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Doesn’t seem like I can find many people at all who understand the desire to make Sam and Dean not brothers, but rather . . . secret lovers.”
I’m judging her so hard for that
“And you didn’t think it was weird that we know them as brothers in real life?”
YES!
“Isn’t that what fan fiction is all about? Creating a world that’s separate from the original?”
NOT IN THIS CASE NO!
I love Brian. So much.
Do you?
I study him, truly study him. “Breaker, they’re so cliché.”
Ok I’m not like other girls 🙄
By the way, she ordered a salad with dressing on the side, no croutons, no onions, and no cheese. So basically, just lettuce and meat. Doesn’t she know that the croutons are the best part?
She’s just like me fr😭 (Birdy, I don’t like them croutons)
“I don’t know. I think the bucket hat looks good,” Lia says, her eyes flashing toward me.
If I’m being fully honest, I wouldn’t be comfortable w being in a relationship with someone that obsessed with their best friend, not if they’re the same sex they’re attracted to, there’s a very thin line there
Also I’m not a fan of Brian but Lia is way too obvious and in front of her FIANCÉ. Idk I’m not loving it
“I live off food trucks,” I say while taking another bite. “Near where we live is a taco truck that makes the best fucking tacos with dipping sauce. Lia and I try to limit ourselves, but it doesn’t help that they’re parked right around the corner.”
It’s annoying me soooo much that they mention each other 24/7 but don’t realise how obsessed and kinda unhealthy their relationship is if they want to pursue romantic relationships w other people 😭
And we talked about it a little today, said we could find a house near each other, still hang out.”
That’s just ridiculous I’m sorry 😭😭😭
Lia: Hey, you up? Lia: You never texted me after your date. Lia: Are you still with her?
If he was then he probably should be focusing on that..
I hate friends to lovers why am I doing this to myskef I’ll like it when they get together but hate all the first part
“Hello?” In a hushed voice, she asks, “Are you trying to replace me?”
HE’S TRYING TO DATE???? IS HE NOT ALLOWED???????????? UGH I CANT TAKE IT THIS IS SO ANNOYING TO MEEEEEE
“You won’t be alone. We’re going to live next to each other, remember?”
Ridiculous
“Well . . .” I can hear her take a deep breath. “You don’t have a lot in common. She seems like the popular girl type, and you’re more on the interesting scale.”
This I’m not like other girls thing is getting real old
“Well, not talking to me doesn’t help. We tell each other everything.”
She’s so needy I’m crying
“Wait, do you really think that’s it? That’s why I haven’t had a true girlfriend? Because I’ve leaned on Lia all these years?” “Yes,” Huxley says, exhausted. “It’s frightening that you haven’t taken note of that before. It’s so fucking obvious.”
Fr lmao
“I guess so,” I say as my mind whirls. “But just one second. Do you think I should . . . I don’t know, stop hanging out with Lia so much?”
Yes you do
Not me rooting against the main couple bye
“I know that,” I say, exasperated. “But with Brian and Lia getting married soon, shouldn’t I back away a bit? Brian already has issues with how much time Lia and I spend together. Like, I should hand him the torch, right?”
Tbh yeah you’re taking up his roles
Lia: A rain check? Is this my Pickle? Just want to make sure he wasn’t abducted or anything. Breaker: Not abducted, just have plans. Oh.
Im SICK why do I find this so satisfying
Lia: Four times? That’s more than you’ve seen me. The disparity weighs heavily on my already churning stomach.
Oh cmon you’ve probably seen each other more than you’ve seen your own fiancé
Also . . . he could invite me to go out to the bar with everyone. Clearly, I’m not doing anything tonight.
Gah no
Bet it’s a sports bra and shorts. She seems nice and all but also . . . a bit thirsty.
Girl the jealousy is coming out of your ears
Breaker: It’s not, but the fact of the matter is, I can’t be there for you like I am now. I can’t be your companion, and you can’t be mine, simple as that.
True !
So taking a chance, I say, “Uh, Brian, I need to make an important business call. I’m going to run over to Breaker’s so I don’t bother you.”
I genuinely can’t stand her and I think that makes every action of her seem annoying
“I don’t need you to include him. I do my own things with Brian. What I need you to do is stop pushing me away.”
Fr, I can’t wait for her to cancel the wedding I think then I’d like her more, cause she’s so against anything changing it’s annoying, she’s in de ni al because when you’re married everything DOES change, your partner should be one you go to first, they should be the most important person, the one you want to tell everything to. Brian isn’t that so she’s holding onto Breaker and not letting him be his own person
“We’re just . . . we’re too close.” “Too close?” I nod sarcastically. “Okay, so the friendship we’ve built over the last decade is too good. That’s the problem?” I step away. “Okay, good to know. I’m sorry for caring about you so much and being a part of your life to the point that I’ve actually hurt you.”
If she could just get out of her own head for a minute she’d realise he’s making sense. They rely on each other for EVERYTHING, which is why none have have been able to be in healthy relationships, and if they’re the other person will always question their friendship bc it IS questionable how much they need each other
“No, you don’t,” I say as I turn around on him. “That’s really shitty, Breaker, for you to push me away because you think I’ve prevented you from finding someone to be with. I’ve done nothing of the sort. Your dating life is your problem, not mine. Maybe instead of looking at the people who love you and support you to blame, try looking inward. I’m not the reason you’re not with someone. The reason you’re single is because you don’t ever think anyone is good enough. Your standards are so impossibly high that no one will ever match them. That’s the problem. Not me.”
She probably does have a point but let’s be real, their standards are each other, the only reason is in a relationship is bc she SETTLED and Breaker doesn’t wanna do that. He’s never gonna find anyone bc he’s been relying on Ophelia and whenever someone does something different to waht she would do he would question it
“I wasn’t comparing you to Breaker,” I say through clenched teeth. “You didn’t have to. I could see it written all over your face.”
