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Elysian Fields
Quiet and unworldly Imogen has spent twenty-four years locked in a mind hell-bent on her demise. Isolated from her peers by the oddities of her mental illness, she’s more acquainted with counsellors’ and doctors’ offices than classrooms or house parties. On the precipice of graduating from university and happy with her boyfriend Jesse, Imogen can finally see the possibility of a normal future. When an unwanted pregnancy threatens her well-being and compromises the medication she depends on, Imogen is plunged into darkness. Time impassively marches forward as Imogen faces motherhood. At her weakest, Imogen must choose to fight for herself and win the battle in her mind. Achingly unapologetic, Elysian Fields gives readers a glimpse into mental illness and how it’s lived out in today’s cultural labyrinth.
213 pages, Paperback
First published March 1, 2024
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December 4, 2024
”The world did not seem to be my home, neither as a child nor an adult. And so, I escaped.”
Elysian Fields is one of those books that sneaks up on you, quietly sinking its roots into your heart. The story itself is straightforward - no convoluted twists or intricate plots - but the way Gingerich captures the rawness of mental illness is nothing short of profound. It’s a portrayal that feels so honest and vulnerable, it hurts.
”People do not have the right to make you feel badly for having an illness.”
Imogen’s story is portrayed with tenderness and truth and the author focuses on the small moments of clarity, the brief glimpses of peace that make life worth holding onto.
”Why was everything so hard? Why was I so fucking sad all of the time? Why did it take everything within myself, all my concentration and energy, to get out of bed, braid my hair, peel an orange? Why did I feel like a pseudo adult, trying to keep up with the race, but my legs were far shorter than everyone else's?”
This novel offers no neat resolutions, no perfect endings - just the hard, real work of existing when life feels heavy. It’s not just a book you read; it’s one you experience.
June 25, 2024
4.25⭐️! Decided to switch it up and read a book focused on the struggles of mental health. The author sent this to me, and upon reading it was on mental health, I knew I wanted to read it. I related a ton to this book. It describes the struggles of living with anxiety so well.
This was such a sad but real story! It’s for those to know they aren’t alone, or “broken” for feeling the way they do. I wanted to legit strangle her boyfriend. The sad part is this stuff happens in relationships very often. This was such a heartbreaking story.
Only reason for taking off some points is I felt the end was rushed, when that big twist happened at the end. It was also a tad slow to start. But I read this in one sitting! I think this is still amazing for a debut novel though! I can tell a lot of heart went into writing this.
Thank you to the author for sending me this! Definitely recommend this if you struggle with mental health, or just want to educate yourself. There are some heavy topics in this though to check first if you have triggers!
This was such a sad but real story! It’s for those to know they aren’t alone, or “broken” for feeling the way they do. I wanted to legit strangle her boyfriend. The sad part is this stuff happens in relationships very often. This was such a heartbreaking story.
Only reason for taking off some points is I felt the end was rushed, when that big twist happened at the end. It was also a tad slow to start. But I read this in one sitting! I think this is still amazing for a debut novel though! I can tell a lot of heart went into writing this.
Thank you to the author for sending me this! Definitely recommend this if you struggle with mental health, or just want to educate yourself. There are some heavy topics in this though to check first if you have triggers!
September 15, 2024
this was gut-wrenchingly beautiful! the writing had me absolutely spellbound, the emotions of the main character were so tangibly felt and i have a feeling i’ll be thinking abt this book for a long time.
imogen has been taking strides to be proactive in her mental health journey: seeking daily counsel, taking prescribed medication, making efforts to communicate her needs to the ppl in her daily life, etc. after a years long journey of hard work and many trial & error attempts with the right prescriptions, imogen has finally found a routine that works and provides some semblance of stability to her stormy mind. when imogen’s counselor suggests blood testing to delve into understanding the reason for her chronic fatigue, the results reveal that imogen is newly pregnant by her boyfriend of three years.
routine: gone in the blink of an eye.
the following chapters give personal insight into imogen’s emotionally tumultuous journey of making decisions while juggling the impact of her mental illness and facing down multiple ultimatums thrown at her by the ones who should be supporting her most.
❕ pls check trigger warnings before reading as it does contain some very serious themes (suicidal thoughts, self harm, sa, etc)
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“anxiety can take up several rooms in your life, but you own the house.”
thank you so much to the author for gifting me this copy of elysian fields! i will be eagerly awaiting more releases in the future 🫶🏻
imogen has been taking strides to be proactive in her mental health journey: seeking daily counsel, taking prescribed medication, making efforts to communicate her needs to the ppl in her daily life, etc. after a years long journey of hard work and many trial & error attempts with the right prescriptions, imogen has finally found a routine that works and provides some semblance of stability to her stormy mind. when imogen’s counselor suggests blood testing to delve into understanding the reason for her chronic fatigue, the results reveal that imogen is newly pregnant by her boyfriend of three years.
routine: gone in the blink of an eye.
the following chapters give personal insight into imogen’s emotionally tumultuous journey of making decisions while juggling the impact of her mental illness and facing down multiple ultimatums thrown at her by the ones who should be supporting her most.
❕ pls check trigger warnings before reading as it does contain some very serious themes (suicidal thoughts, self harm, sa, etc)
—
“anxiety can take up several rooms in your life, but you own the house.”
thank you so much to the author for gifting me this copy of elysian fields! i will be eagerly awaiting more releases in the future 🫶🏻
February 25, 2024
I was given an early copy of the book in exchange for a review.
Elysian Fields is a gripping story about a young woman navigating her mental health and life circumstances. I highly enjoyed reading this novel, and had trouble putting it down.
I found the writing clear to read, with lovely, poetic prose at points. The main character was easy to root for, while still feeling like an authentic, flawed person.
I think that the thought, and care put into creating this book is very evident. One line that stuck with me while reading was the self aware, almost meta aside about authors: (“What did you hide between the lines, dear author?”). I also thought the choice of having the story start with a sunrise, and end on a sunset, was quite clever and thematic.
