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McKensie and Lara II :)
Chris smiled lightly and brushed down her delicate and beautiful features "I find you very attractive...and I'm not talking about your appearance, I just want to know you Laila...I want to protect and be the one you turn to..."Kenna returned back to hers and nodded to James to bring in desert, she smiled at Luke. They survived the parents...his might not be so open especially since it wasn't even his...
Laila didn't want to open her eyes, for fear that if she did, he'd stop what he was doing, and frankly she didn't want him to. So she just mulled over what he said. He sounded serious, and she would like nothing more than that of he was telling the truth. But that was the risk. Every other boy had not. 'Trust' she reminded herself. "Well I'm told I'm a tough nut to crack, but I'm willing to give it a go." She said finally.James had the maids bring in a beautiful cake and ice cream which was served out. There were smiles all around the table, even though inside, Luke was uneasy. He wasn't sure how much he wanted Razors kid. Or anything Razors really.
Chris leaned down and kissed her lips softly "I would too...and If I do anything that takes away that trust I will leave you be...just say the word." he was serious, he cared that much about her that he'd let her go to be really happy.Kenna felt sick looking at the cake, she was idiotic. It was her birthday, that's why the parents invited her...she completely forgot...she felt very young at this point and quickly left the table going to the garden.
Laila was surprised to say the least when he kissed her, but it was not unwelcome. He had a lot more experience kissing than she did, but he was gentle and it warmed her to the core. "All right. If you start acting idiotic I'll be sure to let you know." She said, chuckling softly. "And if I start pulling away it likely will have nothing to do with you. It's just the way I am. Closed off." She said seriously.Like watched her get up from the table, knowing something was wrong, but like her parents he still smiled and nodded and excused himself politely as he followed after her into the gardens. She was upset about something, that much he knew. "Are you alright?"
Chris nodded and played with her hair some more "So what do I need to know about Laila?...besides what I know, that shes beautiful, brilliant...stubborn and loyal...she likes bulldogs and books...am I missing a lot?"Kenna shook her head and threw her arms up "I'm bloody 23! Its my birthday and I forgot because Im pregnant! I can't raise a baby who am I kidding and why would you want a baby that isn't yours?! ITS MADNESS!" she screamed and then collasped to the bench sobbing.
Laila's smile grew soft. He really was observant of he already picked that much up. "Am I that easy to read?" She asked, smiling. Then she huffed. "The biggest thing you might want to know is that I've had very bad past experiences with relationships. I was date raped in high school by a boy I thought I loved, and after that I've been closed off, but there just seems to be a spiral of disappointments. That's why I reacted so strongly to Kennas situation."Luke flinched, knowing it was true. He didn't really want the child. He loved Kenna, but not Razors leach that was ruining her life. But he didn't say any of this, he just sat down beside her gently and rubbed her back. "I'll love you no matter what happens." He whispered.
Chris bristled feeling angry and protective. He pulled her close in his arms and sighed "I understand...did he get you pregnant?" he asked softly not sure he wanted to know. HE wanted to kill the guy, rape wasn't ok in any form...even as a player he knew that.Kenna shook her head "What if I got an abortion?..." she asked softly even hating the word coming from her mouth. But she couldn't do this...have a baby! It would stop so many things in her life that were just starting! But...it was murder and she would hate herself forever...
Laila's face scrunched up in the pain of some silent memory and her heart throbbed painfully. She lay her head against him, breathing slowly for a little while before she nodded, deciding there was no point in hiding it. "Yes. He did." She whispered, her whole body tensing as she said it, for the memory was raw. Usually it was kept safely behind walls, but not anymore.Luke tried not to look to surprised, but his eyes still widened a little bit. He had not thought she would want to do that. "It's your decision what you do with the baby, Kenna." He whispered, wrapping his arms around her. "I can't help you in this one, but I will support whatever you decide."
Chris held her close, curling up her legs to rest on his lap. He rocked her gently "I am so sorry...I'm sorry that...my stupid decisions...brought up so much pain..." Kenna shook her head "Just tell me what to do! I can't think about this...there's too much madness in my mind to make a rational decision...I just feel so alone with so much support...but no one knows what I'm going through!"
