Dark Notes

by Pam Godwin

“Sometimes you love people you shouldn’t, and in the endless space of that love, nothing else matters.”

Then he’ll release me, and the discomfort will end. The power in that breaks something open inside me. I want this. I feel it at gut level, this need for him to fuck my mouth savagely, carelessly, and without thought. Maybe because he’s held back for so long, restraining himself for me, and I ache to give this back to him. Or maybe because I want his hurt so hard and deep inside me that he’s all I feel.

My name reverberates through the theater as his body convulses and sighs. The power is mine. I bask in it. His hands tremble, and I grab them, hold them, our fingers intertwined. I have him.

“This is who I am, Ivory, and you are the essential and most important part of me.” He steps back. “Now bend over.”

The almighty confidence in his eyes tells me to shut up and pay attention because he’s about to share a mind-blowing experience with me. It’s his most powerful expression, one that’s probably gotten him laid, without a single spoken word, more times than I care to think about.

We need each other, not because our bodies fit so well together, but because our hearts beat the same tune, for the same reason.

Logging onto a cloud storage platform, I access the account I set up in the event Beverly decides to be a bitch. Kicking Ivory out of school? Definitely a bitch.