Status Updates From Notes on an Execution

"pity—you have always believed that pity is the most offensive of feelings.
Pity is destruction wearing a mask of sympathy. Pity strips you bare. Pity
shrinks."

Finished a car that made me cry to start this one that ALREADY MAKES ME CRY

the dread is kind of unbearable

id finish this faster if it wasnt my bedtime nook book (i only read it right before bed when im so so so so tired)

so freakin good

I was liking it fine until 17% mark but honestly not a fan of the path this book is taking rn . like oh he is dark brooding and mysterious and every girl around him is inexplicablly in love with him .🙄 i really hope I'm wrong about the kind of book this is gonna be ,i really want to like the book .

What is going on with Ansel? His execution date. Blue is going. There’s nothing you can do Ansel. Pay attention. Go Blue. It’s been 29 years…

Live in this reality.

Hazel found a box in the dirt! A bracelet is in the box? She’s on her own now. Ansel is in custody. Hazel found Saffy. The ring connected Ansel to the girls! They got him! Get him to talk. He’s in the confession room. He just killed when he wanted to. He’s talking! He doesn’t know why he killed them!

Ansel killed Jenny!

Your stalking scares me. He wanted to love her

Is Ansel living a double life? Wouldn’t surprise me. What do you want Saffy? Violence always leaves a fingerprint. Her dad’s dead. Lawson’s dead. Trying has got to count for something.

They’re piecing him together.

Saffy is trying to learn about Ansel. You have to process your childhood. Found him at a diner. He was sitting with a girl. I don’t have a good feeling.

Saffy is going to check up on Ansel or something.

The wait to the end sucks. What is his theory? Blue Harrison might be his brother! It is!

Go Jenny! Screw him! I don’t think that’s ridiculous. Jenny, you should take this seriously. Hazel, you’re doing it.

exciting!

He saw the execution room. The waiting is the point. The system is FUCKED. Tina sucks. He knew how to make them feel useful, oh no.

Who is Chyrl? It’s Lavender’s son’s adopted mother. Oh Ansel.

“There was a fact about life that Saffy hated, then: how it took the bad things and settled them inside you. It didn’t matter that you were a person, and it didn’t matter what you wanted. The bad lived insistently in your blood, a part of you always, calling out like a magnet to the horror of the world.”

Lavender is Packer’s mom. Was the mom always named Lavender? I don’t think so.

Lavender is going to San Francisco! Communes up the coast,

I don’t think killing is going to give you release.

Wow, this is… heavy. Nauseating

DNF’ed

She found a witness, or something. The name! Be careful with Ansel.she went to a trailer park… I’m freaked out. Jenny? She has Lila’s ring. Ansel and Jenny are engaged.

Saffy is a police officer. They found a backpack.

this pov is funkyyyy

Why are you killing people? Ansel, that’s freaky.