The Poppy War (The Poppy War, #1)

by R.F. Kuang

Well, fuck the heavenly order of things. If getting married to a gross old man was her preordained role on this earth, then Rin was determined to rewrite it.

“So you’re not dying, sweetheart, your body is just shedding your uterine lining.” Rin’s jaw had been hanging open for a solid minute. “What the fuck

But the misery she felt now was a good misery. This misery she reveled in, because she had chosen it for herself.