He was kind, and gentle, and sensitive to how she was feeling, so Laila didn't bother hiding her emotions from him. She had been needing to cry since the walls came down, since Kenna got pregnant and the nightmares started again, so she allowed the tears to flow, wetting her cheeks. Laila rairly cried, and it was never without reason. But when she did cry, it was always a silent cry. She curled up tighter on his lap and covered her face, ashamed.Luke flinched and his arms slowly dropped from around her as he shifted away abou. This was her decision to make, and he was merely trying to help her. But she had never been so angry with him before. He couldn't even remember a time when either of them had yelled at each other, ever. He tried to convince himself it was just hormones, but it still stung. "You're right." He whispered, looking at his hands. "I don't know." He had never been pregnant after all.
Chris just held her close, willing to be her support and the shoulder to cry on. He steoke her hair since she really seemed to like that and sang softly, a song he'd sing to Krisdy when she was upset. "I've got sunshine...on a cloudy day...when it's cold outside I've got the month of May...I'd guess you'd say what can make me feel this way...my girl..."Kenna started to cry harder when he moved away "I'm so sorry...I'm just a mess...I love you and this isn't your fault...sorry Luke..." She whimpered feeling even more terrible.
Laila let the tears run until she had none left, and then they just sort of dried and stopped. Chris's holding and playing with her hair helped her focus on something other than the tears, but once they were gone, all she felt was mum pain. And that was when he started singing. A million thoughts flew through her head, asking how on earth she got to be crying, asking why he could sing so well, asking why she couldn't just get over it. She tucked herself against himso she was more cuddling and less tense, and she allowed a small smile to cross her features. "I didn't know you could sing."Luke reached over gently, squeezing her hand. He knew this was hard for her,and it hurt him that he couldn't help at all. After a moments silence, he sighed softly. "I should probably get you back to your apartment soon. Unless you wish to stay the night with your parents."
Chris smiled down at her when she finally spoke, he cried the spare tears off of her cheeks and brushed a finger against her nose "don't tell anyone alright?..." He said softly and wrapped his jacket around her since she seemed to be shaking. He continued a little louder since it seemed to calm her "my girl....talking about my girl...my girl."Kenna curled up to his side "can't I just stay with you?...please...I won't tell anymore I swear..." She was scared to be alone. She didn't want him to go...she loved him more than anything and he was taking all of her abuse...
Laila's hesitant smile only grew and she nodded in agreement. "I promise." She whispered, closing her eyes. She was warm now under his jacket and in his arms and she felt safe. Not to mention that his singing did wonders, and she found herself deifting off in his arms.It wasn't hard to catch the desperation in her voice, and Luke knew he couldn't say no to that. "Alright." He whispered, scooping her into his arms. He carried her to the car, saying his goodbyes to her parents as he walked. He buckled her in and started the car. He had been stung by her comments, but he knew she had reason for them under the circumstances, so he hid his hurt.
Chris held onto her for a little while longer, he never felt this way before. Protecting...caring and worry for one person. His old self would have thought about her breasts pressed against his chest but the thought disgusted him now! He carefully laid her on the seat and cleaned up the food before driving to her apartment.Kenna took his hand and looked at him pleadingly "I'm am so sorry Skywalker...I don't know what came over me! I love you so much and I can't do this without you...I will never yell at you like that again I swear...or anyone for that matter." She never got angry which why it was so surprising!
Laila shifted once through the whole ride back to her apartment, as the flurry of emotions had exhausted her, and she needed this sort of rest. She had not gotten much of it recently. When the truck stopped, she finally opened her eyes again and looked around, surprised. She rubbed her eyes and sat up, trying to gain stock of her surroundings. "Oh... I'm so sorry..." She mumbled, blushing in embarrassment, had that all really happened? Had she been crying? "I didn't mean to... I mean... I...."Luke glanced over at her, and he saw that she was sorry in her gaze. That melted his heart and put a soft smile on his lips."It's alright Kenna, I promise. None of this is your fault." he said, lifting her hand to his lips so he could kiss her knuckles. "Now lets go back to my place." He suggested.
