“I knew I would never feel about anyone the way I felt about you. I convinced myself it was because you were JP so of course I couldn’t recreate that magic with anyone because… you’re you. So, I told myself that I could love Parker in a different way. A way that wasn’t so intense. I could love him in a way that didn’t consume me and make me crazy and feel alive and also like I’m dying. In a way that didn’t set my soul on fire. It didn’t strike me as odd that our intimacy was lacking because I only had one man to compare it to and of course nothing would ever be able to compare to what we had.”