SEE!
And when he curls into me, spooning me from behind so we both can get some sleep, I go along with it because I can’t do anything else to stop the sensation of feeling empty inside.
YOU ARE NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM! YOU LOVE HIM AND YOURE SCARED TO END IT BUT YOURE NOT _IN_ LOVE WITH HIM!
I know I told him not to bother showing up for the dress shopping, but he really isn’t going to be there?
At this point my eyelid will disconnect from my eyeball from how hard it’s twitching
Is that what my life has come to? I don’t have any other friends? I don’t have any other support?
Im really not trying to be mean I actually feel sorry for her.
Lia, you have been relying SO HEAVILY on Breaker for everything, your relationship has been so unhealthy that you guys haven’t given each other time to meet other people, to make more friends, because you only ever “needed” each other. THAT is why you need to take a step back form the friendship, bc it’s TOO much. Too much codependency, too much neediness from from BOTH of y’all.
I’ve isolated myself so much after their deaths that I’ve slowly lost any other friendships I had besides Breaker because he was the one who held me when I cried. He distracted me when I was feeling sad. He kept me moving forward.
This is what I’m talking about. You neglected everyone bc Breaker was there 24/7 and it shouldn’t have been like that
“Oh, I blocked off the shop for us so we won’t be disturbed by any other people searching for a dress. I thought having the shop to ourselves could ensure we stay focused on what we’re looking for.”
My anxious ass would love that
“Don’t leave,” I say in a panic. “Help me into these dresses.” “Uh, don’t you want an attendant to do that?” I shake my head. “I’m so freaking raw right now, Breaker. I can barely breathe. I need you in here, with me, by my side. Please stay . . .”
Aaaaand you turned a nice thing into an annoying plead
“Breaker? It’s me. Open up.” “Oh, uh . . . Lia, is that you?” I even roll my eyes at myself. “Yes, Breaker. What are you doing? Open up.”
“Open up” 🙄
“Let me get you situated in the guest room.” She shakes her head. “No, I don’t want to be alone. Can I sleep with you?”
This is so not okay. SO not okay
“Uh, don’t you think that might be a little inappropriate?” I ask gently, trying not to rock the boat on the emotions. “We’ve done it before. Why would it be any different now?” she asks.
Bro you have a FIANCÉ. If my boyfriend was sleeping in bed with his girl best friend I wouldn’t like it at all
“But,” I find myself saying like a dipshit, “if that doesn’t bother you, then sure.”
Breaker you’re an idiot
With a touch more confidence, I make my way to the bedroom, where I find Lia sitting on the edge of the bed, wearing one of my T-shirts.
Oh my goodness she lived next door and she couldn’t get her own pajamas? I’m so over her
I grip the counter, glance up into the mirror to see how truly pathetic I am, and that’s when I spot her pink lace bra hanging on one of the hooks behind me.
Nah she’s so disrespectful towards her own relationship I genuinely cant. When I try to find reasons to give her the benefit of the doubt she goes and does stupid stuff like that
Clearing my throat, I say, “Uh, Lia, you left your bra hanging in here.” “I know. I didn’t want to fold it,” she calls out.
Aaaaaaand yeah. I don’t like her. I’m hate reading this book at this point.
She scoots backward. Uh, what is she doing? Then some more. Excuse me, you’re getting kind of close. Her ass bumps into my leg. Warning! Warning! She’s way too close. “Whatcha got going on there?” I ask her, my body stiff as a board. “Can you hold me, Breaker?”
I HATE HER! This is SO wrong it feels so wrong to read, I don’t know what kind of cheating this is but IT IS! This is so inappropriate. If she wasn’t the main love interest and we were reading the story from another point of view everyone would see how wrong this is
“Please, Breaker. I could really use the comfort.”
she’s too much
“Um, do you think Brian would like to know that I held you at night?” “I don’t know.” “Yes, you do,” I say. “He would hate it.” “It’s not like it matters. I’m not cheating on him. You’re my best friend, my family, the only person who can truly make me feel at peace. If you were a girl, I’d ask you to do the same.”
BUT HE’S NOT! This is so wrong and she tries to fix it by saying these stupid things but it’s just wrong! It’s YOUR fault you became so dependant on him tht you lost all your other friendships
Luckily, I don’t have to debate it too long because she lowers my arm around her stomach and scoots in closer so her body is plastered against mine. Right up against me. Back to chest.
I doNT know if I can keep reading this
I loosen my grip on her shirt and, instead, rest my warm palm against her exposed hip. I find the seam of her underwear and gently press my index finger against it as my blood burns for more. You’re so close, just . . . just slip your finger under the seam, see what she does. Gauge her reaction.
I hate this so much. She’s engaged, and while Birdy and Breaker aren’t exclusive, I still think she’s owed respect.
So I slip my finger softly under the seam of her underwear, right on her hip. She smiles.
STOP HIM! STOP! HIM! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THESE TWO!
I shrug. “Probably not as long. Brian is not that obsessed with me. I’m guessing he’ll be the guy who brings work on his honeymoon.” The words come out of my mouth before I can stop them. When I glance at Breaker, his brow is furrowed, and I can tell he wants to say something. “Who knows, though,” I continue. “He can be very attentive at times.”
How do u not realise
Lia: I need more friends! I need girl friends, to be precise. Lottie and Kelsey seem cool, and if they’re going to be on our Family Feud team, then I need to get to know them.
It’s good you realise this
Huxley: What do you mean you need to know what to do? She just broke up with her fiancé and called her wedding off. You do nothing. You be a friend.
My favourite hands down
“You fucking idiot,” Huxley says.
LITERALLY
