Corrupted Chaos

by Shain Rose

“You think I’m so fragile all of a sudden, Cade? You just killed a man in front of me, and I realized something during that time.” She strode over to my window. “I wonder if the city will know it too. If my family will accept it. Will people see that if you hadn’t slit his throat, I would have? That I have that in me? That I’m okay with having it in me all of a sudden? That I’m okay with every fucking emotion now?”

I found that I loved her, and that meant I had to determine whether I loved her enough to let her go.

Do you not understand the consequences of when someone does that? No one is allowed to fuck with you but me, don’t you understand? You cried, Izzy. I had to see tears streaming down your face. For that, he’s lost his company, his savings, his whole career. And if he dares go near you again, he will lose his life.”

I claim to be good at the dark web, not knowing a woman’s mind.

Line 1: I won’t say this is a love letter, because it’s not. Line 2: But if I were to have written one, it wouldn’t have been about you. Line 3: You left me, and you promised you wouldn’t. Line 4: You promised to love me forever. But you didn’t. Line 5: Don’t ask me if you were weak or strong. Line 6: Even though I’ve moved on, I still don’t know what’s right or wrong. Line 7: I do know you lost so much good when you threw away the bad. Line 8: I do know I’m older, smarter, and know you could have had a better life than you had. Line 9: I wish you could have seen how to fight. Line 10: That someone gave you the strength and love to see the light. Line 11: Can you see that I found a love that wrecks me but still makes me whole? Line 12: I feel the pain, the wreckage but also the love deep in my soul. Line 12: So, I won’t thank you for what you did but I’ll thank you for leaving me. Line 13: It led me to him and to see I could be the person I wanted to be. Line 14: I’m sorry you got lost in your mess. Line 15: But thank you for showing me I should never let go.