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Santosh Kanbargi Murakami almost always writes solely from the perspective of the protagonist, which implies that the reader can never know what the protagonist doesn't. That's how it is in real life. We can never truly understand the motivations and reasons of others. I believe this is why he always leaves things like these to the interpretation of the reader.