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Fauzy + Whit : Re-Re-Re-Remix <3
TroyI know the feeling.
MyChemicalSandwich: yeah, same here. :/ stupid jocks.
MyChemicalSandwich: so, tell me when you start back. because i'll probably be already dead from self-pity and loneliness. xD
NatActivateMyHeart: hey. :/ don't say that.
ActivateMyHeart: i mean, i know you're just joking but...
I sigh.
TroyAnother smile spread across my face. She's so adorable.
MyChemicalSandwich: i know, i know. but it's just how i feel.
MyChemicalSandwich: maybe i'll feel better once you're there. :)
NatHe's being surprisingly sweet. I almost blush. Almost.
ActivateMyHeart: hopefully we'll be going back there on the same day so we're even. :D
ActivateMyHeart: but most of all, hopefully that day isn't soon.
ActivateMyHeart: but i WOULD like to see you again ^^ just so i'm not all by my lonesome in here. i only have Ralph.
ActivateMyHeart: he's my stuffed monkey, btw.
I can't believe I told him about Ralph. Only my mom and Kia knew about him.
TroyI let my smile grow wider at the mention of her stuffed monkey. My eyes glanced over at my seventeen year old small stuffed bear.
MyChemicalSandwich: i would love that. :)
MyChemicalSandwich: would you like to have dinner this weekend? it won't be anything special, because of our parents. *insert scared emoticon*
MyChemicalSandwich: and it's alright, i have a stuffed bear named Vince. ;P he's oooold.
NatI giggle at the fact that he has a stuffed animal buddy of his own, and then my eyes go wide when he asks if we could have dinner together. Surely he isn't asking me on a date, right?
ActivateMyHeart: you mean like...out? or at your house or at my house or something? o_o
TroyI almost felt stupid for asking the question so bluntly.
MyChemicalSandwich: well, i was thinking that. D:
MyChemicalSandwich: or are you wanting to go out? i'm down with both.
NatActivateMyHeart: well, at any other time, i would definitely want to go out, but...i think i'd wanna be home for a while.
ActivateMyHeart: it could just be a nice, family-with-family dinner. i'm sure my parents would love to have you here. :]
TroyMyChemicalSandwich: yeah, i totally understand.
MyChemicalSandwich: sounds fine with me. :) get to know one another better as well.
NatActivateMyHeart: ^^ can't wait~
I stare at the screen for a while, not knowing what else to talk about. I kind of hope that if I couldn't start another conversation, he would, just so neither of us would have to log off.
TroyMyChemicalSandwich: me either. :D
My mind whirled around a little, looking for new topics of conversation to start up. But I found none, and it made me a bit depressed to stop talking to her.
MyChemicalSandwich: well i'll see you then. :) goodnight, Nattie.
Then I logged off.
NatI didn't even get a chance to reply. Jeez, was he that eager to get away from me? I sigh and turn off my laptop, closing it and putting it back on my nightstand. Then I slide down and pull my blankets up, holding Ralph close to me and waiting for sleep to come.
TroyMy neck began to hurt to much that I think I passed out from trying to find a comfortable position on my bed. When sleep did reach it's way into my conscious, I dreamed of the wreck.
NatI wake up in the middle of the night because my legs are throbbing so badly. Pain pills. I need to take the pain pills. I glance at my night stand and see that they're already there, along with a glass of water, and I sag with relief. Mom must have put them there when I was asleep. I reach over and pop the pill into my mouth, then swallowed it down with water. I don't know if these pills will work very well, but all I can do is hope. I'm not sure I can sleep anymore though, so I reach for my laptop and turn it on again, deciding to go watch some YouTube vids until I get sleepy again. That is, if I ever get sleepy again.
TroyI woke up with a startled gasp, seeing headlights in my vision. I realized that they were coming through the blinds of my bedroom window. Probably my dad coming home from a late night at work. As usual. I sighed and slowly sat up. My neck was stiff and hurting, as I tried to massage the back of my skull. It felt like there was a bump there, probably from where I'd hit my head in the crash. I grabbed two of the pain pills from the bottle on my nightstand, and downed them with water.
NatThe days go by boringly, and the thing I most hate about them is going to the bathroom, because now it just takes so much work, and I always need Mom to help me. The pain in my legs always worsen at night, and the painkillers don't do shit to it. I told Mom about us having dinner with Troy's family and she called them. We plan to do it Saturday night, which happens to be tonight. I'm dressed in a simple blue tank top with a black cardigan, and I put on a tiny bit of makeup. They'll be here any minute, and I get anxious.
