illiterate in Japanese, I have to slow down and pay more attention and notice things I missed before.
2, That said, some things just aren't translatable. The weight of Kijima saying 'ご両親' is not the same as him saying 'parents' and that's when I realised I missed one of the themes in the manga the first time around. I guess because reading it in Japanese reminds my brain that this is a Japanese story with all the Asian cultures behind it.
Which is to say, I thought (correctly) that this book was about Kijima being afraid of happiness. The scenes where he runs away from his family and especially the one with Gamouda-sensei reinforce this. The scene with Gamouda-sensei is actually my favourite and I'm happy they brought it to the forefront in the movie. 'People who are happy have no need of literature' is such a Kijima thing to say, and is actually a legit concern for someone who loves writing as much as he does.
And like sure, the better part of his fear comes from thinking he's undeserving of happiness, that happiness would pass and leave him with nothing in the end. But I think the 'happy people have no need of literature' reminds us how Kijima is a writer to his very core and how this all adds up to his general fears.
On the other hand, I missed his worries about Kuzumi's future completely. And I don't know why because it's much more obvious than the fear of happiness thing 😂 He even says it outright in that scene where Kuzumi talks about his childhood pet. Kijima was all 'I'm sure your parents felt lonely when you left your home (to go to college)'.
Like why did I think that scene with the dog was there? Idk man. My brain wasn't just working I guess.
But yeah, when Kijima started talking about Kuzumi being his parents' only son, it finally clicked. Like I said, the weight of ご両親 is different so when I read that I realised it comes with a wholeass baggage of making your parents proud, of taking care of your parents when they get older, of living up to their expectations. English 'parents' doesn't really evoke the same sense of responsibility to me, so reading in Japanese really helped recontextualise that scene for me.
I guess I was sort of paying attention the first time I read it, but it didn't really dawn on me how much weight those words had until I saw it in the original form.
The final bonus chapter where Kijima lies about his own fucking birthday to make Kuzumi happy is so cute.
1, He calls Kuzumi 'Haru-kun' to his face (he's only said it to Kido before). That's such a leap from 'it's embarrassing to call you by your name'???
2, There's for sure gonna be a time when his lie would be revealed and cause problems for people (i.e. Kuzumi and Kido) but it's just so Kijima to lie without batting an eye. Kijima's lies are how we got here in the first place. But while he usually lies because it's interesting, or because it's too annoying to tell the truth, this time we see him lie to make a person smile and I think that's really cute.
I'm gonna miss these two so much ;__;
Eta: Man, I'm sorry but I just remembered the inside cover actually has some letters Kijima and Kuzumi sent each other. Kuzumi sent a post card from his business trip. He's apologising for not replying earlier (a thing he usually says, apparently), and talks about the trip. He ate uni rice bowl and wants to go there with Kijima someday. Kijima says he'd love to go on trips with Kuzumi but is allergic to some food? I'm sorry, his handwriting is harder to read 😂 (I think this is a lie because his mother says he's a picky eater in the book).
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Seqüela de Pornographer necessària, però que no m'ha acabat d'encaixar tant com la primera part o la preqüela. Calia saber com evolucionava la relació a distància dels dos protagonistes, però m'ha fet la sensació que hi ha hagut molta anada i vinguda força il·lògica, algun retrocés que no s'acabava d'entendre i un ús del recurs de les caigudes que no he entès si pretenia ser còmic, però que m'ha semblat un pèl mandrós... L'essència d'aquest volum es concentra al final, quan els protagonistes per fi parlen, es mostren vulnerables, autèntics, comparteixen les seves angoixes i els seus records. Tenint en compte això, la part sobre la mare i fill propietaris de bar em sembla ficada amb calçador i poc rellevant per a la trama, totalment omissible. Per últim, el comportament del Kijima m'ha semblat que es contradeia amb les obres anteriors perquè semblava que ja havia vist la llum i que era conscient que calia confiar en el Haru (és a dir, prou mentides), però en aquest volum torna a fer de les seves. En definitiva, el final podria haver estat més dolç i satisfactori de llegir, però s'ha quedat una mica aigualit ^^'
I'm a 40+ mother of two and have never read a BL in my life, but i came across this story online and dive in because the story was good love novel, not just BL. I was able to see that the at the root were the characters love for each other. I would read more from this writer because I can really feel the emotion coming off the page. I wish that it did just get labeled Gay or BL because the story is so much more in the end the sex it has in it.
3,5* Est-ce le tome de trop ? Bon, pas forcément puisque l’autrice parvient quand même à donner de l’intérêt à l’histoire et surtout à y apporter une conclusion satisfaisante. J’ai encore eu beaucoup de mal avec l’attitude de Kijima et la manière dont il fuit sans cesse ses responsabilités. Ça en devient presque comique. Heureusement que les autres personnages ne sont pas dupes et qu’ils le remettent face à la réalité. Globalement, j’ai bien aimé ce petit univers et ses personnages. :)