Chris shook his head and kissed her forehead and then nose "Its ok beautiful...I think you needed it, don't you feel better? Let's get you tucked in and to bed. It seems like you need a rest...do you want a glass of chocolate milk?"Kenna caught his lips and nodded "yes please...I need, a nap and a midol...please I bet my parents think I'm an insane freak...do you think that there's a group about non wanted pregnancies?"
Laila nodded her admission, closing her eyes as he kissed her. "Yes, I do." she admitted, unbuckling her seat belt. "Thank you." she slid out of his truck and walked up to her front door, unlocking it. She motioned him inside, smiling gently and nodded. "Chocolate milk sounds lovely." She moved to her fridge to get out the carton and looked over her shoulder at him. "Would you like some?" She was still rather sleepy, but that could wait until they had milk."Luke smiled, starting up the car as he nodded. Once they were driving back to his place, he spoke up. "I think they took it very well." he countered. "In my opinion it could have gone much worse than it did." When they got to his house, he stopped the car and hopped out, coming to her side to open the door for her.
Chris smiled and poured the drinks and passed it to her "I would love some..." He sat at the table and moved her hair back "it's the weekend you should get some sleep...I'll be at my apartment, Krissy wants to go shopping tomorrow."Kenna nodded and held onto him "I thought daddy was going to kill you...but he was more upset that it wasn't yours...I don't understand."
Laila sipped the chocolate milk, letting herself savour how sweet it was. She blinked sleepily and shook her head. "I'm alright... I have homework..." it was a lame excuse for not sleeping. She was exhausted, but how could she say she was afraid of the nightmares? That wasn't something she wanted to admit just yet. "shopping sounds fun though. What are you shopping for?"Luke's smile was soft as he carried her inside and back to his bed. He tucked her in gently and shrugged. "I guess he likes me more than an unkown man." he said, sighing softly. "I'm gad I still have my head."
Chris watched her and frowned "dont change the subject...why dont you want to sleep Laila?" Something was obviously going on, she wasn't sleeping as beautiful as she was it was wearing on her.Kenna kissed him "me too...i like your head." She nuzzled him scooting over so that he could snuggle in and sleep.
Laila briefly wondered how he could read her so easily. But what was she supposed to say? She didn't like admitting her fears. She raked a hand through her short bangs. "I..." She started, swallowing. "I don't need to right now. I'll go to bed later tonight." Everything she said was true of course. Except she left out that though she would go to bed in the evening, like every other night, she wouldn't sleep. Luke couldn't help but laugh at that. "I'm glad." He climbed into the bed after her, wrapping his arms around her gently and getting comfortable. "Goodnight peanut." He whispered, reaching over to turn out the light.
Chris wasnt letting up that easily "yes...but will you sleep?" Krissy would play her words all the time to create loopholes he knew what she was trying to do. "I have a hide a bed in my place, you could sleep in my bed and i could take that?"Kenna smiled and nuzzled him "goodnight skywalker..." she whispered and found herself falling asleep.
Laila sighed softly then. Nothing seemed to get past him, and finally she shook her head. She couldn't lie, she valued the truth, and lying was something she avoided. "No, probably not." She said honestly. When he offered a bed at his place, she wasn't sure if she was glad of his offer, or wary of it. But she knew she couldn't accept either way. He had his sister there, and she would only feel like she was invading. "No thanks, I'll be alright. But thank you for offering." Besides, who wanted their crush to see them wake up from a nightmare?Luke rubbed her shoulders as she started to fall asleep. He wanted to be there for her, and to take care of her. It didn't sit well with him that the child was not his, but he loved the mother all the same. He sighed happily and closed his eyes.
Chris sighed "cant you just tell me whats going on?...Laila, i know that we havent been together more than an hour...but im here for you, just..let me in?"Kenna had nightmares all night long about Razor stealing thr baby when it was born, she thrashed and cried out "leave it alone! Please help me..."