TroyToday was the day that we were going to have dinner with Emberson's. I was nervous, because this was the day that I get to see Natalia since we left each other in the hospital parking lot. It was only a week and a half, but I was so lonely, it felt like a month or two. I took off my neck brace, and put on a simple red plaid button-up shirt, with dark blue jeans with my usual converse sneakers. I get in the car with my parents to ride of to their house. She had made some sort of casserole, that I really didn't want to eat.
NatI steer my wheelchair towards the dining table. Mom had really went all our at making it look very fancy. The smell of the food is mouth-watering. When the doorbell rings, all 3 of us head to the door. My parents greet them first. I smile at them, and then my smile turns wider when it lands on Troy. His neck brace is off, and he actually looks pretty cute. Hell, he even looked cute with it on. "Nice outfit, MCS," I say to him, which obviously stands for MyChemicalSandwich, his user name. Hopefully he got it.
TroyI let myself smile wide, as I enter the Emberson's home. It was very lovely, almost a replica of my own. But more...quaint and cozy. "Same to you, AMH." I wink at Nat, a chuckle slipping out my throat. I moved to stand beside her, placing my hand on one of the handles on her wheelchair. "Thanks for having us, Mrs. Emberson." I direct my smile at Nat's mother now. "And this is a lovely home." I tried my best on manners, knowing how cheesy they sounded. But my own mother raised me right.
NatMom looks delighted, and her singsong voice is noticeably more high-pitch than usual. Dad and Mr. Larkin shake hands in that businessman way fathers usually do. Troy pushes me along as all of us make our way to the dining room. He stops my wheelchair at the free, chairless space for me, and I'm glad when he takes the seat beside mine. "Mom really went out of her way to impress you guys," I say to him in a low voice, grateful that our parents' voices were loud enough to make it so that only he could hear me. "I hope you like the food." From the look on his face as he looks at the table, I think he will. Mom's cooking had always been a little slice of heaven for me, and I think I speak for every single person who's ate any.
Troy"Oh, I think I will." I said a bit breathlessly, my mouth beginning to water. The food on the table looked incredible. There was a ham that looked like it was glazed with honey, cheddar mashed potatoes with brown and white gravy, a casserole that looked way better than my mom's, vegetables, and what looked like a double fudge cake. Holy. Jesus. I sighed, in Heaven. "I'm not leaving. Consider me a new member of the family." I whispered to Nat with a wide grin.
NatI giggle softly and then Mom tells all of us to dig in. We do. All the while Mom talks to Mrs. Larkin about Mom Stuff, and Dad talks to Mr. Larkin about Dad Stuff. Usually I would start blabbering about something to Troy, but I don't know why I'm quiet. Nervous, even. Why should I be nervous? I'm acting as if I have some sort of crush on the guy. Which I obviously don't.
TroyI notice that Nat and I are the only ones not talking at the dinner table, and my mom kept glancing at me then at Nat then at me again between laughs that her and Mrs. Emberson had. I got the hint. Turning my head a few inches, I look at Nat. "So, what do you plan on doing once you're all healed up?" I say as I take a sip of Sweet Tea.
NatI shrug. "I don't know. I guess continue school. Maybe go to college." I glance at Troy. "How about you? What're your plans?"
Troy"Well, I just have a broken collarbone. So it pretty much didn't stop me from going anywhere." I made a sad face at her, pouting out my bottom lip.
NatInstinctively I reach out to touch his shoulder, but immediately pull back before I did. I steer my attention back to my food, hoping he didn't notice all of that. Even among the smell of my mother's food, Troy is sitting very near to me that I can smell him too. I like that he only put on a little cologne and not too much. But he smells so good, so I take a couple of seconds to breathe in his scent. He'll probably just think I'm breathing in the food's scent.
TroyI didn't miss that. She was about to touch me, and I would've let her, too. Actually, I wanted it. I wanted the comfort from someone that wasn't my parents or anybody related to me. I didn't want that kind of pity. Hell, I didn't want pity at all. But that seems like the only thing I'll get for a while. I suppressed a smile that want to blossom on my lips.
Nat"Are you feeling okay, Natalia?" Mrs. Larkin asks me, startling me from my daydream. Yes, I daydreamed about Troy. What next? I'll make a friggin shrine of him? I straighten up and force a smile. "Yes, Mrs. Larkin, I'm doing alright. I've been taking care of myself pretty well, and of course, my parents are always helping me." That earns smiles from all four of our parents, but I really didn't like talking. It felt as if there was broken glass in my throat. Then I start wondering what Mrs. Larkin really meant in asking me that. Was I fine physically or emotionally? Physically, yes. I'm holding on. But emotionally? If you could still call it fine when your heart was absolutely obliterated, then sure. Oh great, here come thoughts of Kia again. I clench my one fist that's resting against my knee and continue eating quietly, hoping our parents would just continue chatting with each other and not ask me any other questions.
