Sex with a guy always felt a bit like fighting, you could get hurt, or realise that you had been hurt when the hangover hit. Hard to say what you felt at the time. (Am I a masochist? Oh, I can’t remember.) But actually, emotionally, it was the girls who could break me, especially if they did that chilly, disdainful thing, which was exactly what attracted me in the first place. But there you go.