With the caveat that this book does contain potentially triggering themes including self-harm, suicide, sexual assault, and death, I would highly recommend it!
Elysian Fields is a gripping story about a young woman navigating her mental health and life circumstances. I highly enjoyed reading this novel, and had trouble putting it down.
I found the writing clear to read, with lovely, poetic prose at points. The main character was easy to root for, while still feeling like an authentic, flawed person.
I think that the thought, and care put into creating this book is very evident. One line that stuck with me while reading was the self aware, almost meta aside about authors: (“What did you hide between the lines, dear author?”). I also thought the choice of having the story start with a sunrise, and end on a sunset, was quite clever and thematic.
With the caveat that this book does contain potentially triggering themes including self-harm, suicide, sexual assault, and death, I would highly recommend it!
January 5, 2025
Thank you Twila Gingerich for providing me with a copy to review :)
*3.5 stars
A fascinating read. First and foremost, I think the author did a great job at portraying living with OCD. It is the first time that I encounter a book that did not downplay it, make a joke out of it or diminish it to a mere side element. OCD influences life on all levels and 'Elysian Fields' portrayed this very well. I felt for the main character and I feel like I learned a lot about OCD through this novel.
The main character in general was a character I liked reading about. She had her faults and her struggles, which I think made her relatable for many readers. Her reactions to situations felt realistic and I enjoyed the dialogue between her and the side characters. In general, I enjoyed seeing the world through the main character's eyes; the way she observed the light, the mood, the people she was surrounded by. Especially the little scenes with the girls from university. Maybe it's because I could relate very well since I'm in university, but I really liked how she described the students she studied with in such loving ways. It was very atmospheric and the girls (even though they just made a brief occurrence) seemed lovely. I think it was a great addition to the novel.
However, I must mention that there are some editorial mistakes, for example in the inconsistencies in the indenting. Also, the excessive use of 'I' at the beginning of sentences is something that an editor should have pointed out and changed. With more editorial work, I think this book could have been significantly better, since the writing is solid and the story keeps you hooked. So yea, more editing could have benefitted the book lots, but as it is now I still found it a very fascinating read. The perspective that is given to the reader is an important one for sure.
*3.5 stars
A fascinating read. First and foremost, I think the author did a great job at portraying living with OCD. It is the first time that I encounter a book that did not downplay it, make a joke out of it or diminish it to a mere side element. OCD influences life on all levels and 'Elysian Fields' portrayed this very well. I felt for the main character and I feel like I learned a lot about OCD through this novel.
The main character in general was a character I liked reading about. She had her faults and her struggles, which I think made her relatable for many readers. Her reactions to situations felt realistic and I enjoyed the dialogue between her and the side characters. In general, I enjoyed seeing the world through the main character's eyes; the way she observed the light, the mood, the people she was surrounded by. Especially the little scenes with the girls from university. Maybe it's because I could relate very well since I'm in university, but I really liked how she described the students she studied with in such loving ways. It was very atmospheric and the girls (even though they just made a brief occurrence) seemed lovely. I think it was a great addition to the novel.
However, I must mention that there are some editorial mistakes, for example in the inconsistencies in the indenting. Also, the excessive use of 'I' at the beginning of sentences is something that an editor should have pointed out and changed. With more editorial work, I think this book could have been significantly better, since the writing is solid and the story keeps you hooked. So yea, more editing could have benefitted the book lots, but as it is now I still found it a very fascinating read. The perspective that is given to the reader is an important one for sure.
September 13, 2024
An amazing novel about struggles and mental health issues. Despite being a novel that handles very sensitive topics such as pregnancy, abortion, and mental health issues, Twila Gingerich does not shy away from addressing these topics and does so in a way that resonated with me as a reader and made me feel a deep connection to Imogen. Through Gingerich’s writing, readers get to follow Imogen through her personal journey and experience a deep connection to her through her struggles and triumphs. There are themes of identity, resilience, and self-discovery that are woven seamlessly into the story, adding layers of meaning to Imogen’s journey.
Here are a couple of my favourite quotes that really resonated with me as I read!
“Fiction could be used as comfort too. I thought about the authors more than their characters. Some authors were lucid omniscient, and omnipresent gods of their own making, knowing every minor detail of life, from their characters' first breath to their last. The reader moved along with the author's knowledge; little angels by their god's side witnessing their dominion.
And some authors were decidedly structured. There were self-imposed laws of nature between the front and back covers that the authors both created and abided by.”
“…sometimes the falling evening shadows made my mood plummet into its own black shadow. I wanted it to be understood that my brain drowned in anxiety. I wanted it to be understood that I was scared of people getting angry at me for my many anxieties. I wanted it to be understood that I was hard to understand and that I was well aware of this..”
Here are a couple of my favourite quotes that really resonated with me as I read!
“Fiction could be used as comfort too. I thought about the authors more than their characters. Some authors were lucid omniscient, and omnipresent gods of their own making, knowing every minor detail of life, from their characters' first breath to their last. The reader moved along with the author's knowledge; little angels by their god's side witnessing their dominion.
And some authors were decidedly structured. There were self-imposed laws of nature between the front and back covers that the authors both created and abided by.”
“…sometimes the falling evening shadows made my mood plummet into its own black shadow. I wanted it to be understood that my brain drowned in anxiety. I wanted it to be understood that I was scared of people getting angry at me for my many anxieties. I wanted it to be understood that I was hard to understand and that I was well aware of this..”
October 26, 2024
4.5⭑
the last time i annotated a book this much was with the bell jar. i think i have a soft spot for “sad girl fiction”—stories that are vulnerable and explore womanhood, mental health, and the ups and downs of life.
it’s beautifully written, so descriptive and lyrical and felt so relatable at times. i simply can’t believe this is a debut!
thank you so much to twila for gifting me this book—very grateful!