Laila paled a little as her mind wandered to the nightmares. What was she supposed to say? She swallowed. "I can't sleep, Chris." She said honestly. "I can't sleep. Not since what happened with Kenna...." She looked at her hands, twining them together. "Not much will help... The nightmares.... they..." She shook her head. Luke sat up when he first felt her thrash and he scooped her into his arms, kissing her hair gently and just rocking her. "Kenna, baby, it's me. You're alright. You're safe." he said gently, hoping to calm her.
Chris pulled her close and stroke her hair "what about a night light?...wait I have an idea. Stay here ok?" He said pulling back "I have something for you." He said and went out to his truck, he dug for the special trinket in his glove box and came back draping something around her neck "this was my mother's, nightmares used to plague me when my dad left. This is a dream catcher it traps the demons..." He said smiling.Kenna sobbed shaking her head "she's mine...she's mine!" She screamed still asleep as she thrashed in his arms.
Laila watched, mystified as he left for a time, and then returned with something strange in his hand which he draped around her neck. Laila tipped her head to look down at it. A dream catcher. "Did it work?" She asked, curious. So he had had nightmares too. Maybe it was less embarrassing that she did then. He must understand. Or she hoped anyways. He wasn't laughing. She picked up the strange net like shape and turned it over in her hands. Luke could do nothing to stop the dreams, though he wished he could, so all he could do was to try and quiet her, kissing her forehead and cheeks and crying eyes. "I'm here, Kenna. I promise I wont let you do this alone." he murmured, knowing it was the uneasy feelings that made her have nightmares.
Chris pecked her cheek and nodded "yeah it did, and it'll work for you...just hang it above your bed and put all your positive energy into this...I'll be praying for you too ok?" He catessed her cheek "it's nothing to be ashamed of."Kenna woke up and was shaking holding onto him "he tried to take her, it's mine...I want her."
Laila was nervous about even trying to sleep, but she trusted his word and if he said it worked... then it was worth a shot. She smiled a little then, hugging him. "Thank you, Chris." She was saying thank you for more than just the dream catcher, she was saying thankyou to him for being there, and being honest, and understanding. She was thanking him for being gentle with her. Luke held her gently, running his fingers through her hair, a small frown on his face. "Who tried to take who? What is yours? Who is she?" he asked, completely confused. "Kenna, it was just a dream." he whispered, "Everything is alright." he wished he had not asked the questions he had at first, and had just left it, instead of digging further into the problem.
Chris nodded kissing her forehead "are you sure that you'll be ok tonight? You have my number if you need to talk and Krissy would love a sleepover she likes you. And that's saying something sugar..."Kenna shook her "my baby girl...Razor stole her..." She whispered and rubbed her baby bump "I can't give her away...it scared me more than anything..."
Laila swallowed. She didn't know if she would be alright. She wanted to hope that she would, but she just wasn't sure. She was thankful for his offer though. "Thank you, Chris, I'll text you tonight if I need to talk." She promised, smiling a little. "I'm glad your sister likes me. Makes me feel popular." She joked.Luke tensed. She had a nightmare about Razor taking the child? That was unexpected. He swallowed. "I promise you, Kenna, if I know anything, I know that Razor will not be stealing that child." He said, a note of disgust in his voice.
Chris smiled and nuzzled her "you are popular, and gorgeous kind and perfect..." He kissed her on every description and smiled "what if I sleep on your couch? Make sure your ok?..."Kenna whimpered and covered her eyes "if I can't handle a dream...how can I give up my baby in real life?"
Laila was blushing bright red by the end of it and she shook her head, her grin reaching her ears. "Oh stawp." She said, laughing. She hesitantly kissed him once, before adding. "But you have Krissy at your place. I promise I'll call you in the night if I can't sleep, ok? Maybe I'll come over. But you need to watch your sister." She said, smiling lightly. "Stop worrying about me. I think I can handle myself."Luke swallowed slowly, taking a deep breath. "Well... someone stealing it from you is very different than giving it away." He pointed out. "But... no one is going to force you into anything, Kenna. It is your own decision to make." he said as gently as possible, as last time he had said that she had yelled.
