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“Bald Head Island”

I hope that’s made up

“Gag me. Now. With a spoon. A serrated spoon. No! A spork.”

😧

“I want words. Moldable, buildable, powerful. Emotion evoking.”

“The guy is too good looking for words, even in a room full of creative writing students. Could any of us properly describe him? I cannot. There’s something about him, an essence, that holds him apart from the rest of us…
It’s not a social glow, because he’s not particularly friendly. Strangers don’t gravitate toward him, attracted by an unnamable quality.
Except for me. I’m the stranger, attracted.”

“Who knew writing a story could feel this good? Like releasing a caged exotic bird, and watching it fly to freedom. All these words, inside me for days and months and years, and now here they are, on paper and tucked in my backpack.
Nobody of importance will read them, but that was never the point.
Their release was the point.”

I AM SO DONE WITH THIS

What is even happening?

HOW IS THERE STILL MORE

"I don't understand, this is ludicrous..."

THIS?

I think she is mistaken, and she meant to say 'I am ludicrous'...

I will not start a new book before this one is over
I will sit and read this till I am done
I will not get distracted

This must happen as I wrote about it on GR

Dude, it was going well - don't ruin it now

I didn't know 'only one shower' was a thing but am not complaining 🤭

"It didn't feel like much of a life until I met you"

"I can't deny how ready I am to be done with all of this, I'm tired..."

ME TOO BABE

The way it gave me scraps of answers and yet I'm still reading is truly baffling

“I don’t deserve a Bonded. I don’t deserve someone fated to be with me, to love me, to want what’s best for me and to build a life with me. I’ll never be able to fully give myself to someone that same way, and no one should have to be saddled with my levels of broken and dirty and savage.”

😭

Might finally be leveling up the pacing? 🤞

"Parallel parking is 90% believe you can do it"

I feel called out

“Please just do this for me. I never ask any of you for anything.”

"Whether it was love or duty that kept me shackled here, the lines were too blurred to differentiate, but one thing I was sure of was that I would never become to them what Darren had become to me. I would never abandon them. If I could do nothing else, I would spare them that pain."

💔

“You were like an island. Somewhere for me to go and escape. Somewhere safe. Someone to anchor me, if that even makes sense...”

“Listen, I want you to know something,” he said quietly, clenching my hip with his hand. “I want you to know that you’ve been the best part of my day every day since I was twelve years old.”

“Pain,” he roared into my face, eyes alight with temper as his shadow danced with his demons. “On the outside. On the inside. All around me. Pain so fucking strong I’m drowning in it!” .... “That’s what I feel. That’s all I feel. All the fucking time!”

THIS HURTS

“I don’t run, remember?” I shot back, reaching across the table with my palm up. “And neither do you.” Joey stared at my outstretched hand for a long moment before placing his on top of it and entwining our fingers. “I guess we’re both too stubborn for running, huh, Molloy?” “Or too in love.” “Yeah,” he agreed, tone gruff, as he pressed a kiss to the back of my hand. “Or that.”

“What’s it like?” “What’s what like, Shan?” “Being in love.” She sighed, resting her chin on her small hand, thoroughly invested in the conversation now. “What does it feel like?”

“Don’t hate me, Molloy,” Joey mumbled, falling into the passenger seat the moment I let him go to open the car door. “You’re all I have to wake up for in the morning.”

“I took a chance on that boy, and I’m glad that I did because the man that small boy turned into is a man who I am damn proud of.”

“Because the only time that I allow myself to feel anything is when I’m with you.”

"When we were together, it wasn’t because I was out of my mind and trying to float away in the moment. Being with her made me want to keep a clear head because I wanted to remember her. I wanted to be in the moment with her and not just float through it. Because she was Molloy. My friend. Maybe even my best friend."

I can't 🥺