⭑.ᐟ please check tw before you read this book.
the last time i annotated a book this much was with the bell jar. i think i have a soft spot for “sad girl fiction”—stories that are vulnerable and explore womanhood, mental health, and the ups and downs of life.
it’s beautifully written, so descriptive and lyrical and felt so relatable at times. i simply can’t believe this is a debut!
thank you so much to twila for gifting me this book—very grateful!
⭑.ᐟ please check tw before you read this book.
June 21, 2024
I was sent an early copy of this book and WOW it was devastatingly beautiful. As someone who has struggled with debilitating anxiety on and off for a good portion of her life, it VERY accurately depicts what that feels like especially in a public setting
I’m not usually a fan of sad things but this book was beautifully written and does an amazing job at giving insight into the mind of a severely mentally ill person. Also why do I lowkey feel like the therapy sessions in this book kind of helped me in a way??
I’m not usually a fan of sad things but this book was beautifully written and does an amazing job at giving insight into the mind of a severely mentally ill person. Also why do I lowkey feel like the therapy sessions in this book kind of helped me in a way??
July 24, 2024
I was sent this book by the author, and I am so grateful for it! These thought are 100% my own.
Wow! This book is honestly one of the best books I read in a while, and definitely a new favorite!
The writing style is beautiful and it made Imogen feel so real. I also think the book depicts living with mental health issues so well. The book is dealing with a lot of heavy topics (self harm, suicidal thoughts, depression, sexual assault, severe anxiety, panic attacks and more) but if you can, I would highly recommend to read this book.
Wow! This book is honestly one of the best books I read in a while, and definitely a new favorite!
The writing style is beautiful and it made Imogen feel so real. I also think the book depicts living with mental health issues so well. The book is dealing with a lot of heavy topics (self harm, suicidal thoughts, depression, sexual assault, severe anxiety, panic attacks and more) but if you can, I would highly recommend to read this book.
March 9, 2024
I’ve never read a book that depicts what it’s like to live with a mental illness so well. The writing is very descriptive and lyrical, it really gives you an idea of what Imogen is thinking and feeling. There are several trigger warnings to help aware of, self harm, suicidal thoughts, sexual assault, and others, but I would highly recommend this book.
April 30, 2024
I was sent this book by the author and wow I’m so so grateful.. this book packed a punch. I felt so immersed in the main characters brain and felt like I really lived among her mental illnesses. The way it was written felt so real in that sense. This book contains heavy subject matter and it honestly broke my heart but in a necessary way. Read this book. It’s an important one.
April 9, 2024
The storyline pulled me in and provided a front row seat to the character’s perspectives and reactions to some tough and uninvited life situations. A sobering, eye-opening, thought-provoking read. Well-written.
June 13, 2024
I absolutely loved this book! While it is quite a heavy subject, I loved that it gave a good outlook on the reality surrounding the subject of mental health and abortion.
July 11, 2024
wow. beautifully written book and so heartbreaking. it saddens me how much i relate to sweet imogen but it also had me thinking in a different perspective.
July 20, 2024
most accurate depiction of suffering with mental illness everyday that i think i have ever read. period. the suffering is endless amen
September 10, 2024
Elysian Fields by Twila Gingerich is a tragically beautiful and heartbreaking novel that delves into the depths of mental health and the harsh realities of life. Following our main character, Imogen, we follow her internal struggles with mental health as it intersects with the external world.
This debut novel caught my attention quickly with its incredible writing and emotional intensity. Especially for being Twila’s first novel, this book showcases her skills in getting the reader attached to the characters on a deeply emotional level. The narrative was very intimate, giving glimpses into Imogen’s therapy sessions and inner dialogue. At times I found that the book almost read like a memoir, causing me to become closely attached to Imogen.
Please note, this novel deals with many heavy hitting topics. I urge you to check trigger warnings before you read it. With that being said, I highly recommend this book for those seeking a deeply resonant and thought-provoking read.
I’m excited to see where Twila’s writing career goes next. Thank you to the author for gifting me a copy of this beautiful book in exchange for my honest review. This is truly one I won’t be able to forget.
September 10, 2024
Elysian Fields is a debut novel by Twila Gingerich where we follow Imogen, a young woman living with a mental illness.
Trigger warnings: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, sexual assault, panic attacks
Imogen has spent most of her life isolated from her peers and deeply entrenched in her struggles. After years of therapy and medication, she finally finds a sense of stability and begins envisioning a more normal future, especially with her supportive boyfriend, Jesse. However, her world is turned upside down when she discovers she's unexpectedly pregnant. This news threatens her fragile mental health, forcing her to make difficult decisions about her future and well-being.
The novel depicts what it’s like to live with a mental illness SO WELL, actually one of the most accurate portrayals of suffering with a mental illness that I think I have ever read. I really wanted to give a hug to Imogen.
The writing is both descriptive and lyrical, using the symbolism of a sunrise at the start and a sunset at the end of the novel to add a thoughtful, thematic layer. Despite the lyrical quality, the writing remains raw and accessible, capturing our protagonist’s complex emotions with such clarity. The author’s ability to navigate and articulate complex emotions is truly impressive. Indeed, the heavy topics and conversations were handled with such care and deliberation, elegantly balancing themes of mental illness, motherhood, and the tumultuous path of personal growth.
Bonus: I felt that the therapy sessions Imogen had with her counselor Sonya quietly helped me too. They resonated in a way I didn’t expect.
Thank you to the author for sending me this gifted copy. As someone who has worked in mental health before, I found the portrayal profoundly impactful. I feel honored to have read it and will be eagerly looking out for her future work. All opinions are my own.
Trigger warnings: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, sexual assault, panic attacks
Imogen has spent most of her life isolated from her peers and deeply entrenched in her struggles. After years of therapy and medication, she finally finds a sense of stability and begins envisioning a more normal future, especially with her supportive boyfriend, Jesse. However, her world is turned upside down when she discovers she's unexpectedly pregnant. This news threatens her fragile mental health, forcing her to make difficult decisions about her future and well-being.
