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if my therapist was here she’d bust out her DBT shit and tell me to do the opposite of what i feel

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i can’t sleep

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

jay wrote: "i can’t sleep"

hello

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aMemori wrote: "jay wrote: "i can’t sleep"

hello"

it’s nice to have you back, paige

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sometimes i wish i’d never been born AT ALLLLLLLLLLL

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i’ve always thought about what could be worth trading my soul to the devil for. i think i finally have my answer
(view spoiler)[i’d sell my fuckin soul for one day of being happy (hide spoiler)]

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

jay wrote: "aMemori wrote: "jay wrote: "i can’t sleep"

hello"

it’s nice to have you back, paige"

I come and go

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@everyone that i’m not answering- im sorry for that.

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he wants to have a meeting and talk about my personal safety. wonderful. i’m probably going to end up in a hospital again. or on more meds. fucking wonderful.

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and he made me promise to be okay until then. i don’t break promises. so guess who’s stuck.

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and this game is called “how many people can jayson driveoff in a single day”

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so far i’m at 3 friends gone

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i’m going to cut off all of my hair and get a face tattoo. maybe new piercings too.

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i know y’all are probably like “wow that’s edgy” but nah i just really feel the strong desire to change how i look

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should i just go to sleep to prevent myself from self harming

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or should i just

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grrr

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

jay wrote: "grrr"
goodreadsreadsreads

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i wrote a letter to my mom about how i want to love her and how i want her support more than anything but i know she’ll never accept/love/approve of who i am so 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

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y’all already know i’m not sending it tho

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“hey how are you”
“im fine why”
“i dunno you haven’t answered anyone’s texts in days and all you do is post abt how much you want to die”
“mmmm you got me there”

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just stuck, hallow and alone, and the fault is my own

[[deleted user]]

hi jay!! I joined this group after like a two year absence lol

I just want to say I'm sorry for how you're feeling. My presence may be only online to you, but we can chat anytime :) I occassionally struggle with icky feelings (who doesn't tbh) and just want to let you know it'll get better! try taking a nap and drinking some water, silly as it may seem.

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thank you for the support angel ❤️

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damn right i went to an italian market and ordered imported gluten free pasta

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shits expensive but these noodles are about to make a bomb ass lasagna

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(speaking of, does anyone have a lasagna recipe?) (trying to do meatless)

[princess maggie]

https://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/d...

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princess maggie wrote: "https://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/d..."

thank you babe ❤️😭

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overheard:
uncle with 3 daughters: “if you have three daughters you automatically go to heaven”
my dad: “where’s my wife we need to get on this”

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i’m reading this poetry book and it’s really shitty lmao i genuinely hate poetry i only bought it bc i have a crush on the author

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they write their
poems like
this

and think that it’s
good shit

really
it sucks

—jos

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i feel like good poetry is hard to come by. it’s possible and some of these insta poets are actually good but this person that wrote the book i’m reading is just. not good.

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but they include pics of themselves throughout the book which makes it ok bc they’re hot asf

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i should read the reviews on the book to see if other people think it’s shitty too

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all of it is you.

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anyway

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anyway all of the reviews misgender the author

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nico uses they/them and ID’s as gender fluid so like

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anyways new topic

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is BB married

[[deleted user]]

jay wrote: "

they write their
poems like
this

and think that it’s
good shit

really
it sucks

—jos

"
But are they this short? Because they suck when they're just like
"And then

Their

Were none"

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tbfh

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RPs to do-


jules and quinton: ✅
matt and law: ✅
Malec: ✅
dylan and nik: ✅
bran and dar: ✅

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me: catches up on RPs for the first time in weeks
also me: requests another one

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“hey jayson what’s the best drug to get addicted to quickly”
me: uhhh wtf

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1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?
-milk

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?
-yesssss

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?
-a bookmark or a clean tissue

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?
-coffee is 2 cream 1 sugar, tea is usually with honey and lemon

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?
-sometimes

6: do you keep plants?
-yes i have a cactus

7: do you name your plants?
-i used to.

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?
-hmmmm i dunno. music i guess.

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?
-i love it

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?
-side curled up

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?
-🍑, 🐔

12: what's your favorite planet?
-jupiter

13: what's something that made you smile today?
-charlie’s face

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?
-a fuckin whirlwind. of everything. books everywhere. giant stereo.

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!
- no

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?
-lasagna

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?
-none i want my natural hair back pls

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.
-once i got chased by a german shepard and i did this stealthy ninja move and jumped into the bed of a random pickup truck

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?
-this???

20: what's your favorite eye color?
-hazel

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.
-madewell transport tote!!

22: are you a morning person?
-fuck no

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?
-shitpost, RP

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?
-yes

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?
-at my middle school there was a caged off area of the girls locker room that was supposed to be haunted. i fuckin went.

