Life proves to be too much for Lyndsey in an increasingly broken family household. To gain solace, she gives herself to what makes her feel better, be it alcohol or drugs. As the years go on, so does her addictions, which eventually control her and the way she lives.
(I received this book for my honest review. Many thanks to Lorelie Rozzano. Please be aware that this review may contain spoilers before reading further.)
I've never read a book quite like this one before and it made me think a lot about the topic of addiction in general. It’s all around us, isn't it? Nicotine, caffeine, alcohol and of course the illegal substances essentially make us feel better, one way or the other, but whilst they can be a quick and short-term fix, they certainly aren't a cure. Admittedly the only weakness I have is coffee, but when times get rough and life becomes unbelievably hard, the thought of something that can make it all go away is ridiculously tempting. It's those very thoughts that are dangerous to everyone. I'll just try it, once. But it rarely works that way and the consequences can ruin.
It’s tragic that life can push us to make the wrong decisions. With Lyndsey, her broken home eroded her spirit and her love, leaving her a shell, but most unfortunately a slave to her addictions. It was terribly sad her journey to adulthood inflicted so much pain upon her. Often I wanted to reach into the page and help her, but alas, all I could do was be a silent witness to her misery.
This isn't a feel-good book; therefore it was quite a challenge to read at times. It was dark and powerful entwined with some utterly fantastic descriptions regarding Lyndsey’s feelings, thoughts and experiences; however most of the writing remained overly straightforward and somewhat bland for my usual tastes. In the beginning, the constant use of the term ‘him’, when referring to her boyfriend continuously irritated me, even though I understood the point of it. It’s not that I was annoyed to never know his name; it was merely the wording that pushed a wrong button – simply something I couldn't help. Truthfully I can get bothered very easily with books, which leads me to nit-pick certain things. Even Lyndsey’s selfish behaviour annoyed me in the end and I began to dislike her, whereas I initially respected her.
Divided into three parts, the book spans over ten years, or so I believe, it wasn't necessarily clear. There’s less dialogue in the first two segments, but it definitely makes up for it in the final. The dialogue itself seemed a tad off, perhaps a little too fake. I just found it difficult to imagine the characters saying the things they did. As for the characters themselves, there were many to dislike and none to particularly feel attached to. I regularly wondered what happened to certain people, such as Dee and him, but I never found out, unfortunately.
Nevertheless the concept was interesting as well as eye-opening; reflecting the suffering of addicts and how they think and when more is never enough. The fact that it's based off of the authors own experiences is fascinating and it's apparent Lorelie is a beacon of strength and hope as she strives to help people shackled to their addictions.
© Red Lace 2013