Chris chuckled "I can't help it...I just care about you." he kissed her softly "Want to get tucked into bed at least?" he pulled at her and lay on the bed smiling "Look how soft it is? Don't you just want to curl up and go to sleep?"Kenna sighed and nodded "If I keep it I don't expect you to step into the dad role, it isn't your baby and I will still love you and it'll work out ok?"
Laila eyed the bed like it was made of nails. No, she didn't really want to sleep. "I uh...." She swallowed. He was lying there and it looked alright so she consented, nodding. "All right." She finally agreed, climbing on beside him. Her whole body was tense, is if she expected to be attacked the second her eyes closed. Her fear was with good reason.Luke sighed softly, feeling immensely guilty. But what was he supposed to do? He couldn't lie and say he wanted the child. He didn't. He didn't want anything to do with Razor and his children. But he loved the girl who bore said child. He closed his eyes, trying to think. "I... Ok."
Chris cuddled her close and rubbed her arm and caressed her face slowly "you're safe it's ok...just breathe...think about positive things...beautiful fields...lush rivers over smooth stones..."Kenna sighed and curled up feeling sick and a little shaky, she kissed him gently and nuzzled him "Stay here...I'm starving..." she whispered wanting him to go back to sleep.
Laila was acutely aware of how close they were suddenly. He was very nearly pressed right against her. With her nerves already drawn tight at the thought of nightmares, her mind immediately sprang back to the last time she had been this close to a man on a bed and the image was not pretty. Even though Laila knew Chris was no such a person, fear is a hard thing to ignore and all the colour drained from her face. She pulled away and got off the bed again, shaking her head and hugging her arms around herself. "I can't... I'm sorry." She mumbled. "I'll... I'll go to bed later..." She whispered.Luke's mind wandered back to the present and he swallowed, realizing that she looked a little pale. He sighed softly and shook his head, reaching over to squeeze her hand. "Are you alright? Can I get you something to eat?" He offered. He only wished to care for her and keep her happy and healthy. His own sleep was not his concern.
Chris winced realizing what he did "I'm so so sorry Laila..." he got up and moved hesistantly away from her and sighed "I'm so sorry, I was trying to help and as always I made it worse..."Kenna shook her head and went to the kitchen and grabbed a cookie from the cookie jar, she was so distressed that she didn't even realize what kind it was as she bit into it...
Laila closed her eyes, as she was miserable to the point that the tears were threatening to push through again. "No... Chris... It's not your fault. I'm the one who's sorry. I shouldn't have dragged you into this. I shouldn't have let you in. Your not hurting me, but I'll just end up hurting you." She shook her head, wincing. Why was this so painful? "I..... I need to go for a walk." She mumbled, heading for the door. She knew it wasn't a good idea to walk outside at night, but she had to get out and clear her mind before she started crying again.Luke got up, watching her leave the room. He followed her then, like a lost puppy and watched as she reached for... He swore and leaped for the cupboard. "Kenna!" He shouted in dismay. He had forgotten to put those blasted peanutbittercooklies away before she came. "Where is it..." He whispered, searching for the epi-pen he always kept just in case.
Chris felt stuck, he sank to the couch and closed his eyes grabbing his phone and calling Krissy, might as well make sure that she was alright...he didn't need to ruin two lives tonight. He just wanted a drink more than anything.Kenna couldn't breathe, she quickly sank to the chair and shook trying to find the epipen in her purse, but it was empty! Why the hell did she forget to get that filled?!
Krissy didn't answer, as she was busy watching tv, but she already had changed the voicemail on the phone. "Hi." It said. "This is my big brother Chris's house. im busy watching tv right now, so please call back later. If this is Chris, don't you dare come back here and tell me you screwed everything up again. I want a good report, so whatever it is that happened, fix it." Her serious voice suddenly turned happy again. "Thanks for calling!" The line went quiet again.Laila walked out into the street and down the sidewalk, ignoring the light rain that was slowly falling. She was hurt, deep down, but it was an old wound, one out there long ago. And she couldn't escape it, and now it was hurting those she cared about. She hugged herself and walked.