The novel depicts what it’s like to live with a mental illness SO WELL, actually one of the most accurate portrayals of suffering with a mental illness that I think I have ever read. I really wanted to give a hug to Imogen.
The writing is both descriptive and lyrical, using the symbolism of a sunrise at the start and a sunset at the end of the novel to add a thoughtful, thematic layer. Despite the lyrical quality, the writing remains raw and accessible, capturing our protagonist’s complex emotions with such clarity. The author’s ability to navigate and articulate complex emotions is truly impressive. Indeed, the heavy topics and conversations were handled with such care and deliberation, elegantly balancing themes of mental illness, motherhood, and the tumultuous path of personal growth.
Bonus: I felt that the therapy sessions Imogen had with her counselor Sonya quietly helped me too. They resonated in a way I didn’t expect.
Thank you to the author for sending me this gifted copy. As someone who has worked in mental health before, I found the portrayal profoundly impactful. I feel honored to have read it and will be eagerly looking out for her future work. All opinions are my own.
August 15, 2024
☆☆☆☆.7
imogen has been proactive in manufacturing some semblance of stability, frequently attending counselling sessions and being communicative with those around her, but once her counsellor suggests that she gets a blood test to figure out potential reasoning for her fatigue, it is revealed that imogen is pregnant.
the narrative falls into a voice of the mundane and the realistic. twila gingerichs’ debut novel ‘elysian fields’ unveils a raw account of living with mental health disorders, allowing the emotions to feel so tangible and creating a distinct empathy for imogen whilst also accepting her flaws. the realism that surrounds the lyrical and poetic narrative hooked me into this book, as the beautiful prose managed to put some of my unexplainable feelings into easily understood sentences. the narration features descriptions and analogies that show the difficulties of living with a mental health disorder - fighting to explain the unexplainable, and twila gingerich does this in a poetic manner that i adored.
this book also features a refrain of conflicting notions of the distortion of the current self in order to fit into societal expectations against a reminiscence and care for a younger self. the few references throughout the book to a childhood version of self, innocent, vulnerable, naive, emphasised the empathy that i felt for imogen and really accentuated her struggles. there also seemed to be a sense of retroactive understanding in reference to her childhood self (“‘i obsessively worried about whether i was bad or not - i was too young for those kinds of thoughts’”). in addition to this, i overall felt as though this aforementioned reminiscence and nostalgia presented growing up as simultaneously suffocating and freeing, developing the complexities of emotions that imogen is required to balance within her daily life.
one of my favourite aspects of this book was the consistent references to nature symbolism to reflect imogen’s mental health. the opening line of the book references the retreat of a sunrise (“the sun’s first appearance of the day. it glimmered ivory white near my feet for a moment, hesitated, and then withdrew, shutting itself up in the sky again”), initiating the exploration of how isolation and avoided it can feel to be mentally ill, almost as if you’re unapproachable by innocence. the book then concludes on a sunset, reflecting the conclusion of a story and closing the symbolic representations.
the only reason why my rating has lost a few points is regarding the pacing, as i found that it took a while to get into the true narrative, and the ending felt a little rushed. overall the pacing of the book was good, especially about two thirds in when i suddenly couldn’t put the book down.
imogen has been proactive in manufacturing some semblance of stability, frequently attending counselling sessions and being communicative with those around her, but once her counsellor suggests that she gets a blood test to figure out potential reasoning for her fatigue, it is revealed that imogen is pregnant.
the narrative falls into a voice of the mundane and the realistic. twila gingerichs’ debut novel ‘elysian fields’ unveils a raw account of living with mental health disorders, allowing the emotions to feel so tangible and creating a distinct empathy for imogen whilst also accepting her flaws. the realism that surrounds the lyrical and poetic narrative hooked me into this book, as the beautiful prose managed to put some of my unexplainable feelings into easily understood sentences. the narration features descriptions and analogies that show the difficulties of living with a mental health disorder - fighting to explain the unexplainable, and twila gingerich does this in a poetic manner that i adored.
this book also features a refrain of conflicting notions of the distortion of the current self in order to fit into societal expectations against a reminiscence and care for a younger self. the few references throughout the book to a childhood version of self, innocent, vulnerable, naive, emphasised the empathy that i felt for imogen and really accentuated her struggles. there also seemed to be a sense of retroactive understanding in reference to her childhood self (“‘i obsessively worried about whether i was bad or not - i was too young for those kinds of thoughts’”). in addition to this, i overall felt as though this aforementioned reminiscence and nostalgia presented growing up as simultaneously suffocating and freeing, developing the complexities of emotions that imogen is required to balance within her daily life.
one of my favourite aspects of this book was the consistent references to nature symbolism to reflect imogen’s mental health. the opening line of the book references the retreat of a sunrise (“the sun’s first appearance of the day. it glimmered ivory white near my feet for a moment, hesitated, and then withdrew, shutting itself up in the sky again”), initiating the exploration of how isolation and avoided it can feel to be mentally ill, almost as if you’re unapproachable by innocence. the book then concludes on a sunset, reflecting the conclusion of a story and closing the symbolic representations.
the only reason why my rating has lost a few points is regarding the pacing, as i found that it took a while to get into the true narrative, and the ending felt a little rushed. overall the pacing of the book was good, especially about two thirds in when i suddenly couldn’t put the book down.
March 10, 2024
“One question demanded to be asked, at all times, no matter the book: what did you hide between the lines, dear author?”
Thank you so much to the author for sending me an early copy of Elysian Fields, in exchange for a fair and honest review.
I was absolutely blown away by this debut novel. Mental illness is a topic that I find is difficult to do well in literature, and this is one of the few instances I’ve seen it done absolutely right. The writing style was incredibly accessible, while not losing any of its impact. With the themes on girlhood, growing up mentally ill, sexual assault, the inevitable decision of whether or not to become a mother, and relationships, these pages were packed with emotion and conveyed what I believe to be an incredibly important message. There were so many beautiful quotes that made me feel absolutely seen. Twila Gingerich is an author to watch, because this book was nothing short of profound.
