I have found my new favorite book. THAT. WAS. EPIC. A billion stars! Naomi, Lana, Max, Lachlan…I fell in love with all of them equally. It makes you realize that sometimes life isn’t fair and that everyone deals with pain differently. Ok here is my review (spoiler free so I can’t tell you everything.) I really hope I did this story justice.
Naomi Carradine is a patient at Fairfax Mental Heath Institute.. Her past haunts her. Everywhere she turns she see’s him. The only thing solid in her life is Max and Lachlan. Lachlan, her childhood love of her life and Max, her summer fling that mysteriously has stolen her heart. I think it’s best to break this story into three parts. Her relationship with Lachlan, Lana and Max. Brace yourself because here goes…
Growing up in McLean, Virginia, Naomi dreams of things little ten year old girls do. Fireworks and tree houses. Only thing is her family despises all of those things. So one night she sneaks out with her horse Rumor to climb her neighbor’s tree house. And that is when she meets Lachlan. He catches her sneaking into his old tree house in the middle of the night. Him being fifth teen has no use for it so he agrees to not tell on the kid. Over the years their relationship grows. Until he moves off to college and returns a man. Their love for each other blossoms and when Naomi moves off to college of her own he promises to wait for her.
Call it what you want, but they are all the same. Each one requires you to give a piece of yourself that you will never get back.
But with the right person, everything will align perfectly. The world stops turning on its axis, time slows, and you realize that while you’re losing a piece of yourself, you’re also gaining something in return.
That’s how I will always feel with Lachlan.
He holds me and I know I’m safe.
Naomi meets Max at a party he is hosting. A successful stockbroker that happens to be dashingly handsome. Naomi cannot resist his charms. The two quickly start a whirlwind affair. The guilt she feels from betraying Lachlan is tangible. I feel in love with Max instantly. He is caring, intelligent and is crazy for Naomi. But with the summer coming to an end will they be able to let each other go?
One more kiss. Was I delusional?
One more kiss from Max and I become voracious.
Bare skin touching.
Hands all over.
I wanted it all.
Her world shatters when one night upon returning from home Max’s she finds Lana being rapped by, let’s just say someone near and dear to her. Naomi begs her to call the police but Lana is in denial and admits that she has been abused since she was ten. She feels trapped with nowhere to go.
Lana is Naomi’s best friend and also the daughter of a prominent Virginal senator. Together they live with her parents for the summer until the one faithful day that Naomi discovers her secret she has been desperately trying to hide for years. She talks Lana into moving into an apartment. Lana is slowing losing touch with reality.
I crumbled to the ground and screamed, trying to erase Lana’s words.
“The pain’s never gonna leave”.
Max confronts her abuser and is thrown in jail. The world is crumbling around her. The next thing she remembers is she is in the mental hospital telling her story to Dr. Rutledge.
I realized, then, that seeing Lana being raped had created a small crack in my sanity. Each event after that made me fragile. I was finally starting to shatter. Everything was catching up to me and I broke into a million pieces.
The ending hits you like a brick wall. It will leave you in tears and gasping for breath.