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Zanders squeals from the couch like a teenager.
he’s so me
“But I spend a lot of your money.” “Someone needs to.” “And I’m messy. You don’t like messy.” “I like your mess.” “And I’m needy. I have no idea how to be alone.” “Good. I don’t want you to be alone. I want you to be with me.”
they’re so perfect
“No. Because it’s become clear as day that you’re meant for me.”
“Are you begging, Shay?” “Yes,” I laugh. “I’m fucking desperate for you, Blue.” “Good.”
“Ignore this if I’m overstepping, but that day we went camping when you told me you wanted to start your own foundation, I couldn’t get it out of my head. You said it felt overwhelming, so I thought maybe I could help steer you in the right direction.”
only girl ever
Slipping my foot between hers, I nudge her feet apart to find a new addition to her shoes. Right there, inside of the left ankle is an embroidered basketball with my number and a heart stitched into the center of it.
sooooo sick
Do I mean enough to her? Will she go back to him? Was it always him? Does she want me at all?
:(
That’s a lot of years to say goodbye to.”
how does he miss the most important things like she literally just said she’s saying GOODBYE to him
He’s got nothing to be scared of and he would know that if he would talk to me.
he said he was giving you space u dummy. these idiots
Because he wanted to explore before settling down for good, and it was the biggest regret of his life.
fucking crazy btw
“Well”—she puts her hand over mine and squeezes—“that’s because he loves you. He doesn’t want to lose you.”
obvs
Cold coffee waiting for me in the fridge. Fresh flowers, though sometimes dead because he tried too hard to keep them alive, sitting on the kitchen island for me at home after every road trip. Making sure I have food I can eat. Even giving me time to process my conversation with Alex.
acts of service for sure
He does the sign for “hello” with his hand touching his forehead and waving outward. He follows that up with a hand on his chest before the index and middle fingers on each hand cross over one another and tap twice, saying “my name.” Then Ryan fingerspells his name. Slowly and cautiously. Anyone in the Deaf community would pick up that he’s a beginner as he takes his time remembering each sign, but that’s not what matters. The little girl’s face lights up as she watches him, catching on to how new he is when she slowly signs her name back.
hey i’m gonna PUKE
No one in my life has made an effort to communicate with my dad in his language. Not my life-long friends and not my boyfriend of six years. And in comes this man who I’ve only known for a few months, turning my life upside down and proving what it means to be loved.
going to be sickkkkkk
Were the tears she shed while rushing to the bathroom at my game due to guilt, knowing it’s going to hurt like hell when she ends things with me?
DUMMY DUMB IDIOT STUPID MAN WHAT DO YOU MEAN
Giving him a wink, my eyes are right back on my girl.
LMAO
She and I start dancing, Maggie needs help with her dress. She takes a seat on my lap for cake cutting, Maggie needs her help to reapply her makeup.
maggie needs to mind her own business
“Oh, for fuck’s sake,” Alex whines next to me.
lmao
Taking a sip, the smokiness of it burns my tongue and throat in the most delicious way. The guy has good taste, I'll give him that.
it would’ve been funny if it was like a malibu sprite
“You know that jersey you’ve got with my last name on it? When you see it hanging there in your closet, let it serve as a reminder to you, that soon enough, it’ll be her last name too.”
HEHEHEHE
Daily update—I’m in love with your brother.
I asked for her advice on the best way to start learning since she was an adult when she learned too. We’ve been video chatting once a week ever since, and they’ve both been teaching me.”
he’s so SICK
“Because they’re your family and you’re mine, and the fact you even have to ask is mind-blowing to me. Learning to communicate with your family is the bare minimum, Ind.”
gonna vom
“And then there’s the whole thing about me being in love with you.” “That little detail.”
sick
“I’ve got everything I could ever ask for. I’ve never been happier in my life, Blue.
god
“But how about we go have some fun and play the way we know how, yeah?” Confused stares come my way.
this feels straight out of high school musical idk. like i can see this being a troy bolton thing to say
“Goddamn. Are your knees sore from blowing that call?”
LMAO
“I’m heading to Michael’s.” “And who the fuck is Michael?”
idiot
“I was about to body slam Michael through the floor.”
“A mafia boss cuts a deal with another mafia boss by using his daughter for payment. Marriage of convenience. Normal stuff.”
casual
“Oh, it’s Kai.”
hi best friend
If he’s not eating or sleeping, I’ll come right home.
hes so
I swear to God my ovaries are on high alert because Ryan Shay holding a baby while cooking me dinner has got to be the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.
real
But I’m equally terrified that he’ll never want the things in life I ache for and seeing him like this tonight is nothing but a reminder that it wasn’t long ago he vocalized just how differently he viewed his future from the one I want.
but he’s already talked about how badly he wanted kids and how excited he was when he thought he was going to be a father
I’m stopped in my tracks when I find a white plastic stick with a blue cap wedged underneath one of the wooden legs.
sigh
And why the fuck is this down here? To hide it from me?
if she wanted to hide it, she wouldn’t have even kept it in the house. come on babe
Indy’s positive pregnancy test.
ugh
“Did you do this—” he begins before stopping himself, shaking his head.
ryannnn :(
This is what I’ve wanted. I just didn’t expect it so soon. I’m a planner, a preparer. I would meet her parents, ask her to marry me, then do everything in my power to make her a mom.
okay well tell HER that
Rio’s house reeks of boy.
lmao
“Daily update, Vee—your brother doesn’t want the same things I do, and I don’t know where we go from here.” She runs a hand over my arm soothingly. “Did he say that?” Tears fall down my face, hitting the pillowcase. “You should’ve seen him, Stevie. He was terrified.”
:(
“I’m so happy for you and Zanders.” “Yeah?” “Of course, I am! I’m going to spoil the shit out of that babe.
god indy is just SO good
“I’ll have some groceries sent over. She’s a vegetarian. And she likes her coffee over ice, so maybe put some in the fridge in the morning for her. Can you give this to her for me?”
GODDDD
If Ryan isn’t involved, what’s the point? Yes, I’ve always wanted kids, but not without him.
okay lowkey i hate that this changed bc i don’t think her desire for kids should also revolve around this man
“Can you tell me when it was paid?” “Looks like it was back in mid-December.”
he’s so fucking crazy
But the most beautiful part of the house is the man with his back to me, working at the stove. Backwards hat, hoodie, and joggers.
can i have one of those
“And so much fucking Blue. All I see is Blue.” Translation: All I see is you.
“But that was back in December. Even then?” He knew even then? “Even then.”
“I’m thinking about how hot I’m going to be as an NBA wife.”
“Yes,” I say before he can stop me. “I feel the burden every day.”
:(