The only reason this loses a star for me was because it was a bit slow to get in to. What I find a lot of debut authors (and certainly many published authors as well) struggle with is the ‘hook’ right at the beginning – the thing that makes the reader want to keep reading. It did pick up later on, but I feel like for a book that deals with such complex topics, there could have been a little more done to engage the reader.
Trigger warnings:
Thank you so much to the author for sending me an early copy of Elysian Fields, in exchange for a fair and honest review.
I was absolutely blown away by this debut novel. Mental illness is a topic that I find is difficult to do well in literature, and this is one of the few instances I’ve seen it done absolutely right. The writing style was incredibly accessible, while not losing any of its impact. With the themes on girlhood, growing up mentally ill, sexual assault, the inevitable decision of whether or not to become a mother, and relationships, these pages were packed with emotion and conveyed what I believe to be an incredibly important message. There were so many beautiful quotes that made me feel absolutely seen. Twila Gingerich is an author to watch, because this book was nothing short of profound.
The only reason this loses a star for me was because it was a bit slow to get in to. What I find a lot of debut authors (and certainly many published authors as well) struggle with is the ‘hook’ right at the beginning – the thing that makes the reader want to keep reading. It did pick up later on, but I feel like for a book that deals with such complex topics, there could have been a little more done to engage the reader.
Trigger warnings:
June 14, 2024
3.75/5
First of all, I’d like to thank the author for sending me a copy of this book.
Please, keep in mind that this book touched on VERY heavy topics that might be sensitive to some.
I have to say I had my concerns before starting this story because I do not usually enjoy books that focus mostly on topics such as mental health. Not because I don’t find them interesting, but because I find it easy to empathize with characters, and that implies having a hard time finishing this kind of stories.
This one was no different in that aspect. The main character is so easy to empathize with, but that doesn’t exempt us from noticing her flaws. I wanted to give her a hug, I was heartbroken for her.
The writing was my favorite thing about this book. The author conveys emotions so well. The descriptions and analogies were beautiful. Her ability to reflect on complex emotions and thoughts is remarkable. The heavy topics and conversations were treated with care and time, and trust me when I say it’s noticeable.
If there’s one thing that pulled me back from the story was the lack of an event to look forward to. Although I liked the diary-like style of the story, I would’ve liked an event or point that helped the reader to know which path the book was following.
Overall, I’d be very interested in reading more of Twila Gingerich’s work
First of all, I’d like to thank the author for sending me a copy of this book.
Please, keep in mind that this book touched on VERY heavy topics that might be sensitive to some.
I have to say I had my concerns before starting this story because I do not usually enjoy books that focus mostly on topics such as mental health. Not because I don’t find them interesting, but because I find it easy to empathize with characters, and that implies having a hard time finishing this kind of stories.
This one was no different in that aspect. The main character is so easy to empathize with, but that doesn’t exempt us from noticing her flaws. I wanted to give her a hug, I was heartbroken for her.
The writing was my favorite thing about this book. The author conveys emotions so well. The descriptions and analogies were beautiful. Her ability to reflect on complex emotions and thoughts is remarkable. The heavy topics and conversations were treated with care and time, and trust me when I say it’s noticeable.
If there’s one thing that pulled me back from the story was the lack of an event to look forward to. Although I liked the diary-like style of the story, I would’ve liked an event or point that helped the reader to know which path the book was following.
Overall, I’d be very interested in reading more of Twila Gingerich’s work
October 5, 2024
Thank you to the author for gifting me a copy in exchange for an honest review.
Elysian Fields is a very promising debut from a new voice. Twila’s writing was so good! The fact that it’s only her debut is so hard to believe.
I liked the story on itself, although it kinda felt like the scenes and chapters weren’t in the correct order. It sometimes felt like moments were all over the place. For me the ending was also a bit rushed compared to the slow and steady pace of the rest of the book. It feels as though we kind of skimmed over the end?
The mental health rep was good, but I’d say there’s still some room for improvement and nuance in my opinion.
Overall I did like this one and am excited to see what this author comes up with next!
Elysian Fields is a very promising debut from a new voice. Twila’s writing was so good! The fact that it’s only her debut is so hard to believe.
I liked the story on itself, although it kinda felt like the scenes and chapters weren’t in the correct order. It sometimes felt like moments were all over the place. For me the ending was also a bit rushed compared to the slow and steady pace of the rest of the book. It feels as though we kind of skimmed over the end?
The mental health rep was good, but I’d say there’s still some room for improvement and nuance in my opinion.
Overall I did like this one and am excited to see what this author comes up with next!
May 1, 2024
This is one of the best books I’ve read in a while. It’s so raw and addicting that I couldn’t put it down.
August 8, 2024
wow, what a debut. It’s hard to find the words to properly encapsulate this book. It’s raw and gutting, it takes you inside the mind of one living with crippling mental illness. You feel her anxiety, you feel her pain, and when an unexpected pregnancy comes, you feel her inner turmoil. This is not an easy read, but gosh it feels like an important one. This story is about more than just Imogen, it’s about women everywhere and their own stories, their own circumstances- whatever they may be when something like unplanned pregnancy arises and the choices they must make, that they deserve to make, when moving forward.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
October 18, 2024
4.5 stars
This book is one of the most real and raw portrayals of someone living with a mental illness. We follow Imogen who has struggled with debilitating anxiety and OCD and suicidal thoughts for as long as she can remember, she is letting life just carry her along while trying to manage them. When an unexpected event threatens to unravel all the therapy and hard work she’s put in just to keep her head above water we see Imogen struggle to keep the water from submerging her.
“But I did not know how to think less. My mind was a violently disobedient child, overactive when it should be still, hypersensitive when it should remain calm. I needed eternal distraction. I read and invested in the plight of others. Memoirs were holy testaments. I consumed them as a necessity as air, as
love.”
