The Crucible of Doubt: Reflections on the Quest for Faith

by Terryl L. Givens

In the end I have come to one simple truth: we choose. We choose what we will believe in and live by. We choose how we will behave and what we will hope for. I then bore testimony that I know that when I follow Christ’s teachings I have a better marriage. I know that when I serve and love others I am a happier person. I know that when I focus on love I form lasting deep relationships with others. I know that when I read scriptures in the morning with my daughter, she and I are happier together and more peaceful in our relationship. I do not know that the Church is true. I do not know that there is a God but I hope there is. I hope that the feelings of love and comfort and inspiration that would indicate that there is a loving God are not just brain chemicals and biology and psychology, but that they are evidences of Him. I hope that when we die we go home to loving Heavenly Parents. . . . And then I closed. I said all this with my bishop and stake president sitting behind me and all my ward listening. And it felt wonderful.