“Because of the fact that it’s not easy!” Her voice strained. “Because of the fact that it hurts every single day knowing that I’m letting go of one of the best things to ever happen to me. You.” That made my eyes lock in on her. Though I wanted — needed — to look away, I couldn’t. “Juice, I love you so fucking much, and yes this was my decision, but I thought we had an understanding of why I made that decision. Me choosing me, over you, is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. And this hurts. And it’s hard. And it’s even harder being here with you right now because how do I give this up?”
