Waiting to Begin

by Amanda Prowse

She shook her head, thinking of how she had gone from being a teenager with the whole world at her feet to feeling like a failure, not quite up to the mark, mired in self-doubt. And it had happened in a blink. And recently it was like she had fallen so far from that straight path and into a ravine filled with rocks fashioned of shame and guilt and she spent every day scrabbling on them to try and climb her way out.

‘You have to make the changes and take control. Or you can carry on doing what you do – what you have always done – sit at home, feeling envious, anxious and hard done by, and telling yourself that it’s because you ticked the wrong box!