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“A wall is only as strong as the men who stand behind it.”

“Night ended, morning came, and as I looked out on the blueness spreading into the corners of the sky, I thought about what Mitsutsuka had told me, about all the light that was there and yet impossible to see. I worked all day until the twilight snuck up on me, another day like all the others turning into night.”

i’m so freaking excited to read this

“When I start to feel emotional about something, I can’t tell if I’m actually feeling that way. What if it’s just something somebody wrote in a book? Or maybe a line or a performance from some movie . . . Either way, I get this feeling like I’m quoting somebody else’s work.”

“I thought about the books that I had looked through in the bookstore. It occurred to me that they were full of things that people wanted to say to other people, or things people wanted somebody to say to them.”

“Floating in the tide of summer washing over us were signs and streetlights, lights from cars and countless other lights, but the light coming from Mitsutsuka’s shirt was foreign to the summer night.”

“It’s like they say, trust is a two-way street. Reliance can be one-sided, though. Know what I mean? One side depends on the other. That’s not a partnership. And that’s why relationships based on reliance are pretty unstable. One little hiccup and everything could disappear.”

“All of a sudden I see a sort of admiration return to his face, but it’s a painful admiration; what he likes about me is also what keeps me separate from him.”

“he sees me in a certain way, a way he will never deviate from. In the end, love was only possible because he saw me not as who I was, but as the person I would become.”

Why me?
He says: Because you are not like all the others, because I don’t see anyone but you and you don’t even realize it.

“This feeling of love, it transports me, it makes me happy. At the same time, it consumes me and makes me miserable, the way all impossible loves are miserable.”

“I don't know then that one day I won't be seventeen. I don't know that youth doesn't last, that it's only a moment, and then it disappears and by the time you finally realize it, it's too late. It's finished, vanished, lost.”

off to a devastating start 😄😄😄

"It's stupid of you to let me go."
"Some people have been saying it was stupid of me to keep you alive at all. I guess I'm a stupid man."

"Fuck you," I managed.
"You wish I would."

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