"He lied to me about Danielle. Then, he swore he would never lie to me again. And to this day, I don't think he has," Lexi said wistfully. "But I thou"He lied to me about Danielle. Then, he swore he would never lie to me again. And to this day, I don't think he has," Lexi said wistfully. "But I thought you said your relationship was full of lies." This time Lexi did look Bekah directly into her naively, innocent eyes to answer her, "It was. We just lied to everyone else."
When I read this quote above in Avoiding Commitment I said this is going to be angsty day. To those of you that are familiar with my taste in reading will know that Angsty book + me = My Addiction. This may not be my most angsty read yet, actually this one was pretty tame as to what I'm used to but it sucked me in like an angst junkie needing their latest fix. When I wasn't reading it, I was fully consumed with their tumultuous relationship, I had to know the story behind Lexi and Jack's dysfunctional relationship. Perhaps maybe because I saw similarities in myself and Lexi because unfortunately I have a Jack of my own, well almost......
"What? The fact that you have the capability of convincing women to hold out for you until you break their hearts?" she asked coldly.
The story begins in the present with Lexi receiving an early phone call from Jack Howard her "sorta non ex-boyfriend/best friend" whom she hasn't spoken to in two years asking her to leave her apartment in NYC while she's currently on school break to fly down to Savannah, GA to convince his girlfriend that's he's fully capable of committing to her, yet he has failed to do so any of the six years that Lexi has known him. *Insert sad face :(* What kind of man calls a woman he's had an explosive relationship with that ended tragically never speaking to her again, yet he calls for this petty, selfish reason? I loathe him already. This news hurt Lexi because she's been in love with him for the past six years and though this may break her heart, at the encouragement from her friend Chyna she has decided to do this favor for him to help ensure herself the closure so has been in dire need of for the past two years, or more accurately since the day she first laid her eyes upon him. Meanwhile we never become fully aware why they haven't spoken in the past year and a half until K.A. Linde decides to include us and that's what lead to my reading madness.
.....I can hope for love again. A love that will be more than anything however attempted to give to me. Because the love I am looking for will be reciprocated one hundred and ten percent. There will never be another someone to distract our affections, because you will not be in the picture.
You always want what you can't have, and what you can easily have you don't want anyways. Well that's my belief and Avoiding Commitment has successfully summed up my thoughts on this subject most accurately. Yet sometimes it difficult to make our hearts believe it. What essentially made Avoiding Commitment so addictive was the manner in which the story was told. One chapter K.A. Linde has me consumed in the present day of the story and just at the juicy part she began a new chapter taking place somewhere between six years ago and present day. It was fascinating to watch the full story unfold, it was as if I were slowly unraveling a mystery, and I reveled in it.
"This feels so familiar," she breathed leaning her head back against the arm of the loveseat. "Yeah, I suppose it does," he agreed amicably. "You have a girlfriend." "You don't have a boyfriend," he added. "I could have a boyfriend," Lexi said popping her head up to look at him eyebrows raised. He laughed lightly. "You don't have a boyfriend," he said as a matter-of-fact. "How do you know?" Her eyes narrowed. "Lex, I've known you for a long time.....years in fact. You don't have a boyfriend right now." "Fine. I don't have a boyfriend," she conceded, "but I could." "You could, sure. But you don't. Either way, we've been here before."
Lexi and Jack, let's be honest, they just can't quit each other, regardless of how co-dependent, self destructive, their relationship is that's based on love?, deceit?, respect?manipulation?, LUST, pure unadulterated animalistic lust! These two seem to be inseparable for the past six years, and even when they've had a significant amount of time away from each other, these two can easily pick up as if there was no time lost at all. I found it easy at times to want to pull for these two because seriously six years of love, lust, passion, heartbreak, happiness, friendship *these were the times I loved Jack* and well these two lovers deserve to finally have a HEA. My heart wrenched for these two adorably love able and charismatic lovebirds.....that is.....until I knew the full story, and I wanted to pull Lexi off the disastrous crazy love train immediately. I hated Jack once more. Lol
Jack had always been best at lying. Some people were good at sports. Some people were good at school. Some people were good at working. While some people were good at avoiding commitment, Jack was good at avoiding commitment.
Jack, oh that bastard I loved to hate. He's such a glorious villain that I have such a strong passion about his character....a passion for hating him more than words can easily express. He's a gorgeous, manipulative, selfish, charismatic, sick individual that turned my stomach inside out with his masochistic behavior. I always go for the bad boys but I find Jack to be lacking any redeemable qualities that by the end of the book, although I hated him, Lexi almost had me sympathizing with the douschebag myself. Like I said, he's a charmer, but he did not win my heart, he kept my destroying every bit of progress we made as their story progressed.