Luke scrambled through the cupboards and drawers, swearing. His hand finally grasped the pen and he rushed over to her, taking the cap off. He didn't think, just jabbing the needle into her thigh, his thumb pressed on the end of the pen. "Breathe." He whispered. "You'll be ok. Breathe."
Chris blinked and shook his head as he hung up "Wow Kriss..." she hit it right on the head. He quickly looked around and found a bright red umbrella. He grabbed it and rushed after her. He managed to find her and panted cupping her face and kissing her deeply as he looked deep into those piercing eyes "I'm not going anywhere...you aren't going to scare me away..."Kenna gasped out and took a deep breath, she nodded and leaned into him and just held him close so grateful he had been more prepared than her. She knew her decision now, she wasn't going to risk the love of her life for a 'love baby' "I want to go to the adoption agency tomorrow..."
Laila squeaked in surprise when someone suddenly spun her around and kissed her deeply. But when she recognized the face, she let herself relax. She had kissed Chris lightly before, but not like this.... and she couldn't help the fluttering feeling that grew in her stomach. Her arms wrapped up around his neck and then she paused as if hesitant... "Are you sure? I don't want to..." She swallowed. She didn't want to hurt him. Luke hugged her until she started breathing again. He felt a huge sense of relief and let go of the breath he had been holding. Her words surprised him greatly though. He had never thought she would choose him over the child, and he stared at her in shock. "Kenna... are you sure?"
Chris kissed her nose and nuzzled her holding her close "I'm sure...I'm not giving up, because I know that you complete me...and I want to make this work..." he looked down at her softly "I want to love you..."Kenna nodded "I can't risk losing you...you are my super man..." she whispered and coughed trying to get her body responding to the meds. "I want you to help choose the family..."
Laila felt a shift in her heart then, like something cold and sweet had poured over her heart... like wine. And it was coating the old wound in a sweetness that made the pain bearable. She found a smile creeping over her features. "Well. I suppose if I can't persuade you otherwise..." She leaned up and kissed him, reaching up to tangle her hands in his hair. She hadn't kissed someone like this in a long long time.Luke felt his heart stutter as if it didn't quite believe what she was saying. He hugged her a little closer to him and kissed her hair, and then her forehead and her cheek an her nose, smiling all the while. "And you're my sidekick and I can't ever lose you, peanut. Don't forget that."
Chris dipped her as he kissed her deeply, but still romantically. He wasn't thinking about sex for once, he was thinking about her and how incredible she was was. He laughed lightly and kissed the nape of her neck "The umbrella is kind of pointless..."Kenna smiled and nuzzled him taking a deeper breath "Goodness, it feels good to breathe...you saved my life again superman..." she played with his fingers and smiled "I lvoe you..."
Laila could only feel love and longing in this kiss. Not need, or obsession, just sweet love and desire and she allowed her heart to lose itself in the feeling. When he dipped to kiss her neck, she tipped her chin back, smiling up at the dark sky that was splattering rain droplets all over her face and hair and she laughed, a real laugh. "I've always wanted to kiss someone in the rain..."Luke smiled a little then, his hand wandering up to her hair where he twined it around his fingers and played with the long locks. "You're welcome ma'am." He leaned down to brush his lips over her ear and smiled. "I love you too."
Chris helped her up and held her close "Me too...I've always wanted to kiss someone...with real meaning and to love her..." he whispered and nuzzled her gently "Let's go to my house...Krissy has already changed my answering machine...I need to get control of my place again.Kenna smiled "I have a doctor's appointment for an ultrasound to have something to show the parents...will you be there? Or do you have work?"
Her father nodded easily. "We'll always support you, Kenna, no matter what happens. Please know that. We'd never disown you." he promised, squeezing her hand. Luke returned to his seat, and her father noticed. "Let's get started on dessert, shall we?"