I adored Imogen and wanted the best for her at all times, she is deeply relatable to anyone who has struggled in any way with their mental health. It was heartbreaking to read her struggles and I could feel her thoughts viscerally through the pages, but there was always a glimmer of hope as Imogen was always seeking help and support even in times when she didn’t feel like she was.
The chapters with the therapist were my favourite and very healing to read someone receive the gentleness and understanding that should be available to all.
"Because when I think about that question, I am asking myself if I would live through what I have already lived through yet again, even if I knew that tomorrow would be the beginning of paradise. And the answer is no, never. I don't want to feel what I have felt ever again and saying that it would be worth it would be like discrediting my past self and all the torment she's been through?”
I found it hard to read but also super realistic that people in Imogen’s life aren’t as supportive as she needed. It felt very true to life that when you’re mentally ill you have to learn the hard way not everyone is going to even try to understand in the way we are told they will when we ask for help. I enjoyed (maybe not the right word) seeing that portrayed in a book about mental health as it felt more true to life than everyone being someone that will “save” you.
“Fear had the minimal decency to only dissolve, into the brain, one or two fears at a time. Panic attacks were twenty or thirty fears imploding in the mind. Psychological repression set in immediately after the panic subsided. The fear turned otherworldly and obscure like a dream you couldn't remember as soon as you woke up.”
My only small negatives would be I wish we saw more of her best friend being supportive instead of just being told she was and I wish it was slightly longer just to have the end not feel as quick. But overall I loved this book and it will stick with me forever.
(Also no spoilers but Twila may have written one of my most hated male characters ever and thats a talent because there are a lot)
“Fix it, said a voice that had hissed at me from the pit of snakes. Fix yourself.
Pleasant faces were picked up like masks and sicklv-sweet smiles were cast in one's direction for the opening act as the orchestra played an inviting melody. People were there to talk and listen for a little while. And then the lights would dim until only you stood illuminated in a circle of light. You would be blinded momentarily and disoriented until you blinked your eyes like a newborn baby and saw the masks on the floor and the real Faces of the people distort and shrink back into nothing. And the hiss of snake-voices remained.”
Thankyou so much to the author for sending me her book in exchange for an honest review.
and check TW’s before reading xx
This book is one of the most real and raw portrayals of someone living with a mental illness. We follow Imogen who has struggled with debilitating anxiety and OCD and suicidal thoughts for as long as she can remember, she is letting life just carry her along while trying to manage them. When an unexpected event threatens to unravel all the therapy and hard work she’s put in just to keep her head above water we see Imogen struggle to keep the water from submerging her.
“But I did not know how to think less. My mind was a violently disobedient child, overactive when it should be still, hypersensitive when it should remain calm. I needed eternal distraction. I read and invested in the plight of others. Memoirs were holy testaments. I consumed them as a necessity as air, as
love.”
I adored Imogen and wanted the best for her at all times, she is deeply relatable to anyone who has struggled in any way with their mental health. It was heartbreaking to read her struggles and I could feel her thoughts viscerally through the pages, but there was always a glimmer of hope as Imogen was always seeking help and support even in times when she didn’t feel like she was.
The chapters with the therapist were my favourite and very healing to read someone receive the gentleness and understanding that should be available to all.
"Because when I think about that question, I am asking myself if I would live through what I have already lived through yet again, even if I knew that tomorrow would be the beginning of paradise. And the answer is no, never. I don't want to feel what I have felt ever again and saying that it would be worth it would be like discrediting my past self and all the torment she's been through?”
I found it hard to read but also super realistic that people in Imogen’s life aren’t as supportive as she needed. It felt very true to life that when you’re mentally ill you have to learn the hard way not everyone is going to even try to understand in the way we are told they will when we ask for help. I enjoyed (maybe not the right word) seeing that portrayed in a book about mental health as it felt more true to life than everyone being someone that will “save” you.
“Fear had the minimal decency to only dissolve, into the brain, one or two fears at a time. Panic attacks were twenty or thirty fears imploding in the mind. Psychological repression set in immediately after the panic subsided. The fear turned otherworldly and obscure like a dream you couldn't remember as soon as you woke up.”
My only small negatives would be I wish we saw more of her best friend being supportive instead of just being told she was and I wish it was slightly longer just to have the end not feel as quick. But overall I loved this book and it will stick with me forever.
(Also no spoilers but Twila may have written one of my most hated male characters ever and thats a talent because there are a lot)
“Fix it, said a voice that had hissed at me from the pit of snakes. Fix yourself.
Pleasant faces were picked up like masks and sicklv-sweet smiles were cast in one's direction for the opening act as the orchestra played an inviting melody. People were there to talk and listen for a little while. And then the lights would dim until only you stood illuminated in a circle of light. You would be blinded momentarily and disoriented until you blinked your eyes like a newborn baby and saw the masks on the floor and the real Faces of the people distort and shrink back into nothing. And the hiss of snake-voices remained.”
Thankyou so much to the author for sending me her book in exchange for an honest review.
and check TW’s before reading xx
May 12, 2024
TW: graphic: self harm. moderate: sexual assault, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts.
so grateful to have been sent this book! what a thought provoking depiction of mental illness and pregnancy. i loved how much resilience the MC displayed. this book feels very important in light of recent abortion bans. beautiful writing.
so grateful to have been sent this book! what a thought provoking depiction of mental illness and pregnancy. i loved how much resilience the MC displayed. this book feels very important in light of recent abortion bans. beautiful writing.
May 1, 2024
Elysian Fields by Twila Gingerich
Big thanks to the author for sending me a copy 🫶🏼
Imogen has been grappling with her mental health for quite some time. Due to the challenges posed by her mental illness, Imogen has spent more time getting to know doctors and counsellors than going out with friends. When she receives news of an unexpected pregnancy, which threatens the delicate balance of her mental health, Imogen is forced to confront whether she is capable of assuming the role of a mother while simultaneously battling her inner demons.
TW: self-harm, sexual assault, rape, thoughts of suicide, suicide, death, grief.
