When We Left Cuba

by Chanel Cleeton

like the first sip of rum curling in your belly.

“Fidel likes to cause trouble. His brand thrives on chaos, disorder, operating outside of the system. Don’t underestimate him,”

I miss the companionship of being around people with whom I can be myself.

If I’m going to have regrets in this life, I’d rather them be for the chances I took and not the opportunities I let slip away.

The thing about hope is that when it fills you, when you hold it in the palm of your hand, the promise of it is everything. You can go

for days, weeks, months, years on that hope, telling yourself everything will be fine, eventually, you’ll have what you’ve been waiting for, this is just a momentary setback in your life, one you will overcome. After all, if there isn’t a happy ending at the end of the story, what is the purpose of all of it?

If I’ve learned anything at this point, it’s that life comes down to timing. Things happen the way they are supposed to, the seemingly

insignificant moments stringing together to lead you down a path you never imagined traversing, with a man you can’t let go of and you can’t keep.

Love ebbs and flows, a low-level hum in the background, but anger sinks its claws in you and refuses to let go.

When I was a child, I believed if you wanted something badly enough, if you worked hard enough for it, if you pushed your way past the obstacles presented to you, well, it would be yours. But now I’m learning it’s not simply a

matter of will or desire; some things are perpetually out of our reach, and no matter how badly we wish it were otherwise, there are some battles whose outcomes are decided not in our hands, but in the stars.

Dreams never die all at once. They die in pieces, floating a little farther and farther

away each day.

The line between villain and hero is whisper thin and, very frequently, a matter of perspective.