i am tired of being a dandelion

by Laura Supnik

you are more alive than ever but i have been trying to kill the idea of you.

i’ll still pretend it sounds right.

most times i wish we could talk a little longer until i pretend to forget why we quit because i want more and small talk is insufficient but with you i’ll take what i can get

if they love you then you won’t have to die a little each time you try to find proof.

i can’t keep losing parts of me at the expense of a dream that may not get to exist.

i have stopped planning for my wedding when i stopped believing that day would happen.

i have always been a comet but you were never looking up

i am tired of being a dandelion and trying to get you to blow me away

you see i love it when i meet you in my dreams now i always get to be the first to leave

i think it’s still love even if it’s unrequited

i don’t know what it’s like to be called beautiful

you are allowed to mourn their absence without wishing for their return