At first, I found the writing style a bit challenging to get used to—it’s very beautiful, but it took me a moment to adjust. However, once I got into the rhythm of the narration and the plot picked up, I found myself completely absorbed. Many quotes and passages deeply resonated with me, creating a strong sense of connection.
My favourite part of the book is how it handles mental health, emphasizing the importance of counselling, family support, and an individual’s inner strength and resilience. I was intrigued throughout, eager to see where Imogen’s decisions would take her, particularly her quiet determination to embrace life.
Imogen’s story, raw and emotionally charged, explores mental health, sexual assault, uncertainty about motherhood, and family dynamics, weaving them into a captivating narrative that I found incredibly moving. It offers an important perspective on mental illness and its intersection with other challenges in today’s society.
I grew to really enjoy the author’s writing style, which made complex topics easy to understand for someone like me, who isn’t an expert in this area. Beyond being engaging and thought-provoking, the story expanded my understanding and challenged my perspectives. It struck a perfect balance between storytelling and providing information.
There is such a distinct voice that the author utilizes and it’s clear in the strength and fluidity of their writing. I truly fell in love with their storytelling and I am very excited to see more from them. Such a captivating debut!
Rated a 4 ⭐️
Big thanks to the author for sending me a copy 🫶🏼
Imogen has been grappling with her mental health for quite some time. Due to the challenges posed by her mental illness, Imogen has spent more time getting to know doctors and counsellors than going out with friends. When she receives news of an unexpected pregnancy, which threatens the delicate balance of her mental health, Imogen is forced to confront whether she is capable of assuming the role of a mother while simultaneously battling her inner demons.
TW: self-harm, sexual assault, rape, thoughts of suicide, suicide, death, grief.
At first, I found the writing style a bit challenging to get used to—it’s very beautiful, but it took me a moment to adjust. However, once I got into the rhythm of the narration and the plot picked up, I found myself completely absorbed. Many quotes and passages deeply resonated with me, creating a strong sense of connection.
My favourite part of the book is how it handles mental health, emphasizing the importance of counselling, family support, and an individual’s inner strength and resilience. I was intrigued throughout, eager to see where Imogen’s decisions would take her, particularly her quiet determination to embrace life.
Imogen’s story, raw and emotionally charged, explores mental health, sexual assault, uncertainty about motherhood, and family dynamics, weaving them into a captivating narrative that I found incredibly moving. It offers an important perspective on mental illness and its intersection with other challenges in today’s society.
I grew to really enjoy the author’s writing style, which made complex topics easy to understand for someone like me, who isn’t an expert in this area. Beyond being engaging and thought-provoking, the story expanded my understanding and challenged my perspectives. It struck a perfect balance between storytelling and providing information.
There is such a distinct voice that the author utilizes and it’s clear in the strength and fluidity of their writing. I truly fell in love with their storytelling and I am very excited to see more from them. Such a captivating debut!
Rated a 4 ⭐️
May 11, 2025
I was offered a copy of this book by the author in exchange for an honest review, and as soon as I was presented with the synopsis, I knew it was a story I wanted to hear.
Elysian Fields tells the story of Imogen, a 24-year-old university student who has struggled with her mental illness for years. She is finally starting to see things look up for her on the cusp of graduation, when an unwanted pregnancy comes and shatters everything she has been working towards, comprising the medication she depends on in her day-to-day life.
This story was extremely important, especially with all the discussions and politics surrounding the bodies of those who can become pregnant.
Gingerich approaches the feelings and struggles of the main character in such an honest and raw manner, it was easily my favourite part of the story. I truly felt for Imogen as we watched her navigate through this scary and unpredictable journey.
I do feel as though, while the writing was very lovely at times, it ventured into the realm of “trying to be quotable” and it honestly lost me at times. Additionally, there was quite a bit of repetition at times, with the description of certain thoughts, feelings and actions, which could be fixed with a bit of editing.
The twist and big reveal at the end were a little predictable with how the author set it up, but that did not take away from the emotional impact it had. I was truly feelings for Imogen during her discovery and just wanted to give her a hug. Also, the ending felt a little short and rushed. I thought things were going in one direction, but it took a sharp left into another direction and then just halted all together.
I would highly recommend looking into the trigger warnings before picking up this book, but definitely giving it a try of your own if it’s a story you also want to hear.
Elysian Fields tells the story of Imogen, a 24-year-old university student who has struggled with her mental illness for years. She is finally starting to see things look up for her on the cusp of graduation, when an unwanted pregnancy comes and shatters everything she has been working towards, comprising the medication she depends on in her day-to-day life.
This story was extremely important, especially with all the discussions and politics surrounding the bodies of those who can become pregnant.
Gingerich approaches the feelings and struggles of the main character in such an honest and raw manner, it was easily my favourite part of the story. I truly felt for Imogen as we watched her navigate through this scary and unpredictable journey.
I do feel as though, while the writing was very lovely at times, it ventured into the realm of “trying to be quotable” and it honestly lost me at times. Additionally, there was quite a bit of repetition at times, with the description of certain thoughts, feelings and actions, which could be fixed with a bit of editing.
The twist and big reveal at the end were a little predictable with how the author set it up, but that did not take away from the emotional impact it had. I was truly feelings for Imogen during her discovery and just wanted to give her a hug. Also, the ending felt a little short and rushed. I thought things were going in one direction, but it took a sharp left into another direction and then just halted all together.
I would highly recommend looking into the trigger warnings before picking up this book, but definitely giving it a try of your own if it’s a story you also want to hear.
May 25, 2024
What a beautifully written and desperately sad book about mental health. The author kindly sent me the book in exchange for an honest review and I’m so glad she did because I’m so glad I could get it on my radar!
Please check the trigger warnings for this because there are A LOT, and you really need to be in the right mindset to read this. But if you’re prepared, it really is a worthwhile story about a woman trying to claw herself out of her own mental spiral.
The only reason it loses a star for me is I felt like the pacing lagged in some parts but otherwise I really liked it!
