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Stray by Ash Penn
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it was amazing
bookshelves: first-person-pov, glbt-romance

** spoiler alert ** I nearly didn't finish "Stray" because the narrator seemed such a prick. Then I did something I blush to admit. I read the end of the book and saw who he ended up with.

Then it was a case of WTF. So I kept reading. I soon learned that here we had a classic case of the first person unreliable narrator. Yes, our hero, Terry did some pretty despicable things and was out and out shitty to Daniel, but he was his own worst critic.

In these sorts of stories, nobody can be taken at face value, or in this case the narrator's value. Most of all themself!

People have commented on how impossibly sweet Dan is. Yes, because that's how Terry sees him. Right from the start you get phrases like this:
The boy studied me from beneath dark lashes, his fair hair contrasting with the black shirt hanging loosely from his shoulders.
That phrasing and word choice immediately shows someone he's attracted to or he wouldn't notice those things. Again:
His eyes, I noted, were a stormy shade of blue-grey. His face verged on the cherubic
and then a bit further on:
He raised his face, all flushed cheeks and glowing smile.
So, he says he's not interested, but he continually betrays the fact that he is, right from the start.

The kid is keen on him and isn't backward in coming forward. Like one of those puppies who doesn't know the meaning of rejection. So Terry feels he shouldn't be attracted to someone like him, so he pushes him away as hard as he can, by being as horrible as he can. Still the kid persists.

Why? One: maybe he's not as white as the driven snow that Terry makes him out to be. He was after all the king of cock sucking back at school and did survive on the street for quite a while.

But maybe it's more that he sees in Terry a similar spirit. But one in denial. In fact Terry is more like the neglected mongrel in the pound who has been abused and hurt and snarls at any attempt to be kind. In a way they end up protecting each other.

Terry also sees his friend, Marc, as the love of his life. If Terry was as much a prick as he makes himself out to be, why then has Marc hung around all these years?

True, Marc, isn't exactly your strong, sensitive character, even if he may be so physically. Perhaps it is this aura of strength that attracts Terry. He admits he likes his men to have:
thick, solid muscle, ropy veins, and enough stamina to pound me into a weeklong orgasm.
He, himself, though was small:
he and I were more or less the same size. In a more charitable frame of mind I might have offered to lend him some of my clothing.
So Terry had toughened himself up over the years in order to survive. He thought Daniel needed to do the same, but when it came to the crunch, he stepped in to protect him, not once but twice.

Time and again, circumstances left him smelling less than rosy, but instead of defending himself he encouraged Dan to believe the worst to help keep him at arm's length.

There are faults in the story eg at one point, as quoted above, Terry says that he likes men who pound him into an orgasm and yet later we get this statement:
It had been a good few months since I'd last got fucked, and I'd always preferred to pitch, but what the hey? It was his birthday. “Go for it.”
The other bits that made me pause were his sudden change from protesting that he didn't want to help Dan and be nice to him and immediately doing so when he felt Dan was being encouraged to feeling ashamed about being gay. Perhaps a little more insight as to why he felt so protective of Dan at those times might have helped.

Anyway these are minor quibbles and are easily outweighed by the courage of Ash in creating guys who aren't perfect and yet makes them sympathetic. She has also created a pretty believable world for them to live in. They go to work, they lose their jobs, they have to clean up. The mundane is as much a part of the story as the angst is.

One of the biggest lessons writers need to learn when they write these "nasty" anti heroes (think Hans Solo) is that they must have a "Save the Cat" moment (google it under Blake Snyder). In this instance, we don't get this until this bit:
I never brought anyone back here. Never had, never would. This was our home. And Marc had no right to do this to us.
From that inner thought we learn that Terry is not as insensistive as he likes to pretend he is. He has standards. He's also very aware of when he's crossing Marc's line and in a way fears the consequences of doing so.

This story also exemplifies the power of the first person narrative. This story would not have worked if we had seen things from either Marc's or Dan's point of view. The story I find most similar is Clare London's "Freeman", another excellent example of unreliable first person narrative.

If you read "Stray" and had some problems with one or other of the characters, re-read it (as I did in the end) and see all the clues that are scattered about regarding their real characters and judge them then through your eyes and not those of the viewpoint character.
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message 1: by [deleted user] (new)

*scuffs toe* I read endings. Sometimes I even read them before I start the story.