TroyI wanted to curse my mother for asking such a stupid question. How could we even remotely be okay? For Nat especially. I seriously wanted to throw food right then. When I looked over to Nat to secretly apologize, I stopped. I could see tears forming in her eyes, but they didn't fall. It looked heart wrenching enough for me to place my hand over hers that was clenching into a fist. I didn't eat after that.
NatI tense up when I feel Troy's hand over mine. That was obviously the last thing I expected. I don't dare look at him, though. As the dinner ends, I end up not finishing my food, but it's fine cause I'm totally full anyway. Mom and Dad take the dishes and offer for the Larkins to stay longer to watch TV or something. I actually do want Troy to stay. Maybe we can even play my Xbox together. I just really wanted to be around someone my age. It's been too long. I finally look at him with a probably too-hopeful gaze, but I don't want to seem desperate or anything, even though I kind of am.
TroyI perk up at the question Nat's mother asked mine. I definitely wanted to stay longer, to be with Nat more. My mind reeled at the thought, making me almost lightheaded. My mother agrees to stay longer, making my heart soar. I notice mine and Nat's dad went out the back porch, more than likely to share a beer or two. The thought makes me want to puke and cry at the same time. Our mothers go into the living room with a glass of wine in their hands. Living me and Nat alone. I sigh in contentment, turning my head slowly. My neck was starting to hurt. I massage the back of my neck softly, as I smile wide at Nat. "So, what would you like to do?" I don't dare state the fact that this would be a parents alcohol night. It made even me want to punch a wall at their carelessness.
NatI look at him and shrug. "You like video games? We could play my Xbox. It's in my room." The thought of us being in my room together, alone, makes my heart beat a little faster, but come on. Would he really want to do any...funny stuff with a handicapped girl? A handicapped girl he didn't really know that well, I might add. "The only game I play on it these days is Portal 2, though. Do you know that game?" I ask him, hoping he does. "If you don't, I'll teach you all the basics. I never played co-op mode and really wanna try it out."
TroyA wider smile plastered on my face. "I love video games, but unfortunately I've never heard of that game before." Of all the games I've play, that one would have to be the one that I didn't know of. I mentally sigh and stand up, still massaging my neck. "Point me in the direction." I grab hold of her wheelchair handles, and pull her out from under the table.
Nat"My room's right there," I say, pointing towards the door near the staircase. It has a big, pink and sparkly 'N' on it that had been there since I was six. I never really cared about removing it, but now I suddenly do. I blush as Troy sees it. "Yeah, I should remove that, shouldn't I?" I say lamely as he pushes me toward the door. "Doesn't really help with my maturity."
TroyI let a chuckle escape my throat, as I pushed her to the door. I could see the wear and age to the sparkly 'N' on her door. It had to be years old, so it didn't really bother me enough to make fun of it. "It's alright, it's not like I've got a blue sparkly 'T' on my door." I wink at her knowingly.
NatI roll my eyes, but I'm smiling widely. I push the door closed and then steer myself toward my Xbox, turning it on. "The game's already in there." It starts up and goes to the dashboard screen. I start the game and gesture for Troy to sit on the violet beanbag chair where I used to sit all the time when I played. I hand him the controller. "It's better if you try the game in story mode first. I'll teach you through everything, don't worry. And plus, the humor in this game is fantastic," I add with a smile.
TroyI smile, as I plop myself in the beanbag. I had a green one a year ago in my room, but my dog tore it to shreds after a few days from getting it. I hold the controller in my hand, and watch the TV as the story for the game starts. I read the subtitles, as well as hear the narrator. Though, I couldn't really concentrate that much. Nat was so close to me, I could practically feel her body heat.
NatI explain to him the basics of the game, the way the portal gun works, etc. He's definitely a fast learner. "Once you start to understand everything it gets really addicting. I've finished this game, like, seven times already." I like that his scent fills up my room, and I find myself hoping it'll linger even after he leaves, so I could still smell it when I'm going to sleep. Ugh, god, I can not be thinking about this guy like that. It's wrong. I do my best to push away those irritating thoughts and focus on the screen.
TroyI nod when Nat shows me a new move, or which way to turn. I barely remember the controls on the controllers now, when she leans in and points to the screen from over my shoulder. Her scent washes over me like a tidal wave, making my eyes want to roll back in my head. I had to lean forward to actually focus on the game now.