She was going to this party because of Jack. Strike one. She wanted to prove that Bekah was a phony. Strike two. And possibly humiliate her brother miserably. Strike three. Wow. She was in a low place.
Have you ever had your heart toyed with so many times that instead of doing the healthy thing and walking away, you decided a mission to destroy everyone in your path by unleashing their dirty secrets might make you feel better? I'm probably in the minority here but I actually adored Lexi, in spite of her flaws and dark secrets. She is most definitely not a saint, nor is she innocent, yet I found her at times funny, relatable, and bitchy, yet likable (besides her cheating) in many ways she was a victim in all of these manipulations and I felt pity for her. In the grand scheme of things she was oblivious to the truth behind all of Jack's manipulative behavior, I mean honestly if he hasn't made you "his" in six years or even chose you as a girlfriend over his past girlfriends after all this time, when is accurate to assume that perhaps maybe your just the "mistress" and not "his"? As sad as that revelation is Lexi fails to fully appreciate that, and believes she is the one Jack truly loves yet, he has a girlfriend that stands in the way of him fully declaring his affections for her after six years together.
In that moment, she knew. All that stuff about things being different had been bullshit. He wanted to kiss her. He wanted her.
Enter Ramsey the brother to Behak (Bitch of the South) Jack's girlfriend, and he had me swooning because there was just something so sweet and endearing about him, yet I sensed a bit of mystery under the surface that I'm eager to uncover in Avoiding Responsibility because I think he has a Billionaire bad boy side of him that I'm lusting desiring to know more about. *Sigh* Yet, what does he do for a living??? It's obvious he's a trust fund baby, but I just have a suspicion that he maintains a career in the adult entertainment industry, I just can't wrap my brain around this one, but I must know his secret. Regardless I'll take him and his outrageously sexy body, money and charm any day over Jack.
"I came here for your lousy fiancé. I came here," she paused slowly walking towards him, "to help her not make the same mistake that I did."
Bekah is so undesirable I can't imagine anyone interested in dating her or even deserving of someone so selfish, brutal, and conniving as Bekah......Oh wait, Jack is deserving of her. The entire time reading I kept asking myself; what girlfriend would want their boyfriends ex to come visit to convince him to commit to her?! I almost felt sorry for her because that just appeared to be something a very insecure and pitiful woman would do. If Jack were my boyfriend I wouldn't want him around Lexi or any other female for that matter without a tracking device because he's successful at sex and he gets what he wants, when he wants it, and nothing as trivial as a girlfriend is going to stand in the way of his sexual desires.....*what a dousche* Throughout the entire story I wanted to love Jack especially since I have a soft spot for bad boys, and I'm quite forgiving, however I struggled to find any redeeming qualities amongst Jack. He's a selfish bastard, that's wreckless with those he claims to love.
Chyna is such a breath of fresh air, she's Lexi ubber rich best friend and I loved how supportive she was towards Lexi in all aspects of life, and yet she dosed out tough love when it was needed and I admired that in a quality friend....just make sure you need the support of her friendship before she sinks her beautiful claws into her prey of the evening. If I could insert myself into this story, I'd like to be Chyna, and I chose Ramsey as my leading man. ;)
"So, as sad as this day is for me,as I am losing a part of myself with the loss of you,it is really just the beginning for me. It is like cutting off the spoiled part to get to the juicy center. So, I would appreciate it this time, if you did not try and contact me. Because, as I'm sure you know, I deserve better. I want everything this time around, and I deserve it."
Avoiding Commitment is one of those books that two days later I'm still in deep though about. It's an emotional roller coaster, and at times I had to put my iPad down and walk away because I just couldn't take the pain that Lexi's poor decisions caused her to endure in the name of "love". At times I was swept away in the sweet and delectable moments shared between these characters while reading, yet in the back of my mind I knew something horrific was going to be lurking around the corner causing my chest to get heavy and break my heart again. One page you'll be cheering and the next you'll be angry, and sad because your feeling devastation right along with Lexi. I recommend this for readers of angsty romance, tumultuous relationships with dysfunctional characters that suck you in deep because you can't put it down, yet you know it's going to be a hot mess to read!
"Will I hear from you?" "When I can hold my head up high."
Unfortunately Avoiding Responsibility is not available to purchase and I made the mistake of reading the first four chapters on Fiction Press, and I'm already wanting to slap some sense into Lexi, curse at Jack, hug Chyna, kiss Ramsey, and read it immediately! I want Avoiding Responsibility NOW! :)