So...Lot's have been going on in my mind but it's all about the same thing/topic/person. My brother plays in a 11-12 year old baseball team. Well some of the kids are 13 and my brother is the youngest. Well one of the 13 year olds is super nice and the cutest person ever. Well I am head over heels.
But now the season is over and since he's older they will not be on the same team next year. I was going to make a move at the championship game but my mom said I had other plans so I didn't get to have any kind of closure. I'm about to die. I am obsessed and he doesn't even know I like him...I think.
My brother has spread like four rumors that I like four different guys who play at his league (including my crushes little brother). Well my crush, lets say his name is Jeremy, thought I liked one of his friends because of my brother. I denied it and he didn't believe me so I told him that I would tell him who I actually liked but I won't because they play there. So he started guessing. So far he hasn't guesses himself. But at the game second to last he told me that he figured out who I like. So I asked who he thought it was. In the cutest way ever he say's
"I shall not tell". I kept asking and he kept saying the same thing
At first I was pissed but then I realized that he's been thinking about me. If he wasn't then how would he of "figured it out?". Then I thought that it may have been his way of making me think about him. And then I never saw him again. Of course I had been so excited for Saturday until my mom told me that morning that I wasn't going.
Me and his younger brother, the older of his two younger brothers, are good friends. I was with, let's say Lucas, and four of his teammates. All of a sudden one of his teammates said that Lucas like me. I said, "no he doesn't" and they stopped. But then two of them said that Jeremy like me and the other two said that he hates me. I asked why they think that and all of them said that Jeremy said so himself. I was wondering if they were lying because I don't know why he would talk about me. i asked Lucas about it...multiple times...and he never really said anything. Well one time he said that nothing would ever happen between me and Jeremy. I asked why and he said:
"He's too good for you"
I could not believe that he actually said that to me. I am his third best friend! (I'm only after god and his neighbor) I ask him about Paul all the time but he's never connected the dots very well. I have also told him that he looks exactly like his brother (it's too freaky) and I told Lucas that he's cute (he's a fourth grader so he knows that I don't like him). I've even said the cute thing right after the look alike thing and he still never figured it out.
There family is home-schooled. Which sucks because he doesn't go to my school but it's also good because I know that I don't have any competition. Jeremy said that I was pretty much the only girl that he knows. They are so sweet and stuff because they haven't been exposed to the cruelty of children. But Jeremy is the easiest person to talk to. I've talked to him for like a whole day before and it was the best day of my life. The killer sunburn was totally worth it. He made me laugh and feel worthy. But then the day was over and I went back to normal life. The one that I don't love to pieces.
Sorry this is so long but I could just go on about Jeremy for ages. He means EVERYTHING to me. he is my escape from the real world and I don't know what I would do without him. But now I have to find out. It would've been so much better if I could've gone to that last game and make my move, get his number, and tell him that I like him.
So lets see what happens to me sense he's been stripped out of my life for at least a year.
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