And I proposed to him myself, I asked him: “Marry me. I love you so much!” I fell in love up to my ears. He was such a great-looking guy. I was flying through the air. I asked him myself: “Marry me.” [Smiles.] Another time I’ll think about it and find ways of cheering myself up—like, maybe death isn’t the end, and he’s only changed somehow and lives in another world. I work in a library, I read a lot of books, I meet many people. I want to talk about death, to understand it. I’m looking for consolation. I read in the papers, in books, I go to the theater if it’s about death. It’s physically
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