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by
Jahquel J.
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August 6 - August 7, 2025
“I don’t give trust easily, but if my son loves you and trust you, I’m always going to come running for you or my grandson. Aimee, I say this with love, I will rip your teeth out your mouth, I’m a dentist, I know my way around teeth. So if you prove me wrong… I’ll do it with a smile on my face.”
It was an amazing thing to witness someone become comfortable with you. Little by little, Alaia revealed her personality to me. She was sarcastic as shit and always had a dirty joke. She was slowly allowing her walls down so I could see the Alaia that darkness had covered many years ago.
Capri needed to learn to grow up and stop running from shit when it became too hard. Kincaid had fucked up in the past with his bad ass judgment but had long fixed it. He gave me his word that nothing was going on between him and Jasmine, and I trusted him until he gave me another reason.
“And would do it again in a heartbeat. I’m more concerned about you and Capri… the fuck going on?” He leaned back and popped open his bottle. “She got it in her head that I’m cheating with Jasmine. I spent the night at Jasmine’s house and slept on the couch. Capri called me and I told her where I was at. She took it upon herself to break up with me.”
Kincaid looked at me before moving his seat back some. “Shit is complicated, Capp… not even going to hold you. Me and Capri got a lot of shit to figure out. Her moms passed and I’m trying to be there for her. Told Capri that I would fucking hurt myself before I ever allowed myself to hurt her.” I could see in his eyes that he wasn’t telling me everything. I really couldn’t blame my sister for trying to end things before she got hurt again. Her marriage to Naheim really broke her and fucked her trust all the way up.
“Why the fuck would you kill her? She not mixed in that other shit… you don’t think I did my own research.” “Yeah, your other research had you fucking Tasha and actually giving a fuck about her.” “I didn’t care about no fucking Tasha.” “And Kendra never sucked my dick.” I paused. “My fault, son.”
“A hood nigga that finds a wife, finds a good thing.” Naheim raised his glass. “How the fuck would you know?” Chubs laughed, teasing Naheim, who bumped his shoulder. “Shut the fuck up… this ain’t about me. To Cappadonna and Alaia… May someone finally be able to calm this crazy ass nigga.”
They never stopped being in love, no matter how hard life got for them. I remember my cellie asked how I ended up in prison if I was raised with both my parents in the house. I told him that it was my burden to carry, not my parents. They did what they were supposed to do, and I just wanted to give them more. I would do it again if it meant I could witness you both sitting here surrounded by your kids, grandchildren, great-grandkid, and family.”
“So, on this anniversary, I asked both my parents how they would feel if I got married on their date. With my own family, I could only pray that my union will be blessed like yours.” I choked on my mock-tail. “What?” Cappadonna turned toward where I was sitting. “I believe you made me a promise, Joy. You said you would marry me anywhere… and you would meet me down the aisle. What you say, Baby?”
We took a step and heard the live band that was tucked in the corner. “Promise” by Jagged Edge played as I started to walk. My legs were wobbly because I was so emotional. Cappadonna used his scarf that was wrapped around his shoulder to wipe his eyes. The closer that we got, I could see that he was crying while holding our daughter. Our daughter.
“Her name means joy, and that’s what she has brought to my life since we met. I can’t even picture what life was like before you came waddling into my life again. I’d do everything all over again if that means you’ll be at the end waiting for me. I told you that I’m on your time, and I mean that always. I got your back, your sides, and your front, baby. I’m here and I’m never going anywhere.”
“You choose us. You’re the most patient person that I know, and so selfless. You are my superman, the man of my dreams, my home. I’m honored to stand before Allah and become your wife. I love you so much that it hurts at times. Thank you for taking the risk and deeming me worthy while healing a broken heart that you didn’t break.”
I don’t think I heard a word the officiant was saying. We were both caught up in our own world as we stared into each other’s eyes. Cappadonna’s stare was still intense, but I had learned to love it. Before, it used to make me nervous. Now, I was just turned on whenever he stared at me like that. With the way he was staring at me, it was like he was trying to undress me with his eyes.
“Good shit happens for you, Capp. Look around, nigga. All of this is ours. You have a wife now… something we spoke about when all of this was just talk. Now, you protect her with your life and love her with everything. Follow the example that was shown to us.”
