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by Bella Jay

“Why we gotta talk about this?” “Because it matters. If you think for a second, this divorce has been easy for me, I want to know why.” “Just drop it, Brooklin.” “I’m not because you clearly think that for a reason, which is fucked up.” I guess we were about to do this shit. Fuck it. “You the one who wanted it, why wouldn’t it be? You left me, remember? With a got damn letter!” The words flew out. The pain from finding that white envelope still struck a nerve. I thought I’d moved passed it after she’d explained why she needed a divorce, but I was lying to myself. I’d always been good at math and some shit still wasn’t adding up. If two plus two equaled four, how come one day we were good and the next she’d left me? And now we were here. How? “Add that to the fact that you’ve made it abundantly clear that you don’t want shit from me, and you just want out! How else am I supposed to interpret this shit?” Her wanting a divorce completely caught me off guard. It had me rethinking everything and wondering how I’d missed all the signs that despite everything looking good on the outside, she wasn’t good on the inside.

I can’t take this