It hurts to rate a queer love story so poorly. I'll start with the good.
The premise was irresistible. Hallmark-y, cozy vibes with the local bookstore owner and the local coffee shop owner meet-cute. Adorable! Big and curvy POC main character receiving love from the stereotypical hot white guy who helps establish confidence within himself? Rightfully deserved! A loving, supportive community who ships our main couple? Heck yes!
Now, everything else.
The pacing. This book is just shy of 200 pages, for reference. For the first quarter of the book, we get some cute, light flirting. 49 pages of stares filled with longing, adorable smiles, etc. Page 50, kiss. Page 58, proclamation of love. Page 74, phone sex and Baby/Daddy pet names. Page 86, planning a FIRST DATE.
The date takes its time and is, honestly, great. No gripes there. The story also takes a while to set up for the masquerade ball, which is another scene that has fabulous potential for romance.
Entering the back half of this book, I wish I knew I how much whiplash was in store for me. It's twist after twist that send Leo spiraling and leaves Ryder doing his best to put out every fire known to man.
Page 127, we are introduced to a character who we've never met/been made aware of. Absolute demon of a Mean Girl. She scares away Leo and tries to seduce Ryder. She is dealt with and we never see her again. Fewer than ten pages after her defeat, we get a sex scene to help build Leo up. Ten pages after that, SECRET POTENTIAL FIANCE SHOWS UP AND THREATENS UNCONFIRMED PREGNANCY? Leo runs outside and GETS IN A CAR ACCIDENT?! FOUR PAGES LATER, LEO'S IN A FUCKING COMA?!?!
The book ending with almost everyone (even Leo's parents, who are adults and should know that Ryder has more to explain/clarify) exiling Ryder, Leo waking up with AMNESIA, and regaining his memories instantly after putting on his bracelet from Ryder just to leave Ryder without trying to work anything out is the most insane ending. The cliffhanger teasing a sequel begs the question of why this story wasn't finished including the content THAT book.
The constant ante-upping cheapens what could've been a tender story about self-esteem and surrounding yourself with a loving community of your own. Leo learned nothing about his self-worth, claiming that Ryder lied to him about everything, and Ryder had almost no agency in each predicament for the last half of the book. The other reviews I can see at the time of writing this one focus on the coziness and sweetness of the story, but the end demolishes any such feelings.
I encourage anyone who wants to write to explore their intent as to why they're writing a particular story. Focusing on a character's purpose and journey toward that purpose will keep a story from getting lost in so many ideas of twists that seem exciting to include in the spur of the moment.
Unfortunately, I do not recommend this book for a cozy read. However, if you enjoy the dramatics of soap operas, this one would be a great fit!