“Baby Doll, what’s good with you?” “Honestly, I don’t know. I feel like I’m failing at this adulting thing. The one I wanted; I can’t have because my heart won’t allow me to open up to him like I once did.” She sighed. I followed her eyes to Naheim who was sitting at the bar laughing with Chubs. “And Kincaid?” “I feel like I’m keeping him from Jasmine. He loves her, Capp, and although he still treats me like gold, I can’t help but to feel like he should be with her.”
man had naheim never cheated they still would’ve been together and not having to deal with a broken heart once more.
If you would have asked me if I would be dancing in the middle of the beach with my new wife while singing oldies, I probably would have questioned if you were using the product I sold. I knew what I wanted my life to look like when I got out of prison, but knowing what you want it to look like, and what it actually looks like was two different things.
Did I love Kendra? I had love for her, but I was probably never truly in love with her. Witnessing the way Erin loved my brother made me want that for myself. Someone that I could break down these walls for and make me feel comfortable enough to trust them. Alaia had her own walls up when we met. Slowly, we both learned to trust each other. I learned to trust that someone could love a man as complex as me. She learned what love was and what it felt like to be loved and protected.
A tear slid down my face as I looked down at my mother, and she wiped it away. “I know you never think you’re deserving of good things, Baby. What you do to protect your family has nothing to do with the person you are, Cappadonna. You’ve always felt like you had to take care of me and your father since you were younger. We’re okay… it’s time for you to live your life and make up for all that time you missed.”
Cragmere villa was a private villa right on the edge of the island. It sat on a cliff with panoramic views of the ocean. No matter what side of the villa you were on, you would see the beach and the turquoise blue water. The huge infinity pool gave you a front seat view to Allah’s beautiful creation.
As happy as I was to have married my baby, I knew the minute we were back home we had a lot to do. We needed to move into the new house, and I had other shit that needed to be handled. Ace had been walking around too long for me, and I wanted to handle him.
“I’m about to break this fucking dress, Joy,” I warned her. She pulled on my lip, and that’s when I said fuck it and popped that dress open, sending buttons, zippers and whatever the fuck else flying everywhere. The dress became loose on her, and I pulled that shit down until she was standing in front of me in a slip.
I knew she had never had her pussy eaten, and it brought me joy that nobody had ever had her like I was about to. Spreading her legs, I went deeper, nipping at her pearl while she screamed out. She flipped and flopped all over the bed while I held her legs in place. Every time she tried to scoot away, I pulled her even closer to me, and then slowly swirled my tongue around inside her.
Sex was a sensitive subject for Alaia. It was something that was always negative for her, and I promised myself I would make her fall in love with it. To see it as a positive experience. Something that would only be shared between me and her. I would only see her like this, and I would be the only one that made her cum like she had just did.
My wife had me going crazy. I used to think that pussy was just pussy, and if you had it once you’ve had them all. I ran through my fair share of pussy back in the day before Kendra. Even after having Kendra’s, I still felt the same. I felt like I could get what she had from any thirsty bitch waiting to give it. I stood corrected because pussy was different once love was connected to it. I watched as my wife rode my dick with tears coming down her eyes.
There were pictures of me, Jasmine, and my aunt everywhere. It had always been just the three of us for everything. Picking up the picture frame, I smiled at the picture of us at Dallas BBQs after my eighth-grade graduation.
As much as I wanted to hurt Kendra like she had hurt me through the years, it wasn’t worth it anymore. How much longer could I continued to be upset and continue to punish her.
I did take some pleasure in rubbing the shit in. “You both went ahead and got married… so proud of my parents.” “Capella, our marriage isn’t really legal. I never filed the papers when we got back. I’m going to leave him. It was a mistake to even marry him in the first place. I got caught up, and I guess I wanted to make your father jealous.”
Jasmine was always so bubbly and animated whenever she spoke. She was always so bright, a bright light in all of our lives. If it was one person that was going to be positive, it was my cousin. She didn’t believe in being negative. So, seeing how she was laying on this bed and how depleted she sounded hurt my heart.
“My job called me earlier and told me that they no longer need me. Apparently, I used all my time up, and since I didn’t show up this morning, they decided that was the final nail. When it rains, it rains fucking hard.”
i understand people are contracted within their jobs but the higher ups should know that not everyone can bounce back from death.

