Off Limits (Secrets Kept, #1)

by Riley Hart

TheDoctorIsIn: Could be fun… I’m vers, though I mostly top and have a habit of topping from the bottom too. GoodWithHisHands: I think you’re me. TheDoctorIsIn: LOL. I want you… I like you, even though I don’t know you. GoodWithHisHands: I want you too…and like you as well.

“The second tragedy here is that we’re both gorgeous, queer men, and it can never go anywhere because you were married to my sister.”

“Hey, sorry, I—” The man’s words cut off as familiar hazel eyes stared back at me. Ryder was there, wearing a shirt that said Lynwood Mechanics right above his heart. Mechanics. Ryder was a mechanic. Ryder was… “No…” he said, and that one word made my world spin, made me hold on to the railing in the elevator, fearing I would collapse if I didn’t. “You live…here? You’re a doctor…fuck.”

For Hutch to come over and make dinner with me. The guy with the sad, chocolaty eyes, who had always been right in front of me, but I’d been too confused, too far in the closet, or too…too with his sister to let myself see him.

“I want you, Ryder… God, I want you so fucking much; it’s eating me away inside. Why does it have to be you I can’t get out of my head? Why is it you I think about first thing when I wake up and last thing before I go to sleep?” He tugged my hips close to his, and we both trembled. “Why is it you who makes me feel alive in ways I didn’t know were possible? The one person I can never have.”

“I want you too.” Our lips grazed when I spoke. “I feel you… Down to the marrow of my bones, I feel you, this rightness I didn’t even know I was missing. Like a part of me was waiting for you all along. No matter how hard I try, I can’t make it go away.”

“Because he’s your family and you love him. Because feeling like you’re enough has no age limit. We all want that.”

“Fuck…Hutch. That’s it. Breathe me in. Suck on me.”

“I don’t need that. Fuck me, Hutch, before you’re the one ass up. Christ, I never needed anything as bad as I need you right now.”

“Don’t let me lose you because of that. Stay with me, Hutch. It’s just us…just me and you here. No one has ever been inside me bare. I want it to be you.”

“I can’t wait to fill you up, to know my cum is in your ass and no one has been inside you that way before,”

“You wanna mark me all up inside? Make it so everyone knows I’m yours? Because I am, Hutch. Maybe I shouldn’t be, but I am.”

When I softened and pulled out, I pushed two fingers inside him. “Fuck… God, that’s good. I’m sensitive, but it’s still good,” he said, his eyes fluttering. “Wanna push it as far inside you as I can. I want to keep it there.”

“Never wanted someone inside me so much in my life,” he admitted. “But I’ve never wanted inside someone so bad either.”

Hutch went straight to my head, gave me this natural high I hadn’t known I’d been missing my whole life. It was like not realizing you weren’t intact, and then suddenly you were, and the whole damn world made sense when you hadn’t known it was out of whack before.

“Did you just confess you’re in love with me?” I sat up and straddled his thighs. Hutch rolled his eyes, then tried to cover his face. “Hutch and me, sitting in a tree…because Hutch just realized he’s in love with…me. Shit. I was trying to rhyme. I suck at that, Mister In Love With Me. I think I’m gonna call you that from now on… Hi, have you met my boyfriend, In Love With Me? In case you didn’t know, he’s in love with me.”

“Well, that’s a damn shame because I’m so fucking in love with you. I’ll spend every day trying to earn you back if I have to.”

“Tell me you want it, Hutch. Tell me how much you want my cock.” “Give it to me, or I’ll just feed you mine instead.”

“Can I suck your cock?” I liked this game with him, the transferring of power back and forth.

“Lie on your back. I want to look into your eyes when I sink inside you, want you looking into mine when I’m buried in my hole.”

“I’m not letting you go, Hutch. I’ve never had this, something so true, and now that I do, there’s no walking away for me.”

“Give it to me, Ryder. Fill me up. I want you inside me.”

“I can’t believe you would even ask me that, Dad. Everything isn’t about you. Do you think it doesn’t kill me to hurt Maddy? That I don’t hate myself for it? That I don’t berate myself for it every hour of every day? Because I can promise you, I do. I don’t know how I’ll ever get past hurting her like this, but…don’t I deserve to be happy? To be loved? There was no future for Ryder and Maddy, but there is for us. He makes me feel…” Hutch rubbed a hand over his heart. “Right…settled in here. You want me to walk away from that?”

“What can I do?” “Just don’t go,” Hutch replied. “Just please, don’t go.” “I won’t. The only way you’re getting rid of me is if you force me away, and even then, I’ll probably stalk you. I’ll hide under your bed and in your closet—hopefully security won’t kick me out at the hospital.” He smiled. “I love you, Hutch. You’re mine. I refuse to lose you.”

“Awfully presumptuous of you to bring that out, wasn’t it?” “I was hopeful. And I know you, Hutch. I feel you deep inside me, like a reflection of each other. I woke up needing you so fucking bad, I was aching with it, and I knew you felt the same.”

“Tell me, Hutch. Tell me how much you like it.” “So good…there’s nothing like having you inside me, reminding me I’m yours.”

I couldn’t wait to spend the rest of my life loving this man.