Make You Wish You Were Dead

by Jaclin Marie

I flinch when he first touches me but he keeps his hands there and I feel his warm skin against mine and how soft his hands are as they touch mine. I immediately blush but try to ignore the heat spreading on my face.

their first touch

I can’t be feeling the way I have been feeling with her, especially since she is my client and I work for her father.

I hate that I want to know more about her and want her to talk to only me and no one else. I want to be the one to save her.

She looks like she just woke up, but she is fucking perfect nonetheless.

"Yea, you fucking missed me. You missed how I stare at you from across the room ?" I ask, leaning closer, but she doesn't say anything. "You missed me, huh? Right, Jane? I bet your fucking heart is pounding-"

"I couldn’t care less that you left! The whole world doesn't revolve around you, Rowan!" Jane yells.

the first time she speaks to him

Jane Reyes finally cracked.

I feel his hand touch my back as he guides us to where the man said to go. His touch on my back feels like fire. It’s hot and all consuming.

I grab her hand and bring her onto the rink with me. Jane slides closer to me and wraps her arms around my waist so she doesn't fall. My stomach flutters and all of the blood rushes down my body when she digs her nails into my back as she holds on.

"Falling is a part of learning and becoming better. Don't feel discouraged when you fall because you are going to fall, Jane."

I whisper in Jane's ear. My lips touch the top of her ear for a second and I swear that spot on my lip burns with how she feels.

me personally would die melting right there

The world is ours and she and I are perfect.

Every day I admire how he looks.

every time she doesn't have work and it's always going to be with me. Make sure to not forget that,"

someone seems a little jealous if you ask me

Rowan turn around and pick me up to throw me over his shoulder.

its giving "yes sir"

"Opening the fucking door, Rowan, or I swear to god I will open the door my fucking self and break the window! Open the door!" I yell, trying to hold back the tears.

Rowan says and when he looks at me, I see a small sparkle or glint of something in his eyes.

she knows

That's what my Jane is.

YOUR JANE!?! LET ME BE YOUR KAI

I can't continue my rant because I feel his soft lips smash into mine.

"I'm not jealous, fawn. You're mine and I'm territorial," he says at the same time he squeezes my waist in his hands.

"Rowan." Rowan signs and I feel my heart flutter when I see him do that.

I already know he is probably going to be such a great dad.

Her hand fits perfectly into my hand. I love it. I fucking love how we match each other.

"You fucking ruin me, fawn."

"You'll never escape me now."

I know I'm going to hell when I die but god, if heaven felt like the way I was feeling when I was kissing her, touching her, then I'm damn sure going to do everything in my power to make sure I go to heaven with Jane.

I swear before Jane Reyes I never felt this way. I never felt like I could be destroyed.

I can feel his hot breath touching my skin everywhere.

"You're not weak, fawn. You never were. So don't ever think that I want you weak. I want you as mine."

I grab her waist and pull her closer to me until she is sitting on my lap. "When I say come here, this is what I mean, okay?"

But I do want you to know that you're mine," I say while also giving her a possessive squeeze on her waist making her lips lift in a smile as she squirms on my lap.

I almost feel loved. I wonder if he feels the same way I feel about him.

"Now, please don't say anything stupid or mention dad or my girl."

Hearing myself say ‘my girl’ sounds foreign and weird, but it also sounds perfect and just right. Jane's my girl.

You guys were eye fucking one another the whole dinner."

"What's going on in that pretty head of yours?"

But you're just too good, Jane,"

My girl. My fucking girl.

I go down on my knees in front of her

"See what you do to me, Jane? I'm on my knees for you, fawn."

I swear I felt like I was floating or in heaven when I finally said that I loved him in my head. He makes me feel like heaven and good things exist.

I'm so in love with him, every time I think about him I feel my heart rate speed up and the tingle in my stomach.

"I love her. You on the other hand I'm having some fucking doubts about." It's true. I love Jane Reyes.

The girl I'm in fucking love with. Fucking love.

"Just know Jane, that I love you. And because I love you I'm going to leave. But don't think for a second I won't come back because I will,"

I seemed to have fallen in love with you when I saw you walking down the staircase. And guess what, baby? I am still in love with you. I just have the guts to finally admit it. The only thing I am ever afraid of is losing you

"I fell in love with you and was so fucking obsessed with you the moment I laid my eyes on you.

"He touched you. You're mine. He touched what was mine. What’s even worse is that he touched you without permission. I was not going to let that shit slide. You can be mad at me Jane, but I don't fucking regret it. Any man who lays a hand on you will die at mine," Rowan says, his voice is rough and menacing as he tells me what he did. "I love you. Got that?"

"I'm going to fucking own you."

"That’s my fucking girl,"