“That tells me why he did it,” I say eventually. “Not why he wouldn’t do it again.” “Because he spent four months after Suus fretting over whether he was finally going to get his answers, or about to go through the same pain all over again. As much as he wanted to think of you as a piece on the board, he never really could. He was so relieved when he heard you were alive. You remind him of Caeror more than he wants to admit.” I nod slowly. “He told me that, once.”
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