Please check the trigger warnings for this because there are A LOT, and you really need to be in the right mindset to read this. But if you’re prepared, it really is a worthwhile story about a woman trying to claw herself out of her own mental spiral.
The only reason it loses a star for me is I felt like the pacing lagged in some parts but otherwise I really liked it!
September 14, 2024
“𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘸 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘧𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵; 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘣𝘴, 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘤𝘰𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘰𝘯.”
𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰:
Elysian Fields is an incredibly heartbreaking novel that follows the life of Imogen, who receives life-changing news while already trying to balance both her precarious mental health and being on the verge of graduating from university. The writing is poetic and vulnerable and explores the intricacies of mental health disorders tremendously well, in particular, OCD, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It offers a realistic and honest portrayal of how dealing with mental health isn’t a linear journey. It beautifully contrasts the whirlwind of conflicting thoughts and having to make decisions while knowing societal expectations - even if society itself can't sometimes agree on the correct path and what is right for someone clashes with the views of their loved ones.
I particularly enjoyed the therapy sessions. Even if Imogen couldn't see her growth, her resilience and strength were admirable: “You have to be determined to lead yourself to safety, you have to hope your body would follow." Imogen’s journey of asking for help and the willingness to help herself is a far greater achievement than Imogen realises.
The novel is slow-paced and very character-driven. Although this works well for the most part, the ending was abrupt and disrupted the pacing, and some of the dialogue felt slightly awkward. I also wish there was a deeper exploration of the contrast and coexistence of grief and relief, especially given the complexity of the topic and because it was introduced in such a fascinating way.
TW: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of previous suicide attempt, descriptions of panic attacks, mentions of SA, mentions of pregnancy and possibilities of abortion, infant death
[thank you to Twila Gingerich for sending me a copy in exchange for an honest review]
𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰:
Elysian Fields is an incredibly heartbreaking novel that follows the life of Imogen, who receives life-changing news while already trying to balance both her precarious mental health and being on the verge of graduating from university. The writing is poetic and vulnerable and explores the intricacies of mental health disorders tremendously well, in particular, OCD, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It offers a realistic and honest portrayal of how dealing with mental health isn’t a linear journey. It beautifully contrasts the whirlwind of conflicting thoughts and having to make decisions while knowing societal expectations - even if society itself can't sometimes agree on the correct path and what is right for someone clashes with the views of their loved ones.
I particularly enjoyed the therapy sessions. Even if Imogen couldn't see her growth, her resilience and strength were admirable: “You have to be determined to lead yourself to safety, you have to hope your body would follow." Imogen’s journey of asking for help and the willingness to help herself is a far greater achievement than Imogen realises.
The novel is slow-paced and very character-driven. Although this works well for the most part, the ending was abrupt and disrupted the pacing, and some of the dialogue felt slightly awkward. I also wish there was a deeper exploration of the contrast and coexistence of grief and relief, especially given the complexity of the topic and because it was introduced in such a fascinating way.
TW: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of previous suicide attempt, descriptions of panic attacks, mentions of SA, mentions of pregnancy and possibilities of abortion, infant death
[thank you to Twila Gingerich for sending me a copy in exchange for an honest review]
February 12, 2025
Beautiful, heartbreaking, and raw, that's Elysian Fields for you.
This is not your usual narrative, as the story of Imogen explores something both vital and often overlooked. Mental health and the struggles one faces have often been romanticized. Many portrayals suggest that therapy and a great support system are all one needs to overcome these challenges. However, that's not always the truth, is it?
Following Imogen's journey was an emotional ride. I deeply appreciated her self-awareness; she acknowledged her problems, and she was determined to survive by building a routine that worked for her. Asking for help is no simple task. Bearing one's scars and showing them to those around you takes immense courage. Imogen’s effort to survive adds complexity and strength to her story.
The second half of the book, when Imogen’s routine is disrupted and she faces new challenges, was absolutely heartbreaking. I couldn’t help but root for her; I wanted her to survive no matter what. Her parents frustrated me because Imogen’s well-being should have been prioritized. Her need to live authentically, even if that meant choosing herself first, was crucial. I loved how this part of the story developed, showing the importance of self-preservation and autonomy. Even though she had to consider her parents and their thoughts, I still believe Imogen made the decision that was for her.
Twila Gingerich's writing is undeniably beautiful. Beginning the story with a sunrise and ending it with a sunset brought everything full circle, symbolically reinforcing the narrative’s journey. The author handled this important story with sensitivity.
I would definitely recommend checking the trigger warnings for this book, as it delves into heavy and sensitive topics. However, I also believe it’s a story worth reading; one that feels real and leaves an indelible mark on your heart.
This is not your usual narrative, as the story of Imogen explores something both vital and often overlooked. Mental health and the struggles one faces have often been romanticized. Many portrayals suggest that therapy and a great support system are all one needs to overcome these challenges. However, that's not always the truth, is it?
Following Imogen's journey was an emotional ride. I deeply appreciated her self-awareness; she acknowledged her problems, and she was determined to survive by building a routine that worked for her. Asking for help is no simple task. Bearing one's scars and showing them to those around you takes immense courage. Imogen’s effort to survive adds complexity and strength to her story.
The second half of the book, when Imogen’s routine is disrupted and she faces new challenges, was absolutely heartbreaking. I couldn’t help but root for her; I wanted her to survive no matter what. Her parents frustrated me because Imogen’s well-being should have been prioritized. Her need to live authentically, even if that meant choosing herself first, was crucial. I loved how this part of the story developed, showing the importance of self-preservation and autonomy. Even though she had to consider her parents and their thoughts, I still believe Imogen made the decision that was for her.
Twila Gingerich's writing is undeniably beautiful. Beginning the story with a sunrise and ending it with a sunset brought everything full circle, symbolically reinforcing the narrative’s journey. The author handled this important story with sensitivity.
I would definitely recommend checking the trigger warnings for this book, as it delves into heavy and sensitive topics. However, I also believe it’s a story worth reading; one that feels real and leaves an indelible mark on your heart.
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