The mark of a really good book is when that doesn't matter. When reading the end tells me nothing about what happens in between. Like this one. I enjoyed the journey with Terry (and Dan and Marc). I thought it was clever, different and risky. Especially for a first book.

message 2: by A.B. (last edited Jan 27, 2011 11:27PM) (new) - rated it 5 stars

A.B. Gayle Kate Mc. wrote: "*scuffs toe* I read endings. Sometimes I even read them before I start the story.

The mark of a really good book is when that doesn't matter. When reading the end tells me nothing about what..."

We are so alike sometimes, it's scary. Even when I like a book I sometimes read the end to see if it will be interesting enough for me to devote the time to get from point A to point B.

I really liked Elisa's summing up of Terry and Marc's relationship. That typical jealousy of friend's (and family) that no-one is good enough. Very perceptive. Given that, any suggestion of this being a menage or even a three way is way off course.

In real life, these sorts of jealousies/prejudices far outflank love jealousies. The fear of losing a friend to a lover. That happens.

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Arzu Great review and that's why I just bought the book.

Me I try not to read the end first, but sometimes when a book annoys me I do. I am one of those who will read a book till the end, even if they don't like it. I always feel pitty for the author and hope that I will find something good in the book.

message 4: by A.B. (last edited Jan 27, 2011 11:59PM) (new) - rated it 5 stars

A.B. Gayle I hope you like it Arzu. It won't be everyone's cup of tea and I think it is one of those books that is worth a re-read immediately afterwards.

I find I'm reading a lot of enjoyable books these days that have been published by Loose ID. My respect for them grows each time I do. They seem to have editors who are not afraid of a difficult story, and in most cases they pull it off.

message 5: by Arzu (new) - added it

Arzu I will read it this evening. I'll let you know if I like it or not.
I know what you mean. Seems all my latest book purchases have Lood ID as publisher.

message 6: by [deleted user] (new)

Loose Id definitely has a better editing staff than the other ebook publishers. But in terms of which publisher has the best track record for intriguing books, I'm not sure. Dreamspinner has come out with some good ones, but they tend to get lost in the tons of mediocre stuff they put out. I liked Andrea Speed's infected series. Definitely outside the norm both as shifter/were story and HEA romance (to say nothing of the lack of sex).

A.B. Gayle Kate Mc. wrote: "Loose Id definitely has a better editing staff than the other ebook publishers. But in terms of which publisher has the best track record for intriguing books, I'm not sure. Dreamspinner has come..."

I agree with you about Dreamspinner on all counts. They do a different kind of "risky". Sean Kennedy's "Tigers and Devils" being another that many publishers may have ignored.

And I can attest from doing joint episodes with Andy Speed in Redemption Reef, that she is very talented, plus a lot of fun to write with. It seems given the jokes and irreverence that go on in chat while we write, her personality and that of Flynn are very much in tune.

THe whole expectation that ebooks (particularly m/m ones) have to have explicit sex in them is a shame. To me until this changes, the ebook industry will never take off. It becomes a chicken and the egg thing.

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I'd like to get past the romance = erotica assumption. I dunno. A lot of readers are really looking for that and feel cheated if it's not there, but I find that a random sex scene just kills the pacing of a story more often than not.

A.B. Gayle I'm not saying don't have them, but there is another group of readers out there who don't want it.

They read paper books currently, but they are hard to break into as an industry for a writer.

If the technology works, it should be used as an opportunity to have all genres available to writers and readers as ebook only, for starters.

However, there are not many ebook publishers catering for the non-erotic market.

message 10: by [deleted user] (new)

LOL. Ereaders are the new brown paper wrapper.

I think a big part of the problem with mainstream ebooks is pricing. Too many publishers are charging the same amount (or in some cases more) than they would for a paperback. Not only is that counter intuitive in terms of production cost (I saw an analysis a year ago that figured somewhere around $2.85/copy to print, warehouse and distribute actual books), but the reader gets less value for price paid. I can legally loan out, give away or resell a paper book. But even though I pay the same price, I don't have the same ownership rights for an ebook. My guess is once some of these kind of issues are sorted, the ebook market will expand rapidly.

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