NatThere's a knock on the door and my mom peeks inside. "Hey you two, sorry for bothering." She gives us a warm smile. "Troy, your parents are leaving. It's getting late." I try my best to hide my disappointment. I turn to him. "You wanna borrow the game? I don't mind."
TroyMy shoulders actually slump, showing my disappointment clear as day. "Alright," I say to Nat's mother, and I smile at Nat. "It's okay. Save it for next time." I smile wider, winking at her at an angle, so her mom doesn't see. I get up slowly, because my neck is now hurting to the point it's bothering me. I lean down and press a soft kiss on Nat's cheek. "Good night, Nat." I smile at her, and walk out the door, passing her mom as I bid her goodnight as well.
NatEverything in me completely stiffens when he kisses my cheek. What in the friggin' hell? I was NOT expecting him to do that. Ever. The feel of his soft lips against my cheek seems to stick to me even after he left. It feels as if his lips are still there, still kissing my cheek. I stay there for a while, lost in thought. A knock on my door snaps me out of it and I look to see Mom slipping into my room. "Did they already leave?" I ask her. She raises an eyebrow and chuckles. "About half an hour ago." I was in a daze for friggin' half an hour? Holy crap. "You alright sweetie? You need help with anything?" she asks. I nod, because I do need help changing into my jammies.
TroyMy lips still tingling from that one little bit of skin contact I just so happen to have popped on Nat out of the blue. I actually hadn't registered I'd done it until I was halfway out the door, and passing her mom on the way out. My cheeks flooded with heat. Damn, I bet I looked really stupid in front of her mom. I let it go though, because the more I thought about it, the more I got embarrassed. Once my parents and I got home, I went straight to my rooms, saying goodnight with a monotone to my mom and dad. I started stripping down as soon as my door was locked behind me. I winced, trying to get my shirt over my head, as my neck and collarbone protested pretty loudly. When I turned around though, I froze. The full-length mirror that was on my closet door showed me my body with only boxers on. I had scratches and scars on my chest that looked like I had been mauled by a bear. I looked hideous. I took too pain pills, then threw on my white Tee for bed, I laid down gently on my mattress, trying to find comfort for yet another sleepless night.
NatI absolutely cannot sleep. No matter how hard I try, I just can't. Well... I don't think you're supposed to try to sleep, anyway. Thankfully my laptop is under my pillow, so I just reach under it and slide it out. I start it up and a tiny wave of disappointment hits me to see that Troy isn't online. Oh well, it's past midnight anyway. He's probably asleep. I surf online and watch some YouTube vids. I even watch some lame tutorial videos that have people with sleepy, boring voices, hoping they'd lull me to sleep, but nothing. I'm not even a tiny bit sleepy. I sigh and just continue surfing the net, hoping to pass the time. I find myself anticipating for Troy's name and picture to pop up on the bottom right of my screen, but I shouldn't get my hopes up.
TroyI lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling, and making shapes out of the wood. This is gonna be another damned restless night. I sighed, and sat up slowly in my bed. The pain pills has done shit to me once again, because I felt a stab of pain in the back of my neck, as it radiated from my collarbone. I wouldn't get any sleep now, I knew that. So I did the only thing that I thought of; get on my laptop. I grabbed it off the nightstand beside my bed, and booted it up. As soon as the internet come on, my MSN signed in automatically. I was about to sign off, not really wanting to talk to anybody at the moment, but I paused over the "sign out" button. Nat was online. I smiled, and felt instantly a million times better. I IM'd her the next moment.
MyChemicalSandwich: hey buttercup. :)
NatI let out a tiny squeal of joy when Troy IMs me. I reply in seconds.
ActivateMyHeart: *tacklehuggle* xD
ActivateMyHeart: thank GOD. i was almost gonna die of boredom.
TroyI let out a joyful chuckle, cracking my knuckles for a reply.
MyChemicalSandwich: *falls, catching you* oof! hi there. :D
MyChemicalSandwich: lol, i can sorta tell. xD what's up, mamacita?
NatMy heart starts doing flip flops again. Damn it.
ActivateMyHeart: mamacita? >_> srsly?
ActivateMyHeart: nothing really. been trying to entertain myself, but to no avail, i guess.
TroyI snort, it sounding throughout my silent room.
MyChemicalSandwich: hey, just trying to lighten the mood. sheesh.
MyChemicalSandwich: ah, i know how that is. probably been up since i got up this morning at 8 am. x_x
I start to smile wide.
ActivateMyHeart: sure. :D
ActivateMyHeart: i don't really have much real friends at school anyway.
ActivateMyHeart: all they wanna do is party and strive to boost their popularity. -_- i just now realized how annoying all that is.