That my brother ran away—I told Robert he wasn’t funny! And I was needy about Robert so Finnegan left, and it all comes back to me—the starting point is me. I don’t take steps to stop bad things, I never say no, you cannot, to the boys, to the men, to Samuel, to the one-night stand, to Robert, to Finnegan, to my little boy. Why didn’t I say, no, you can’t run away, you can’t leave me, you can’t bring home the sticks, you can’t have this cheap watch, I never say no when I should be saying no, but I refused to laugh at Robert’s joke and that started everything.