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?
-classic black ugg’s

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?
-regular bubblegum

28: sunrise or sunset?
-sunset

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?
-charlie sends me pics of them blowing me kisses and i send them pics back of me catching it

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?
-bffjjdfkfkfk yes

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.
-i fucking love socks. i wear socks all day every day. it’s rare that you’ll find me without socks. they help my hyperhidrosis. i even sleep in socks.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.
-SS’s 21st bday party.. i had to get her sister’s dog off of NA and then the dog tried to steal my lego candy

33: what's your fave pastry?
-ispahan

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?
-o jeez. i had a ton. mainly stuffed pigs tho. i loves pigs.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?
-i do but i don’t use them

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?
-glass animals

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?
-i want it clean but it’s always messy

38: tell us about your pet peeves!
-loud chewing, my dad, everything my dad does

39: what color do you wear the most?
-lately all black. usually some burgundy and browns in there too.

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?
-i have this necklace that my middle school ex boyfriend gave me. it’s been 7 years and i still have it. rip that.

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?
-hmmm. probably... leonard peacock. basic bc i just reread it2 days ago tho

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!
-yes!! well technically it’s a tea shop. it’s on top of a bookstore. it’s my happy place

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?
-i don’t remember

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?
-literally never lmao my anxiety is awful

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?
-i don’t

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.
-uhhh i dunno um um ummm i’ll come back to this

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?
-good and plenty. fucking nasty little shits.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?
-my mom. also my mom. so yes. it’s the same.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?
-ye, last record i bought was a yardbirds one

50: what's an odd thing you collect?
-piggy banks

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?
-kass, that one NF song that’s always on the radio

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?
-mmmm i loved the one with cardi b with her hand on her hip when she was young, also the kylo ren shirtless one. oh, and the rapper’s real name search thingy.

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?
-out of those i’ve only seen heathers. it’s disturbing

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?
-myself?? mirror.

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?
-hmmm lemme think. uhhhh. okay. i’ve prolly done some shit but i can’t think of any rn

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?
-their ability to hug, their smiles, eyes, long hair

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?
-last time i listened to it my brother and i sang the lyrics really loudly and he explained to my mom that freddie wrote the song to his mom bc he knew he was dying and then my mom cried bc my brother was dying

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?
kass is the wine mom for sure bc kass is gonna be taking the kids to soccer practice and planning movie nights for them and i’m the vodka uncle bc tbh i’m a fucking wreck but a fun wreck

59: what's your favorite myth?
bloody mary

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?
i fuckin hate it

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?
a lump of coal (i’m serious)(my parents light it for their hookah stuffs). stupidest i’ve ever gotten was prolly ed sheeran tickets

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?
-no i drink coffee

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?
-my books are in cubbies based on series (2 for HP, 1 for all my rick riordan books, a few for stand alones) and my music is a whole ass mess

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?
-black

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?
-not rly

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?
-it wouldn’t

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?
-good. i like that shit.

68: what's winter like where you live?
-fucken cold and snowy and icy

69: what are your favorite board games?
-monopoly, battleship

70: have you ever used a ouija board?
-fuck no i aint fuck with that shit

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?
-this tea room that i love has a great heart chakra tea with rose petals.

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?
-yes my memory is shitty

73: what are some of your worst habits?
-biting my nails, procrastination

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.
-a honest to goodness gift to this earth. this person forgave me for doing the shittiest thing i possibly could’ve done to them and is one of my favorite people ever

75: tell us about your pets!
-i have none

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?
-sleeping

77: pink or yellow lemonade?
-yellow

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?
-those little yellow shits

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?
-charlie filmed a 30 minute video of them covering all of my favorite songs for my 18th birthday

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?
-3 walls lavender, 1 wall royal dark purple. my sister chose bc this used to be her room

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.
-take a blowtorch to an emerald, dip a sapphire in it, melt it all down and give it a stir

82: are/were you good in school?
-i was. am no longer.

83: what's some of your favorite album art?
-journeys greatest hits cover. also the escape cover art.

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?
-charlie and i decided on full back tattoos of giant dicks but instead of testicles there’s gonna be images of our faces

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?
-no.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?
-i cant name any off the top of my head tbh

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?
-shawshank, forrest gump

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?
-whatever went on with the oil paintings of the rich people. that was cool.

89: are you close to your parents?
-no.

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.
-uhhh orlando bc universal and disney. duh.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?
-nowhere

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?
-depends.

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?
-man bun or i leave it all messy

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?
-my dad bc it’s today

95: what are your plans for this weekend?
-hmmm. not sure tbh.

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?
-procrastinate,,,

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?
-intj gemini gryffindor

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?
-FUVK OFF

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.
-i would but tbh i’m just rly tired at this point

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?
-future to get out of this hellhole

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good morning uwu

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i hate
my entire
exsistence

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apparently i worry people when i talk abt suicide then disappear for like a day