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[jay, rip]

😁

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i’m getting registered in the school’s disability program...

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apparently my mental health has gotten in the way of my studies and it’s escalated really quickly and i need the support

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who knew elevators could be so much fun?

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tbh

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i feel like

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a mess

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jay wrote: "i’m getting registered in the school’s disability program..."

maybe this can be a good thing. extended deadlines and such.

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we were cuddling on a lounge couch and he was like “why is america so weird” and some person looks up and was like. that’s a whole ass mood.

[princess maggie]

jay wrote: "i went to a drag show and it was fuckin lit"

i love drag shows! was it themed?

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princess maggie wrote: "jay wrote: "i went to a drag show and it was fuckin lit"

i love drag shows! was it themed?"

it wasn’t, it was a bunch of sexy queens doing their thing and asdfghjkl it was so fun

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i’m really out here livin, huh

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we made out in a fucking elevator lmao

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two dudes kissing in an elevator 0 feet apart cause they are gay

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does it ever drive you crazy, just how fast the night changes

[jay, rip]

We're only getting older, baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you

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nobody can save me now....

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Stare into this illusion
For answers yet to come
I chose a false solution
But nobody proved me wrong
At first hallucination
I wanna fall wide awake
Watch the ground giving way now
You tell me it’s alright
Tell me I’m forgiven
Tonight
But nobody can save me now
I’m holding up a light
I’m chasing up the darkness inside
Cause nobody can save me

[jay, rip]

"you're good for him"

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because i... yeah. i guess. because he's shy and im outgoing and bc im getting him out of his shell but honestly that just makes me feel like shit,,, like

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remember in OUAT where Snow White's heart is pure and red but then something happens and it slowly gets that dot of darkness in it and it spreads and stuff?

[jay, rip]

i feel like im about to be that black dark spot in the middle of purity, ruining shit for him

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you ever feel like everyone's lives would be so much better if you just disappeared?

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(view spoiler)[ (view spoiler)[(view spoiler)[ and maybe it'd just be better off if i were dead (hide spoiler)] (hide spoiler)] (hide spoiler)]

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mental stability? i dont know her

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i feel like a mol of carbon-14

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pls tell me why its almost midnight and i have so much shit to do but im singing the wizards of waverly place theme song

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my therapist suggested writing a letter to my brother to gain closure and help me accept and cope with his death

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hey big bro,

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jay wrote: "hey big bro,"

this is all i have so far tbh

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what would i even say? sorry for lying to you about who i was, sorry for not really spending time with you, sorry that you died, wish you were here?

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this might actually be the shortest yet, huh

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ok so this weekend i plan on catching up on my RPs. i apologize to everyone i’ve been basically ignoring lately.

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psycho stalker ex is trying to contact me again he’s been DMing people i went to high school with asking them to tell me to unblock his number. i want to get a restraining order.

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i’m honestly terrified of him and he’s apparently trying to transfer to my college for next semester

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idek if i have enough grounds for a restraining order?? he technically didn’t do anything physical to me. just threats and shit.

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apparently i can get a restraining order on the grounds of stalking and feeling threatened. but the only thing is, the court would have to tell him that i’m getting a restraining order against him. i’m honestly terrified that he’ll come for me if he knows.

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i got a lot of shit to do but i’m really paranoid right now. he knows where i live bc he followed me home once. if he’s asking about me...

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holy SHIT. i made a new insta and forgot to block him on it and it’s public??? fucking asshole is probably getting off to my profile picture

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50% of my life is depression kicking my ass
the other 50% is me kicking depression’s ass

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APPARENTLYYYYY we don't get a fucking solubility chart on the exam,, another thing i have to memorize...

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i have so much fucking anxiety

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i genuinely wish i was dead rn lmaooo

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can i just

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I don’t know

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how to be honest with your therapist but avoid hospitalization at the same time 101

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what i would give to fall asleep and never wake up

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i say that i hate my family but half the reason why i’m not utterly destroyed and covered in blood and high off my ass rn is bc they can’t stand to lose another kid

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i just wish i was dead so badly

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and i’m stressed and have anxiety and i’m suicidal as fuck and here i am trying to memorize the fucking oxidation numbers on polyatomic ions